Sorry for all the swearing ahead of time. I AM NOT HAPPY &&
F U C K
Dilemma so far?
So my mom and I went to the mall yesterday and I got 3 pairs of jeans, ALL different sizes. I COULDN’T EVEN FUCKING FIT INTO THE BIGGEST FUCKING SIZE.
so.. just imagine my fucking morning. I no joke blame it on my ass. Here is a recent pic of this nonstop growing ass of mine:
LIKE W T F ? !
NOT my house and no that’s NOT a fucking cat.
and NO these were not photoshopped, even though I was browsing my blog and they FER SURE looked photoshopped. But they are NOT. I pinky promise.
BUT today I start cardio so that’s something to look forward too (not technically but you know lol).
On my mood:
I am not really depressed, or feeling THAT down, but it sucks. I actually want to say that whenever I felt fat, or unattractive I would binge (weird right, because binge’ing is going to make me soooo much skinnier..LOL).. but I didn’t even think to cheat, even when my mom randomly and coincidentally asked “so how do your pants fit marissa?” great mom, just great.
I couldn’t even answer her.
So this is what I am struggling with today. I feel fine, and actually I feel really pretty.
Until I feel/notice my muffin top.
830am Had my Myofusion and PB2 protein shake.
10am I’m going to snack in an hour or so. My stomach is getting pretty hungry but I need to go to Whole Foods to get a chicken breast. I don’t think I have enough food for today because I wanted to get the fuck out of the house because I was going to get bitchy. I’m just focusing today, knowing it will be a good day.
1130am Went to Whole Foods in Chicago and it was A W E S O M E. IT WAS HUGE! I ate 2 pieces of honey flank steak and got a piece of turkey that has spinach provolone and tomatoes in it. Pretty excited about that;) lol. It was nice to get out of the office for 2 hours =D
Looks A LOT better then it tasted (AND it was like $6)
As for the gym later tonight (730pm), I am going to do back instead of legs, because my legs are KILLING me still. Training schedule for this week:
- Monday: Back
- Tuesday: Legs
- Wednesday: OFF (for now)
- Thursday: Shoulders/chest
- Friday: Legs w/ calves
- Saturday: Arms
- Sunday: Cardio/Plyo.