I have recently gotten a huge hit of negative comments via Facebook and instagram. Since I am currently on a 30 day “time out” from Facebook and instagram is down at the moment, I decided to rant here. What better way to do so, eh?
I have always hated my body. I have always hated my nose, my teeth, my hips, and the bags under my eyes. I have had eating disorders ranging from anorexic to bulimia, ever since I could remember. I have lived this way for 23 years. Do you POSSIBLY think that your negative comments could hurt me? Trust me, I can belittle myself better than anyone could possibly imagine. Now this isn’t a pity party or a post for sympathy. I am simply trying to make it aware that judging someone or someones life/morals/values doesn’t say anything about the person you’re referring to, rather yourself. Who are you to judge the life I live?
Yes, my Facebook, instragram, and twitter are filled with provocative pictures and vulgar statements.. regardless I know who I am and (besides the things I can’t change at the moment) I LOVE who I am. I love the things I stand for and believe in. I do not CRAVE attention but yes I know that posting these pictures will receive it. I have never liked who I am, or the body/face I was given but posting these pictures, obviously means I am some what proud.
I swear like a mother fucker, and am very opinionated. There are things I am working on changing but who I am, is who I want to be. I have been called EVERY name in the book, been talked about behind my back, and even been posted on TheDirty.. Does it seem like I am slowing down?