Scholarship essay. Learning.

Writing an essay means researching the topic. Luckily for some, the topic is on oneself. With that being said, I’ve currently written this essay a dozen times and still can’t manage to save a draft. Writing about something so close to me, makes me come off as cheesey and that’s the last thing I want. I want people to read this and feel the passion that I have for the health (fitness) and the wellness field. Hopefully you can tell by the end of this what has motivated me, why I myself could use the help and how I will help not only the community I live in, but as many people everywhere that I can.

I’ve been working as a personal trainer for about 5 years now, and in doing so, I’ve realized how truly amazing it is to impact someone’s life. Someone who may be battling the same demons I once did. I may be living paycheck to paycheck, but I’m helping people help themselves, and no amount of money could bring the same amount of joy. I’ve struggled with finding myself worth, wondering if I can actually make a difference. Know a days, everyone is a trainer or some sort of guru. I, for one, want to stand out. I don’t just want to fall in the cracks of this every growing industry, preaching anything just to make a few dollars. Being a trainer for as long as I have, I now know that this isn’t just physical. That there is no magic pill, that every part of this process is mental and emotional. In order for me to help the way I need to help, I need to be taught. I attend classes taught by people like Frank Ardito, and it gives me goose bumps. The knowledge that these people possess is overwhelming, yet so admirable. All I want is to be able to teach and bring knowledge to those who truly want it. Who want help to understand what is truly going on inside of them. What has given me hope in becoming who I’m meant to be has been continuing my education. Although, I didn’t go to college right after high school, I knew what I wanted to become. I knew I was going to be in the fitness industry for the rest of my life, and it still stands true today. The people I meet, the lives they’ve said I’ve helped change, the relationships, the success, the failures, the knowledge; it’s all been my motivation. It’s the guilt from not doing everything I could to attend college post high school, which has put my dreams on hold. I know it may sound like an excuse, but it’s the truth. Without a proper education, I feel like I am not giving everything I can to my clients. People want to see that you know what you are talking about, so I want to feel like I know what I am talking about. Like Albert Einstein once said, “Any fool can know. The point is to understand.” I want to be taught the things I need to know, because as much as I feel my personal experiences help greatly, I can’t be naïve to the fact that I have a lot to learn.

“There is no end to education. It is not that you read a book, pass an examination, and finish with education. The whole of life, from the moment you are born to the moment you die, is a process of learning- Jiddu Krishnamurti”. I may not have much, I may be 25 still living at home, I may feel stuck most days, but what I do have is the ability to see past the struggles, and understand that each day I continue to do what I was meant to do, is going to have such a great return in the end.

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2 thoughts on “Scholarship essay. Learning.

  1. jlgentry says:

    “I knew I was going to be in the fitness industry the rest of my life.” If there is a line that sums it all up, that is the one. Having followed your journey for some time now, I am always struck by your commitment. At first I was reading because I wanted to get a personal view of what it took to be a competitor, but my interest morphed. Your posts matured into something directional. You stopped looking at the outcome of your craft and started telling us what you really thought and what was important to you – helping people find themselves through fitness. Fitness is about discipline and about facing pain to improve, challenging yourself to find just how much you can really do. You have challenged yourself in many ways. Even when you have self doubt you find the strength to step up to it. Failure happens. You get back up and drag your ass out of bed because you have a calling.

    It shows in your words. This is a part of you that a year ago you could not have expressed. You kinda had an inkling, but now you have clarity. The fact that you see that there is much to learn, but the learning will help others and that is the reward for the hard work. You aren’t in it for the money. You are in it because in helping others you help yourself and that is a high that no drug can offer.

    Yes, your passion comes across. You aren’t oozing trite statements and gushing like a beauty queen, you are being you and that is very powerful.

    ***Writer hat being put on. There are a few errors – the wrong words that are correctly spelled – so if you want me to tell you what I noticed, I’d be happy. If it makes your work a little better, that would make my day.

    • Marissa says:

      Your comments always put a smile on my face, which lately has been hard to do. I screen shot all of them. Any who, dammit.. That’s my weakness. I don’t revise the stuff I write because that means I’ll have to reread it, which I dislike greatly. Although I turned it in, I’d appreciate hearing what you noticed. 🙂

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