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2 weeks down, 2 to go!

Not too much to update this week. I had time to blog last night but I really just wanted to lay in bed without a care in the world. I’ve been up too early every day that I am starting to wake up around 6-7 am every morning now. Hmmm… It wouldn’t be such a bad thing if my dog sucked at cuddling… Any who had a good week/end. Stayed consistent with my diet AND my work outs. My wrist has been hurting a little bit so I am staying off it as much as possible (ie. clients carrying weights LOL).. I did 2 spin classes, another 30 min on the treadmill at an incline and an hour bike ride yesterday with Michele.

Bike ride with Michele to Independence Grove

Bike ride with Michele to Independence Grove

Independence Grove in LV

Independence Grove in LV

The boy left for a week long fishing trip Saturday night, so I really want to take this week and focus on me and what I had to do. I went out to dinner with my aunt and uncle Friday night and I now have 5825820 more things going through my head. Hopefully each day, I am one step closer to figuring out what the fuck I want to do with my life. I feel like a 17 year old senior trying to decide a major. Lucky for us, we have all the time in the world to figure out what makes us happy. Because at 17 years old….. I did NOT have the same outlook on life like I do now. At least I haven’t spent thousands of dollars being undecided half way thru college. Now.. I just want to go. I shit myself every time I think that had i just gone away to school or fuck at least STARTED right after high school, that I would be done and holding a degree as I typed this. However, the bright side.. is that I have lived life for a little bit in the real world and I now know have a little more common sense and street smarts to hopefully make better decisions from here on out.

No regrets, just a reason to do things differently this time around..

Speaking of doing things differently..



FInished my weekend off with stuffing my face with those pumpkin chocolate chip muffins from the previous post. Though, I did change a few things up. But hey, they taste great and I saved you hundreds of calories! The original post IS paleo however.

I actually made two batches. One right before I left for Michele’s (brought her and Nina some) and some as soon as I got home from her house. They were THAT good. That, and I wanted to try to make some changes. It called for coconut oil. I THOUGHT I had some, instead I used olive oil (added about 350 calories, in which I originally thought it added over 1000 and I was like NOOOOO!! but I was wrong, thank God. Only 350 calories per batch of 6 muffins). Paleomg.com also called for maple syrup. Yea, pretty sure that’s another 300 calories (1/3c) in which I added zero calorie Walden Farms pancake syrup. MMMM…. This batch I also added 2 and 1/2 tablespoons of brown rice protein powder. THEY WERE GOOD!!!!!

The second batch I omitted the oil completely and added 1/3c unsweetened applesauce. I did the same thing with the maple syrup (I mean come on.. I just saved you like 5-600 calories and a shit ton of sugar in a batch!!!) and protein powder.  My mom liked the first recipe better.. but to be honest I think they both taste fantastic.

Macro breakdown for the SECOND batch made with applesauce:

{Recipe makes 6 muffins}
Calories: 177
Carbs: 17.3g
Fat: 4.1g
Protein: 13.3g
Sugar: 1.1g

*also had 42g of fiber. So 7g of fiber per muffin. Maybe next batch I’ll add flaxseed.

Other than that I am just hanging out about to get ready for a client then a killer leg work out with my girl. Mixing this blog post with a photo hoarder post. That’s all for now! Enjoy.

@mankofit FLAWLESS physique

@mankofit FLAWLESS physique





Doesn't need anymore explanation.

Doesn’t need anymore explanation.

Neither does this one and yet I am still trying to find a balance between eating clean and allowing my body to eat like shit, feel like shit for a few seconds of pure bliss.

Neither does this one and yet I am still trying to find a balance between eating clean and allowing my body to eat like shit, feel like shit for a few seconds of pure bliss.

Another physique. Different than the previous one, but still A M A Z I N G!

Another physique. Different than the previous one, but still A M A Z I N G!

* Title of this post is in relation to the 4 week no cheat challenge I have going on with a few friends. One month of no cheats, that’s it. All healthy wholesome foods. It’s only 4 cheat meals were missing out on. With a few good recipes like that Pumpkin CC, and I could go my whole life-like this 😉

Except if someone offered pizza. Sorry.. no whole wheat crust could satisfy what an oil filled mess restaurants sure could.. 😛

** NONE of these pictures are mine unless stated otherwise. I usually edit the pictures when I screen shoot (lol) it but figured if I ever forget to label or give credit to someone, hopefully the picture will have already done that.


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Stellas gettin’ her groove back!

It’s only 11am on sunday and I have managed to open my lap top and blog. Imagine that.

After a few rough days, I have officially completed 1 week of the girls and I, 30 day clean eating challenge. Go me! I had many chances to fuck this up.. and even thought about saying fuck it atLEAST once.. but I held my own. I put the cravings and self-doubt aside, and stayed positive. A week is easy. I’ve done it before. I’ll do it again, and will continue to eat a well-balanced “diet” for the rest of my life.. Though, I seem to struggle the most when I get close to the end of something. Its like I purposely fuck up just so I can keep say that I am doing it.. or I don’t know.. all I know is I have yet to fully succeed in something I put my mind to. This goes, not only for my road to ripped idea, but outside of that.. I feel like I have nothing. I am living each day overwhelmed which ideas and goals and come to find out I have been sitting at a dead-end. Its like.. you know you should turn around, maybe ask for help… but my stubborn ass thinks there’s some magic get way to wherever the fuck I’m going.

I want to start proving MYSELF wrong. I want to silence the voice in my head, that doesn’t talk but fills my mind with doubt. That steals the confidence, I try to build each and every day. I want to free myself from the negativity I choose to believe. I want to become something.

I just have to figure out what that something is…


Well, lets dabble a little into my fitness life.. you know.. the reason I started this blog in the first place?

I got a promotion at my club, yay! (not), and now I want to take my training to the next level. Hold people more accountable, adjusting my clients to a healthy lifestyle in a more fun and enticing way.. I want to be more of a trainer than I am. So I want to start putting together a book.. Like a get fit 101 book… or the guide to being ripped! lol.. kidding.. girls would read that and be like.. omg, no. so.. fine.. But I want to help people learn the basics before jumping into anything because in a few months they’ll be jumping back to their old ways.

I just want people to understand that getting fit and healthy is TRULY not a punishment. This life is actually very enjoyable. I do however think I would enjoy it a TAD bit more have I not spend 80% of my week in the gym, but hey! Least, I have no excuses. I mean, I have them, but.. you’re at the gym, get shit done. Plain and simple. lol.

Eating a chipotle salad. Chipotle is one of my favorite places to eat when I looking for a healthy alternative.

Eating a Chipotle salad. Chipotle is one of my favorite places to eat when I looking for a healthy alternative.

Loving isopure right now. Quick and easy way to get your protein in. Also trying a brown rice protein. Ingriedient list was 5 or less which is fantastic for a p. powder.

Loving isopure right now. Quick and easy way to get your protein in. Also trying a brown rice protein. ingredient list was 5 or less which is fantastic for a p. powder.

Locked and loaded for the day. I have some of my food (chicken breast greek yogurt and nuts) a banana, my BCAA's a huge water bottle, and a quest bar (obviously).

Locked and loaded for the day. I have some of my food (chicken breast greek yogurt and nuts) a banana, my BCAA’s* a huge water bottle, and a quest bar (obviously).

Friday Mornings Breakfast @ Pancake house. This was a tough one for me but I made it work. They had a different variety of pancake batters, wheat germ, buck wheat and a gluten free one.. After googling (yes, at the table) the differenes and what would be better, I decided to go with the wheatgerm pancakes. They were small and I finished one of them. They werent bad.. I would of ate the but I did feel a tad bit guilty. They tasted almost like the after taste of a raisin... lol

Friday Mornings Breakfast @ Pancake house w the Boo. This was a tough one for me ( I FUCKING LOVE ANYTHING THAT NEEDS HAS OR IS INVOLVED IN BATTER BEING USED!!!!!) but I made it work. They had a different variety of pancake batters, wheat germ, buck wheat and a gluten free one.. After googling (yes, at the table) the differences and what would be better, I decided to go with the wheat germ pancakes. They were small and I finished one of them. They weren’t bad.. I would have ate the but I did feel a tad bit guilty. They tasted almost like the after taste of a raisin… lol

* Branched Chain Amino Acids (BCAA’S):

  • The BCAAs include leucine, isoleucine, and valine, and they support everything from anabolic muscle building to high-intensity endurance training to improving mental function and mood.
  • How and When to Take BCAAs
    The critical nature of an organized nutrition protocol is indicated with research evidence that protein synthesis is enhanced by BCAA supplementation for up to 24 hours after weight lifting to the point of muscle failure. Training to failure with both 30 percent and 90 percent of the 1RM load will sensitize the muscle to protein feeding for 24 hours after the workout. The key is maximal fiber recruitment versus submaximal-achieving failure primes the body for protein feeding, which should be consumed with BCAAs throughout the day.

The first thing you’ll experience if you choose to supplement your diet with branched chain amino acids (BCAAs) is immune system support. Every time you go into the gym and lift weights, you are placing an enormous amount of stress on the body. If the body is not able to fully tolerate this stress level, that’s when you’re going to see problems develop regarding muscle recovery and, possibly, an increased likelihood of illness.

Because the essential amino acids cannot be produced by the body and must be consumed directly, if you fail to get these in your body, it will not have everything it needs to maintain a normal, healthy immune system. Further, one study performed by the Laboratory of Human Nutrition for Athletes suggested that taking branched chain amino acids around exercise also decreased the immune system response that is demonstrated.

  1. Support Muscle Protein Synthesis
  2. BCAA Levels Correlate with an Optimal Body Composition
  3. Evidence of Strength Gains from Taking Leucine with Training
  4. Can Decrease Muscle Soreness, Particularly DOMS
  5. Improve Mood and Decrease Depression with BCAAs

The next couple of weeks are going to be a little stressful. Not like they always aren’t but this is where I want to start opening doors, seeing whats inside, going places. I don’t want to be stuck anymore…

So with that being said, I am going to copy and paste a recipe from Paleomg.com that I stumbled upon and so excited that I did! I have been wanting to use pumpkin for a while now (no, not band wagon jumping, but there are some really good recipes for clean eating that involve pumpkin that I have yet to make)! Like this pumpkin chocolate chip muffin recipe..

Pumpkin Chocolate Chip Muffins


Prep time:  10 mins
Cook time:  40 mins
Total time:  50 mins
Serves: 5
  • ⅓ cup pumpkin puree
  • ⅓ cup maple syrup
  • ¼ cup coconut oil, melted
  • 3 eggs, whisked
  • 1 teaspoon vanilla extract
  • ¼ cup coconut flour
  • ½ teaspoon cinnamon
  • ¼ teaspoon nutmeg
  • ⅛ teaspoon ground cloves
  • ⅛ teaspoon powdered ginger
  • ½ teaspoon baking soda
  • ½ teaspoon baking powder
  • pinch of salt
  • ½ cup Enjoy Life Mini Chocolate Chips
  1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees.
  2. Mix together wet ingredients in a bowl: pumpkin puree, maple syrup, coconut oil, eggs, and vanilla extract.
  3. In another bowl, whisk together coconut flour, cinnamon, nutmeg, ground cloves, powdered ginger, baking soda, baking powder, and salt.
  4. Pour dry ingredients into wet ingredients and mix well.
  5. Fold in chocolate chips.
  6. Line a muffin tin with paper liners. Use an ice cream scoop to one scoop of batter per muffin. Makes 5 full muffins.
  7. Bake for 35-40 minutes


I want to gather recipes that are simple and easy and wont make you feel like you’re missing out on having high cholesterol. You think as long as I gave credit to people’s recipes I can give them out? … Like hey.. instead of a bunch of lard on your plate, that unless you are active enough and burn it off will result in cellulite build up on your thighs, try this! I don’t know how that works with recipes and stealing and I clearly can NOT take any credit for jack shit because I am NOT creative in the kitchen. Could I be? possible. But I’m not (sure as hell no Vivian! lol Love you girl. @fitaliciousme). So no point in lying or taking credit for someone elses ideas.

We shall see.. I mean, I can barely focus enough to make this blog anything special.. So who knows what I come up with in the weeks to come. Le boyfriend IS leaving me for a week-long fishing trip…. Hmmm…

P.SI want to apologize to ruining.. wasting? I dnt know the right word I am looking for, but your time at your buddies birthday last night. It was bad timing and my stubborn ass is mixed with emotion and constant ups and downs that I hope you know where I am coming from when I tell you the things I do, and feel and why I do and feel them. I may sound crazy at the time but I hope you can look back on it and know that it comes from a good place even though I am THEE worst person to try to express it. You are a good person with a great heart and I hope one day we start turning the pages together.

I love you.






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Highlights of my week (since I fell off the radar. Imagine that):


Leg Day and holy hell was it crazy.
300 squats. Yes, 3 0 0.
50 @ 45lbs
40 @ 65lbs
30 @ 85lbs
20 @ 105lbs
10 @ 125lbs
10 @125lbs
20 @ 105lbs.. ext you get the picture. All the way back up to 50 reps.

It took us a little over an hour to complete. I was exhausted.


I have been tracking my food intake for the last couple days. I have been staying around 2000 calories but haven’t been paying attention to my carbs/protein as much. Starting this week (tomorrow), I will get more detailed about it.

2051 calories
244g carbs
191g protein
36g fat

With 1196 calories burned via exercise.


Didn’t have too busy of a day. Most of my clients cancelled. I really didn’t do a full work out either. I attempted to do a little upper body but mentally was just not there. The calories burned (286) were from taking Marley to the park. I did some lunges and a sort little exercise. I didn’t count (or track via my heart rate monitor) the sad excuse for an upper body work out I did before I had my first client. So, nothing too interesting. Nor anything to “highlight”.

1814 calories
185g car
196g protein
42g fat

286 calories burned via exercise.


Woke up pretty early for my first client around 8am. I had one more before I did a spin class at 9am. This is basically my only form of cardio right now. So yes, not as lean as I would like but I am not going to do what I did last contest prep and over due cardio to try to speed up the process.

Here is a picture I took Saturday:


Sitting at 150lbs still. Not losing any weight, but I am not really trying to. Again. have been eating around 2000 calories and only about an hour of cardio. It is very important that the next 15 weeks, that I stay positive and in the day. Last prep, I did too  much cardio and lost my ass in fear that my abs wouldn’t show. For anyone doing a competition (actually, for any one starting a new fitness regimen) DO NOT FIGHT THE PROCESS!! Of course we all want to be lean and some of us would like to look “shredded”. It WILL come. Just be patient. I have a lot of room to play around with via my food intake and adding more cardio. You have to understand the basics before you start starving yourself to lose the weight. What ends up happening is you mess up your metabolism and will gain the weight right back. It is a vicious cycle. Do some research, or hire someone to do it for you and take each day as it comes. I promise you that it will be worth it. Ended my work day around 1:30pm.

On my way to the boys house!

On my way to the boys house!

I got home around 2 and took a shower before I headed to the boyfriend’s house. Actually, I took a shower and slept for an hour before I headed to the boyfriend’s house. He had a big party to go to that I was actually quite anxious about going too. I am not a big drinker (actually when I do drink, I don’t get drunk. So Please don’t pass the bottle, pass a motherfucking cupcake. Way worth the calories than)! I actually don’t like the whole partying lifestyle and quite frankly, just not my thing. So, that being said it was hard to see him enjoying his liquor as much as he was. I am however, not his mother and although I spoke my mind, I felt like I had no right. I want him to have fun.. but I don’t trust a lot about that lifestyle. Acting way different drunk than sober. Getting loud and acting like his friends but after a few talks with a new client of mine, and his and I’s tispy talk, I am no longer going to worry (yes, WAY easier said then done) about our relationship. I feel like I have finally found a happy medium and will continue to stay positive and pray. I don’t know. But before I choke on my words, It wasn’t that bad. Granted it was supposed to be WAY bigger than it was, I didn’t have as bad of a time as I thought I would sober. Just sat there drinking my water 🙂 and eating of course. Though, not everything I wanted. There was 3 different cakes, and dips and great freakin stuff! But I held my own and my lovely boyfriend fed me meat all night. I added in my calories (although I guessed) and it came out to be like 700 calories worth of meat. Def don’t think that’s legit but whatever 🙂 Still met my goal.

Well.. only because by the time I took 3 bites of his oreo cake (WHICH BTW WAS AMAZING), it was passed midnight. So I added the 150 calories of cake to the next day.

1990 Calories
158g carbs
133g protein
89g fat

317 calories burned via spin class.

Sunday Funday:

We didn’t get home till around 4am after making a pit stop at a secret fishing spot (he caught 2 bass pretty quickly and randomly) and at his buddies house. We slept in till around 12:30 ( I know!! :/) haha and headed downtown Chicago for some sushi. Knowing this, I was a little sad because it is my favorite sushi place and I really wanted to stay on my 4 week no cheat challenge. But when we got there, the owner who is one of our good friends picked out a dish that wasn’t on the menu and ordered it for me. It was basically chicken and veggies with brown rice (sauce on the side, though I just used soy sauce). I was super happy! And to think I thought all I would have would be edamame. Blah! After that, we drove home. He felt bloated (per usual) and I felt fine. It’s a whole different story when you don’t eat till you’re full. It almost feels good. Not to forget, that by 6pm I still had my abs. Hell yes! All thanks to a little challenge I created for myself. Only 10 days though!! Just 10 days and I can enjoy a full on cheat meal! So glad its my birthday too. It will be a double whammie!! yes.. I just said whammie.


Dragonfly in Chicago!

Dragonfly in Chicago!

We laid in bed for a bit, while the food digested. Took the dog for a walk and I left shortly after. I have to be up at 5am tomorrow and well.. it never gets any easier. Tomorrow is definitely going to be a long day, but I guess it is what it is. Hopefully have a nice little upper body work out!

1795 calories (although I MAY eat another meal. I’m not sure).
167g carbs
86g protein (fail)
57g fat

0 exercise. My lovely day off!

Time to snooze!

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I’ve seen better days.

Of course, its been 3 days since I last posted. Things have been hectic to say the least. Waking up at 4am the past few days and working till 9pm for a company that doesn’t deserve my time, is stressful. That being said, I am actively working towards my own business. No more just saying, but doing. Nerve racking like once said previously, but defiantly motivating in a way.

Other than work, my work outs have been solid and I am currently still doing fantastic on my 4 week no cheat challenge. I am seeing progress and I couldn’t be happier. Yes, I could be a lot leaner but I am keeping my strength which is huge for me. I still don;t know whether or not I want to compete in Nov, but I am definitely going to keep training and eating like I am. I think the only thing that will stop me is the money. It is NOT cheap to compete. It is also very time-consuming and at this very moment I have my college’s homepage up on another tab, hoping to get in some classes. I always have such a positive outlook on things and then instantly I am discouraged. I am hoping I can get my shit together and keep trucking through.

My progress picture.

My progress picture.

My work out partner, looking fly.

My work out partner, looking fly.

I haven’t been writing down or keeping track of what I have been eating. Hopefully, after downloading the My Fitness Pal app, that it will encourage me to do so. It will be interesting and helpful, so why not? Today, however, I ate:

1/2 c oatmeal with blueberries at 4:30am.Mixed in 1/2 Quest Bar at 4:45am.
6 egg whites at 8am.
1/2 c brown rice, broccoli and 6 oz chicken at 12pm.
4 egg whites, a little chicken at 2:30pm.
2 kashi waffles with a few blueberries at 3:00pm.
1/2c greek yogurt at 5:00pm.
6oz chicken and broccoli at 8pm.

More oatmeal. Jeez, you would think I actually like this shit.

More oatmeal. Jeez, you would think I actually like this shit.

photo 5

and so far that is it 🙂 I wonder how much this all adds up to. The app is currently downloading so we shall see. Still sticking around 150lbs. Haven’t lost or gained a pound. I don’t know if I am happy or sad about this. LOL. BUTTT I do have 16 weeks till the show and that is a LONG time. I haven’t been doing cardio, nor paid attention to my calorie intake which is important. I guess I’m just in no rush.

Poor Bunny :(

Poor Bunny 😦

Other than work and working out, which has been my whole life the last 3-5 months, my personal life is just okay. Besides having a cat constantly killing baby bunnies (not kidding. I rushed one to the hospital so it could be put out of its misery), I am having issues with the boyfriend, mostly because of the lack of trust. Though, I am going to stay strong and positive even if it kills me. I just wish life was easier. I deal with scumbags all day and I can only imagine what goes on when I;m not there. It’s a hard pill to swallow and I keep wanting to throw it back up. I mean, one day I am all fine an awesome girlfriend, the next I want to break up with him. I just think it would be easier, for both of us. I mean.. it’s not fair (what is?) to either of us. Me not being happy because I can’t get over shit that replays in my head over and over, and for him.. how I treat him and want to break up with him all the time. I hate to put my bullshit out in the air like this ,but it is what it is. I am venting and little do you know, that my personal life affects my work/working out life. It is a constant struggle and each and every emotion I feel, does not get ignored (unfortunately). That is all. If you don’t like it, no one told you to read it.

I just want a happy life with you. Only you. Forever. I know we have a lot to work on, but I WANT to work on it with you. I want a future with you. I love you. I was never like this before, and maybe it’s because I’ve never loved this hard before. But what I do know, is that I want you by my side through THICK and THIN. I promise to make you happy. I promise to never do you wrong. I am yours.

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