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Day 81 I want carbs.

“Officially” 2 weeks out.

(“officially” because technically I am 2 weeks out on Saturday, but I won’t be working out or doing much of anything really.. )

How am I feeling?  Like I want to get this all over with so I can finally breathe and think about something other then myself.  Not even that.. I am stalking the SHIT out of people who are competing and currently dieting for shows, and I am continuously comparing myself and that’s the LAST thing anyone should do, competing or not. 2 weeks. I can do this. It’s been over 2 months, and I am bitching about 2 weeks left? I need to get my head out of my ass.

The Food Log/ The Workout..

I ate great all day, a little less then I would of liked in the morning but no big deal. I did “overeat” by eating a piece of chicken and 1/2 a turkey burger but I suppose it was 2 hours after my last feeding, so I’ll leave the validation there.

I didn’t do morning cardio, but I went to the gym with Taylor at 830pm.

We did a little chest, then went and did 4 rounds of jump squats, bosu jumps, and advanced planks.

Then finished with 3 sets of planks, and 60 minutes of cardio.

Day 81 in Pictures..

  1. After the kids went to school, I made breakfast at my bosses house.. (spinach tasted like ass).
  2. I had to fight like hell and fighting like hell made me what I am.
  3. Whole Foods- Second run of the day.. (first trip cost me $25 for lunch), this one was about $52.. Detox tea, lemon, cranberry juices are for the detox in a week… coconut milk (for amazing whipping cream later), and about 3lbs of meat 🙂
  4. Protein Pancake (Just muscleegg and pb2).
  5. 1000 followers on Instagram ❤
  6. Taylors doggie.
  7. My mom grilled for me while I was away burning calories 🙂

So today was a little long, tomorrow will be even longer.. Had to leave at 630am to take my bosses kids to school. Missed cardio in the morning, but I WAS DEAD. and you know what.. I don’t care, obviously my body needed it.. because I would of been up regardless of how unhappy I may be at the time. Anywho did my day to day shit and got home around 630pm because I stopped at Whole Foods to get some meat for my mom to grill while I work out.  I did go to Libertyville Xsport to meet up with Taylor (who is literally going to be my new best friend), got into a little drama* and was in bed by midnight. Then knocked the FUCK out.

* My ex co workers boyfriend went up to Taylor and started a little small talk with her regarding something about tanning (idk I was working out, so I only heard a little bit of the convo).. so while on the treadmill I saw him again, so it reminded me to text her since I haven’t heard from her in awhile.. the convo went a little like this..

Hey, youre boyfriend is at xsport!
Her: Who is this new phone sorry
Marissa
Her: oh hey! which one?
Libertyville
Her: Did he say anything to you?
No to my friend though
Her: Oh being flirty?
no, just something about tanning I dont know..
Her: Oh okay, so how are you……. blahblahblah

Taylor and I were walking out and as we split ways, I see Nicole’s boyfriend sitting on the curb, and as soon as he sees me he comes up to me, IN MY FACE, and starts bitching at me because I’m causing drama and I said that he was flirting with Taylor and all this fucking bullshit. I was like WTF? I was like are you for real right now? Grow the fuck up. I didn’t do or say shit except  hey your boyfriend is at X sport. Told her you didn’t do shit, check her phone you fucking pansy (insert a SHIT ton more foul language).. I was so pissed at this point.. then he says something like “I don’t want to see you back here.” Are you fucking kidding me right now? UNbelieveable. Lmfao.

Yeah, great relationship that must be.

Anywho.. hope everyone stayed true to themselves and their goals today!

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79 Power through the pain period.

The Food Log

(Food will start looking the same, so sorry for the blandness)

730am Quest Bar
11am Ground Turkey w/ Asparagus
230pm ”  ”
630pm (so fucking hungry grrrr hate waiting for people) another Quest bar.. I was craving it.. and had a rice cake with it
945pm (Post workout) Just my Turkey Burgers and mustard

The Work Out

6am 45 Minutes Cardio
8pm Back (I don’t feel like writing out everything.  Sorry lol) Didn’t do much though, focused on lat pulldown, rows, and back ext.

+ another 45 Minutes Cardio

Day 79 in Pictures..

  1. Ground Turkey w/ Asparagus
  2. Mexican Food I had to pick up but couldnt eat and had to give away my lunch 😦 wamp
  3. Quest Bar and Rice cake? lmao.
  4. Marley being beautiful.
  5. Me.. can’t really see.. but IM THERE…Idk.
  6. Turkey Burgers w/ Pickles and Mustard. YUM
  7. LFL Tryouts are this Saturday……..hmmmmm
  8. Sorry for the screen shots.. but this recipe looks soooo good!

So the days seem to be just passing by. I feel like every decision has to be well thought out now. I have the basics.. I hope.. Just picked up the sponges and eye lashes. Planning out the food (most likely all from Whole Foods) to bring along. Need to book nail apt and book hotel for a night, so the whole tanning process won’t get hectic..(I need two-three coats.. one on Friday and one Saturday morning buck fuck early)..  and I need to be in Chicago by 8am for a mandatory meeting that obviously everyone rushes too and they just make you sit… whatever lol. I also need to figure out when I am getting my hair cut but I will see Taylor on Thursday to make everything set in stone. Other then that, Ive been looking at myself.. (honestly really trying hard not too because I PICK MYSELF APART).. anywho.. I need to keep the cardio up and really focus on intensity of the workouts now.. Also need to start my detox tea, and a week after that my distilled water. Well see how that all works out.. lol. Not much going on.. just trying to keep myself sane. 🙂

Thank you for everyone who leaves such pleasant comments.. I promise I’ll return the favor and keep up with all of you.. I try to  but I get so cluster fucked I just read them and don’t comment like I should! MORE SO BECAUSE my iphone likes to suck and make it  difficult to leave a comment from it.. so I say I’ll wait till I get to a computer but never do. ADD.. to the tee.

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Day 70 Do not anticipate trouble, or worry about what may never happen.

Fuck 70 days already…

and I only think I binged once, and had 3 cheat meals the entire time 🙂 Such an improvement. I am a little nervous as to what happens after the show, but ever since I got into this whole/ natural cooking (thanks to sweetlyvegan, chocolatecoveredkatie and another blog I am forgetting to mention), you come to realize that you can eat GOOD with a little or no preparation. I will cross that bridge when I get to it, but I have this incredible positive energy that came over me a while ago since dieting/training and I think my life has made great changes and will continue to live that way. I like looking healthy. I like feeling good in clothes. The only time I hate getting up (besides ass crack in the morning), is when I feel fat, or am depressed and that usually ALWAYS occurs when I eat like shit and don’t take care of myself.

Anywho.. sorrry. Ha.

The Food Log

10am Protein Pancake w/ a TBS Agave with 1/4c Muscle Egg (it tastes JUST like chocolate milk).

2pm Lean Ground Turkey, a small piece of chicken, asparagus, and broccoli.

6pm More chicken and asparagus. Don’t judge me. lol (I have actually started to love my chicken with yellow mustard. I am in heaven).

8pm More chicken and veggies. Broccoli this time. So. I’m not THAT boring.

Only 4 meals today??????????? I think I ate some almonds in between meals 🙂

The Work Out

Seated Bicep Curl

30lbs x 8 x 3 supersetted w/
20lbs x failure

Incline Bicep Curl

20lbs x 10 x 3 supersetted w/

BB Bicep Concentrated Bicep Curls

30lbs x 8 x 3

Close Grip Bench Press

Bar x 10 x 4 supersetted w/

Bench Dips

BW x 10-12 x 4

*Guy interrupted me for a LONG time. No joke this black guy (no it doesn’t matter he was black lol) was STARRING and like awkwardly starring. Like in awe. But I kept avoiding eye contact. He finally came over, and started a huge conversation. He then left, and no joke my next set came back. Then I left after this to go to plyo work and then found me on the stair master to say goodbye. lol.

PLYO WORK

20 Bosu Ball Jumps x4
Bicep Curl x 10 x4
Tricep Ext x 10 x4
A closer tricep ext x 10 x4

1:30 Min Plank w/ 25 Jump squats x 3

30 Min Stairmaster

50 Abductions/ Adductions

Day 70 in Pictures..

  1. Protein Pancake in the morning 🙂 (1/3c oats, 1/3c Muscle egg, 1/3c cottage cheese).
  2. Chicken Asparagus and Broccoli w/ a tad bit more Parmesan then id like lol
  3. Studying for class… please read Principals of Good Eating.
  4. Meal Prep for the week. Only 2 meals for 5 days, other meals are usually liquid.
  5. Marley doing what she does best.
  6. Not healthy. Commercials make products like this seem healthy. It’s not. Look at how many ingredients there are, and see if you can name them. More so pronounce them. Now.. do you know what they are? Exactly. You’re eating shit.

 

Today has been pretty good. I honestly relaxed all day. Between blogging, hw, working out, prepping meals, and finding out information about tanning and how I want my hair and makeup, today has been rather long. On a more positive note, I have seemed to have kept my ass intact as of now. I am going to be extra careful with the many hours of cardio to come 🙂 Wish me luck ❤

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Day 68 Happy Birthday Marley!

Friday the 13th………………… ugh. BUT!

Happy 2nd Birthday to the prettiest little baby ever!!!!

I LOVE YOU MARLEY!

:):):) ❤

Shell get a little birthday party tomorrow ;0

The Food Log

630am Protein Shake (Dymatize, Muscle Egg, Coconut Shreds, Ice).
845am Some Soy Protein shit I found in my bosses house (I was taking his kids to school). lol.
11am 1/2 chicken breast w/ mustard (dude. I love mustard).
1130am 12 Almonds.
2pm Chicken Breast w/ Asparagus.
5-6pm Egg Whites.
9pm Lean Ground Turkey/Onions/Broccoli.

The Work Out

No workout. besides 100 bw squats 50 pushups and my planks. Long story.

Day 68 in Pictures..

  1. Leaving Marley this morning. What a puppy face. Happy Birthday my love ❤
  2. Sorry bad picture (IT WAS DARK and early!!!), my morning protein shake, and lunches.
  3. Drawing at 730am. lol. (Told you I had to take his kids to school).
  4. Nectar Protein, I believe. Soy protein that tastes like shit. I mixed it with a little bit of water and just chugged it. Then tried to find something to take away the taste and couldn’t. So I dealt with it a bit. You do what you gotta do!
  5. Got to work and chilled. Found out I am on the Chive.com… browsed a bit before, but didn’t think it was as big as it is..
  6. Chicken and asparagus!
  7. Just some lovely model, Sara Allen, looking fresh.

My boss left before noon which is AWESOME. Had to drop his kids off at school so I had to be up at like 615am. Decided yesterday that I wasn’t going to do AM cardio because I would be in complete and utter bitch mode. Ill just kill it in the gym tonight, even though they close at 10pm. WTF IS THAT BULLSHIT, seriously still pissed off about this issue. Anywho, so what does my boss leaving mean?????????

STRESS. FREE.

yep.

I just do my thing and thats that 🙂 I will surf the web, do practically the entire layout of my blog (case and point), go on pinterest, wanelo, you know. lmfao. 1228pm will update later.

Blahblah blah got off work at 6pm, and let me tell you I have already been up since 545am… so I get off at 6, wait for Mike. Shit happened at work and shit got held up so 630pm came along. I was getting a little annoyed (I’m telling you if I am going to be wasting time it will be in bed), so time was ticking. Then 645pm came and he finally got to rocking. So we chilled for a little big did our thing and by the time I left it was 745pm….. I needed to be at the gym by 8pm to even get a decent work out (plus cardio). So I got home it was 820pm… I had decided  I WAS going to go but to Xsport which is a 24/7 gym… only like 20 min from me and the only gym open past 10pm ON A FUCKING FRIDAY (SOME PEOPLE DONT HAVE LIVES OUTSIDE THE GYM. IT WOULD BE GREAT TO FEEL ACCEPTED!)… no. I will NOT stop bitching about it.. it has GOT to be the dumbest thing, and 8 on SATURDAYS?!??!?!?! WTF???? dude… I’ll work the extra hours if I get to work out. I really would. It’s just so stupid, those hours are VERY popular in the lifting life lol. Any who I started making food and thought it would give me energy, but the longer I stood up the less energy I felt. So my mom said “accept it, and work harder tomorrow.” Alright. So Little miss grandma over here was in bed by 10pm  (after I got done with the push ups and planks). And that was my friday night. (btw one day maybe I will mention my stalker, because they kept me up a little last night, my personal blog may be posted one day.. I have an interesting life lol).

😉

This last girl has my heart

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Day 66 The virtue lies in the struggle, not in the prize.

Original Schedule:

6am Workout
9-5pm Autowerks
615-9pm Psych Class
930-1030pm Leg Workout

now it’s

9am Workout
3pm Another Work Out
615-9pm Class

UPDATE

9am Workout
630-830pm Workout. lol. 😦

Btw bought a Timeflies ticket AWHILE ago, and its today and I am not going. 😦 too stressed out.. too sick and I really don’t want to miss class……(I’m such  nerd).

So yes that means I skipped work today. I still feel like complete shit. I have NO idea what is wrong with me. I am use to the whole acid reflux thing but this is going on two SOLID days, and well see if its going to be day 3. I stayed up pretty late because I couldn’t get to sleep. So total of 4 work outs missed. No big deal. Tomorrow I am 4 weeks out. One solid month. Now its getting serious. I WILL do my best/hardest. I will make up for those lost workouts but how intense my work outs get. I am giving up carbonation (no energy drinks or my  love of diet coke), just water tea and some propel (for at least the first two weeks). No more pre workout, and no fruits (only in the morning). Later (depending how I look) the list will continue on things I can’t eat lol. The last week/ week and 1/2 will be the hardest, distilled water, grapefruit, only chicken and tuna, and asparagus. WAMPPPPPPPP So that is a little update on everything. I have been super stressed with the deciding of the bikini, but its done and its being made and now that rock is off my shoulders. I just need to focus on feeling the workouts and spicing up the intensity a bit. ALOT of plyo work will be done, and stretching. For some reason I am enjoying stretching a WHOLE lot (mostly when my legs are sore and I have cardio to do, you feel the pull and it feels great)…. will add to this but its only 1130 and usually I don’t have time to explain a bit but here you go.. Tomorrow I will make everything more formal just in case people are following biweekly.

The Food Log..

10am Protein Shake 🙂 See picture.
1pm Muscle Egg (I just chugged lol)
330pm Grilled (chicken and asparagus)
6pm Chugged Muscle Egg again
830pm Protein Shake
11pm 1 Salt Free Rice Cake w/ Protein Chocolate Almond Butter

The Work Out..

9am Cardio on an empty stomach.

630pm Shoulder Work Out.

Seated Shoulder Press

30lbs x 10 reps x 4

Lateral Raise

45lbs x 10 reps x 4

Plyo Work consisted of:

Bosu Ball Burpees (to shoulder press)

Bw x 10 x 4

Planks 1:30 each set

Squat to Front Raise/ Shoulder Press

15lbs x 15 x 3 (x1)

60 Minutes of Cardio (+45min from earlier) = 1Hr 45min (not including plyo) of cardio 🙂

Day 66 in Pictures..

  1. Lululemon surprised me. lol. Just forgot I ordered these 🙂
  2. Got here just in time. Fixed the stairmasters.
  3. My protein shake after my AM cardio. Last day for fruit :/
  4. Just thought it was a cool pic.
  5. Grilling!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  6. Marley. The love of my life.
  7. Boulder Shoulder Plyo Work Out.
  8. Post Work Out Meal. Lol  just threw the strawberries in.
  9. My mom hiding cake from me.
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Day 56 There is no happiness except in the realization that we have accomplished something.

Sunday Funday ❤

THE WORKOUT

Bi’s and Tri’s 🙂

Standing BB curls supersetted

40lbs x 12reps x4
20lbs x 8-10 x 4

Cable Tricep Pushdown

50lbs x 12reps
60lbs x 12reps
70lbs x 10reps
80lbs x 10reps
90lbs x 8reps

Half supersetted with a DB tricep ext (25lbs)

Cable Bicep Curls

40lbs (each) x 8-10reps x4

I then did an exercise for my triceps (which I don’t know the name of).. you can use the lat pulldown bar though. Make sure your arms are shoulder width apart, straight elbows, keep core tight.

30-40lbs (I originally started with 40lbs each, but it got pretty heavy my first set, so I went back down to 30lbs) 3 sets total.

5 Minute Planks

45 Minutes Cardio

630pm Did another 45 minutes of cardio.

Day 56 in pictures..

  1. Protein Shake – YUM.
  2. Woke up, abs are IIIIGHTTTTTT.
  3. Progress on mah ASS (from behind lol).
  4. Calf Progress (and to think I just went spray tanning!).
  5. POST WORK OUT SHAKE!!!!! (yes that’s RAW egg).
  6. Played pool while mah Celtics played ball!
  7. Ground Sirloin/Onion/Corn/Broccoli.
  8. Another round of cardio.
  9. Before.
  10. After.

Today was sort of uneventful, but it was a great day for working out. I got 2 cardio sessions in =D However woke up did a pretty damn good arm work out, finished with cardio (45min). Went and ate, then played pool for an hour or 2. Ate again lol then finished hw while food digested, and finished another 45 min at about 630pm. Went to Jewel (picture not posted bc it didn’t load), but got MEAT to grill. And I grilled. All by myself. YUP! Went to bed at around 930pm, because I am such a good girl.

Hope everyone had a great weekend, if not make a better day tomorrow.

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Day 18 Motivational Rant

Maintaining Motivation

 

I don’t even know where to begin. Do I talk about how hard it was before? or the steps I am going to take now and for the rest of my life?

I would say lets be realistic here but I am going to stay on a positive note on this one. I am learning to love myself for who I am, for who God made me to be, everyday. No it hasn’t been easy TO SAY THE LEAST, but after looking back to everything I have been through (and more to come, BRING IT ON!), I know that it has been worth it.

My dictionary defines motivation as: “1) the reason or reasons behind one’s actions or behavior. 2) enthusiasm.”

My motivation is seeing past pictures of myself, and knowing what I did to get there. I remember those days, the night before my show seeing how flat my stomach really was, how PROUD I was….

Factors that Damage Motivation:

1) Low Self-Confidence – If you don’t have realistic confidence in your abilities you won’t even start. Building a healthy and realistic self-image is necessary to take action. The best way to build your confidence is just to start. Confidence is often a natural side effect of making steps in your personal development.

2) Arrogance – This is the opposite of low self-confidence, and it too adversely effects motivation. Overconfidence can often result to some very painful failures when reality confronts your self-image. Arrogance often goes hand in hand with ignorance. If you start educating yourself, you will soon realize how much you need to learn, which can help reduce an inflated ego.

3) Past Failures – Failure can often damage motivation. The key to recover this motivation is to set yourself up for some successes. Remember to take steps to learn from your failures so they become a learning opportunity rather than a blow to your ego.

I don’t think I will EVER turn down the roads that brought me here today, ever again. I actually FULLY understand the reasons of my “failures” or my weaknesses and  I am finally in CONTROL, and I have never felt better.

I am staying positive.

I am staying true to MYSELF.

I am happy.

Besides getting down yesterday about a test (that I thought I for sure was going to ace), I overate (technically I didn’t but it was a lot of carbs) and though it was all clean food it shouldn’t matter, the fact that I did it NEEDS to be mentioned. I didn’t have cravings for shitty food, I just had craving for food. Maybe it had to do with the test and those results? Maybe I was bored?

Whatever the reasons may be, I need NOT to punish myself.

Am I normal? Am I the only one with these thoughts? Am I the only one that thinks about food ALL the time? Am I the only one that researches and googles fitness related articles ALL day?

Yes I know  I’m not, but if only people realized how much this has and does effect me. Fitness is my life.

A HEALTHY LIFESTYLE is now my life.

 

TALK ABOUT MOTIVATION!!!!!!!!!

Oh another rant eh?

830am Finished my protein shake (yes it is ALWAYS THE SAME MON-FRI LOL)

1030am and I’m fucking starving.
I am finishing up taking pictures for work and then I am going to head over to Chase.. Ugh got a late fee for my CC that I JUST got down to 22% interest lol.. SAME DAY PAY MY ASS!

then I will head to whole foods because I forgot my food again.. fucking idiot I am… maybe not an idiot but a straight up basket case.

1237pm Just got back from whole foods.. spent $15 exactly. 2 chicken breast, 2 Justin’s all natural almond butter, and a mix of edama carrots and asparagus. YUM!

 

then I left to marios (pizza joint) to get Ron and I a drink and this is the second time (once yesterday) that someone told me I had nice skin.. awe 🙂

5pm PEOPLE DO NOT KNOW HOW TO DRIVE! 😦 Snowflakes were HUGE today SUPER COOL! so I took the Charger home, sucky on gas but its great in the snow.

Got home around 6pm, got Marley out. Ate some “meatloaf, ” tuna and some broccoli OH AND some PB 😦 Probably shouldn’t of eaten the tuna (because my mom puts mayo) but it tasted GREAT. haha and now I write it in, shouldn’t of eaten the PB either lol.

Shoulders/Chest today

 

Started with Seated Shoulder Press (30lbs each arm)

3×8-10 reps

in-between front raises (20lb BB)

3×12 reps

The last 3 reps of each seated s. press got extremely hard and I had no spotter, so I did 3 reps (each arm) squat to shoulder press.

Moved onto Lying (chest) flyes (15lb each arm)

3×12 reps 

in between  lateral raises (10lbs each arm)

3x10reps

finished with cable machine shoulder press.. don’t know the weight they just have numbers, it was pretty heavy got about 8 reps 4 times.

I did 2 sets of planks :30 sec each time.

with 25 min STAIRMASTER.

And boy was I sweating. I felt my ass muscles burning and it felt great.

8:43pm Myofusion and PB2 (even though I shouldn’t of put the pb2 in there. I had enough fat today).

I am going to finish up editing this a bit, throw in some cool pictures :):) Nothing too exactly today.. Boss is getting nicer (I work at a body shop FULL OF DUDES THAT PMS MORE THEN EVERY FEMALE I KNOW COMBINED!).. but its a dope job and for the most part enjoy the people I work with.. sucks its as far as it is though :/ (about 45 min-60min on a bad day).. OTher then that I am pretty excited this week is almost over.. I love cuddling and knowing I have no schedule, no where to be, no clock to have to set, nothing. Ugh.. best feeling in the world. ❤

 

1115pm Just finished showering and made the chickpea snicker doodle blondies. and let me tell you the batter was AMAZING… they fell apart 😦 and I think I should of put raisins in the whole thing and not just half.. but overall they were great..

 

goodnight ❤

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