Tag Archives: flax

Day 42 I’m strong because I know what its like to be weak.

10am Got up laid around with Marley for a little bit…. Didn’t eat till about noon.

1230ish Made steak and eggs but gave Marley most of the eggs.. I didn’t care for them at much.. Had a few slices of pineapple as well.

Decided that I could NOT go to the gym until my blog was finished lol. But WordPress is being pretty gay.. said my post was published when people were already commenting on it… and the pictures were suddenly not there any more 😦 so now I feel all fucked up.

Doing Hamstrings/ Glutes today 🙂

120pm Stomach is fucking hurting again. No flax no nothing.. I think it may of been the pineapple.. what the fuck. :(:( not good.

OHHHHHH and forgot! Made tofu brownies last night.. they weren’t bad at all but I really want to make the black bean brownies now.. I have a feeling they might be a WHOLE lot better 🙂

I don’t know where I got this recipe from.. probably from CCK.. but I don’t really know… :/

(Makes 8 brownies)

  • 1/4 cup unsweetened cocoa powder
  • 1/2 cup ww pastry flour (or white, or you can try spelt or gluten-free)
  • 1/4 tsp baking powder
  • 1/4 tsp salt
  • 1/2 cup sweetener (see link, below, for lower-sugar version)
  • 1.5 oz  soft tofu or mori-nu firm or lite firm (about 1/8 box)
  • 1/3 cup applesauce (use only 1/4 cup if using 3T oil)
  • 1 to 3 T oil (I use coconut oil. Canola is ok too.)
  • 2 T non-dairy milk
  • 1 tsp pure vanilla extract
  • optional: you can throw in some chocolate chips

Combine dry ingredients, and mix very well. In a blender, combine wet ingredients and blend until smooth. (I use a Magic Bullet cup.) Pour wet over dry and stir, then pour into a 4×6 oiled pan (or double the recipe and use an 8×8). Cook for 12-18 minutes at 325 F. I’m not sure why this is the case, but these brownies seem to taste ten times sweeter if you don’t eat them for at least an hour after they come out of the oven!

My fudgey variation: (Highly recommended!) If you want them extremely fudgey– as in “so gooey you need a fork to eat them”—cook the batter for only 8-10 minutes. Then put the pan in the fridge to cool for at least a few hours.

Went to the gym around 330pm

HAMMMMMIIIEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSS DaTTT ASSS!!!!!

Started with

Deadlift

3 sets of 90lbs and then added an outer 20lbs for the last set.

Back EXT

4x10reps 45lbs w 45lb calf raises

Step ups BW with Lunges

3 Sets each 10 each leg for the step up (BW)
3 Sets of 10 each leg (40lb BB)

Planks

5 Minutes total.

Butt Blaster

3 sets of 8 on 40lbs

10min stairmaster

430pm CHIPOTLE!!!!!

Just chillen now.. Really have to study for a test I have Wednesday and need to check what room my new class is because it starts tomorrow :):)

Laundry, and cleaning room. Not to mention my sister left to go back to MN for school last night :/ and we took a cute pic last night 🙂

Suppose to go to see a movie tonight.. but who knows.. I don’t mind staying in I really do want to study its only on chapter 14 and I actually enjoyed that chapter..AND THIS IS THE SECOND FREAKIN TIME IM TAKING PSYCH.

WHY DO ALL THE TEACHERS STINK THAT TEACH PSYCH??? Seriously.. out of ALLLLL fucking people my professor is a sexiest. no THE sexiest.. but against women sexiest and sometimes its ruthless. I literally shake my head sometimes when I sit in that class.. I am just trying to take it week by week with him.. too late to switch and I don’t think I would of anyways.. no big deal…. unless it gets really out of hand then Ill say something but so far its just annoying and I am not the only one whose noticed it… which isn’t good for him but whatever.

6pm– Tried to write my paper. I, right now, have 3 drafts. fml.

830pm-130am I left to go to a movie and didn’t get back till late. Only had a diet coke and some almonds on my way back home.

130-230am Had a tofu brownie and almond butter. Then a handful of flax cookies. lol.

3am Finally fell asleep.

Goodnight ❤

Advertisements
Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , ,

Day 39 new and improved.

So I realized I am going to do this a little bit differently.. I didn’t like how my blog was set up… I would literally ramble off, leave, come back to it hours later and not proofread ANYTHING and just hoped it all made sense.. Well this is my fitness blog… and thats all I really want to discuss here.. Not that  BULLSHIT in my life, or how pissed off I am at work… I will focus on my eating, my workouts, and my motivation and inspiration for you guys..

830am Strawberry Banana Protein shake with Just a mini banana.. The strawberries I JUST got were already moldy… wtf.. Didn’t add anything but water and ice.. Im laying off the flax and the fiber because I am trying to figure out why I am so fucking bloated.

I was running around a bit today, so was munching on edamame again.

Around 1200  I had to go to costco and get all of our shit to grill…. I was literally in costco and my hunger pains were HORRRRRIBLE! I was literally FIENING for something I could grab to eat…. but I just waited because I couldn’t find anything to grab lol…so thats where I got the lara bar.. not the one pictured because I was away at my desk but it was my favorite one, chocolate chip cookie dough :):):)

130-2pm I had a italian sausage, and about 30 min after that I had this wonderful steak.. A lot of food actually. Good thing I am doing legs today 🙂

I actually didn’t eat till I got home.. I tried eating some more edamame on the way home. .:(

545pm Made another protein shake. Chocolate Myofusion (the probiotic one YUCK) with 1TB PB and some coconut oil ice and water. Played with Marley a bit.

630pm Arrived at the gym 🙂

645-730pm

Started with Leg Press- was super excited to do these… I just wanna keep going heavier and heavier.. you should see the looks on peoples faces…. haha

Started with 2 and a quarter.

230lbs x 12reps
230lbs x 12reps

270lbs x 10reps

320lbs x 8reps
320lbs x 6reps

:):):):):):):):)

Went straight to the Smith Machine to do Squats. YES THE SMITH MACHINE!!!!. Started with

50lbs x 10reps (fast)
50lbs x 10reps (fast)

70bs x 8reps
70bs x 8 reps

immediately to lunges

30 DB total to 60lbs x 100

YUPPPPP 100 FOLKS!!!!

I was pretty much dying.. Not going to lie.. I was panting.. sweat was POURING off of me… lol.. I was borderline hyperventilating.. 😉

Then I finished with seated leg extensions..

Started with 80 lbs and moved it up as the reps went down.. 12 10 8 6 ext…. and that was that!

745pm Got home and ate some edamame lmao… only because I ate like literally an hour ago.. so I am waiting just a little bit so it wasn’t just an hour difference in meals…

937 going to go downstairs to make either a shake or eat some steak my mom just made (except she made it with sauce and we all know that sauce can add the sugar cals and carbs).. so well see… I have just been up in my room blogging, surfing the web and taste testing the finds I received today from vita cost! super fucking excited.

Seriously???? Im OBSESSED!!!!!! This shit is good too.. all the go raw ones.. there is plain, carrot cake, ginger snap, chocolate, super green, flaxseed, then there is shredded coconut, PB2, and some protein chips.. I don’t know why the fuck I got them I think because they were like a buck fifty and I wanted to try them.. Its good to know how things are prior to actually needing something to eat….. I also have found some cool shit to bring to my show for after… all vegan of course..

So like I said I went downstairs and ate some steak and a few bites of wild rice.. took a bubble bath and now I am back in bed finishing up this blog.. even though it will obviously be posted tomorrow.. So enjoy the motivation and know that you are NOT defined by the food that you eat.. the one meal you slipped up on or what society thinks of you. As long as you are healthy and MORE IMPORTANTLY happy, do you.

Goodnight ❤

Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , ,

Day 31 If you wish to be loved, love.

“The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled. For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort, that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different ways or truer answers.” – Unknown

HOLYFUCKINGSHIT– you guys I just found my favorite most true quote. Wow. Simply lost for words. ❤

815am my badass protein shake. pineapple mango coconut milk :):):)

Oh and I broke one of my blenders. awesome.

Add that to my wish list:
A BIG food processor
A BIG blender (like vitamix or ninja)

1130am About to have a chicken breast, cant really go to whole foods right now because I just spent an hour dealing with Secretary of State, and calling like 478329 court houses. There is A LOT of districts LOL.. but with my investigation skills GOT THAT SHIT ON LOCK! haha

have until the 28th to pay it. WHICH IS AWESOME! and it didn’t double, and Im pretty sure it is not going to suspend my license. I was on supervision in 2010, and its a year from the last ticket 🙂 WA BAM! Just means I cant speed anymore. Okay I mean I can’t get caught anymore.

So that just took a HUGE weight off my shoulder 🙂

and I feel good. I am still impatient and really want to be able to wear all my cute clothes without having to worry about my muffin top :/ It’s only a matter of time though 🙂
I can’t believe how GOOD I have been on my diet. 4 weeks down baby!!!!!! So excited.. and I’m only looking better each day.

Speaking of each day, thank you God for this day 🙂

BY THE WAY!

For any of you who question my titles, it is either a quote I am IN LOVE WITH, or it somehow links into my blog. If you read through the entire thing you can probably catch on.. if not and you just look at the pictures, that’s cool too 😉 But just a lil heads up, I know my blog is semi confusing. I am still catching on.

241pm Ate my chicken like an hour ago ish. I am actually super hungry. Ive only had my shake the chicken breast and a handful (or two ) raw almonds. I like completely missed a meal. Going to Whole Foods before class.. I’m gonna to need some snacks..

Kinda in a weird mood. my pants are see thru.. so I found out by the guys. I am hungry. Don’t feel fat or anything but my boss just makes you wonder how you can be so rude and say the things he says.

1104pm I’m fucking exhausted. I am going to publish this tomorrow morning.. so I can add pictures and shit because I DOUBT ill do it tonight. However..Here is a little recap.

430pm I went to whole foods because I needed food for class.. I really was going to only buy my chicken breast and an almond butter packet or two… But first I saw the chia seeds and the hemp hearts.. but no price tag so I asked the guy where the seeds were sitting if he could look it up for me.. the chia seeds came out to be 8.99 and the hemp was $6 maybe? I am not quite sure but it wasn’t HALF as bad as I thought.

I ended up spending $80. FML. lol.. my chicken alone was like 20 bucks though.. but I have enough for 2 days.. I also got these super cookies. THAT EVERYONE NEEDS TO GO AND GET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I originally got the pizza flavor and so I thought those were pretty good and saw today what flavors they have.. I can’t remember all of them so I am going to look them up and post them but I got Lemon and chocolate and holy fucking hell.

THEY ARE D E L I C I O U S ! oh man. Completely addicted.. UH oh.. lol.

5pm I ate my chicken breast in the car. again. like a dumb dumb.

&& for anyone that wants to know what chicken breast I get, its right here:

The darker pieces in the middle ❤

So a little late for class but got started and it actually wasn’t a bad class. He didn’t say too much that offended me or pissed me the fuck off.. cept I did think he said “those homos” oh okay.. nbd.

Anywho I snacked on edamame and the flax cookies during class.. It was a nice snack. 🙂

Came home and didn’t have much to eat. I had like 1/4 piece of chicken, and a pickle lol. and now I am going to sleep.. told you I wasn’t going to publish it tonight. 😦 Maybe Ill wake up early 🙂 I only really need about 15 minutes just to add the pictures I took. I do think I want to start ending the blog with a breakdown of what I ate.. Instead of having to read the entire thing.. even though I WANT you to read it lol maybe it’ll be easier to get an idea of what I eat everyday and at what time.. Food for thought.. I don’t know yet… Maybe Ill try it and see how it looks lol.. tomorrow though.

Alright.. OH btw.. learning about disorders in psych today… mental disorders eating disorders, so it’s nice to actually care about what the teacher is trying to teach you. I am super interested and really do want to learn more about this kind of stuff. Hopefully next week Ill have a better understanding of how these disorders are developed and so forth..

ALLLLLRIGHTY!

Btw I fucking hate people that take advantage of my help. I understand exercise and eating right is OBVIOUSLY HARD FOR SOME PEOPLE TO COMPREHEND.. but I get paid pretty well for this stuff and it is kinda my job…. I mean its rude to ask a doctor for what could be wrong with something that’s been wrong with you… do you? or would you? I sure wouldn’t. If I did I wouldn’t ABUSE IT but expecting I answer and get pissed when I don’t///

whatever.

Goodnight ❤

Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , ,

Day 20 The N Word?

 Mark Twain wrote that
“the difference between the almost right word and the right word is really a large matter.”

So my hunger pains in the morning are So bad 😦 its almost like I can’t wake up fast enough to eat, they literally hurt so bad. So this morning when I go downstairs to make something my mom brings up this article she just read. In which a high school teacher (or a different level of education) called Whitney Houston a Nigger on his Facebook.  So while she is explaining on why she doesn’t think the punishment fit the crime (he was suspended), and that he shouldn’t of gotten reprimanded at all, I was biting my tongue.

I usually have the “i don’t give a fuck additude” practically all the time, but this time I was actually in favor of it. Why would a EDUCATION TEACHER use “nigger” to DESCRIBE Whitney Houston? Honestly?

You couldn’t of found a better word to use to describe someone? Unless you were trying to piss on her grave.

That is of course, he said “Whitney Houston was my nigga!” (which could be, I actually didn’t read it lol), then I could understand. But what kind of M O R O N uses a  RACIAL SLUR to describe someone who just died. Yeah.. I think this may just be a little case of racism. How else could you POSSIBLY justify that. Unless you are on drugs.

I wonder if he was on drugs and doesn’t remember logging onto Facebook and writing a status about Whitney…. hmmm..

ANYWHO

I obviously wrote my Facebook status about it (apparently I found a good reason to have 5000+ friends), and you got people saying its America and you can say what you want, then you get people trying to define it.

30 comments (the smoking and obesity one had over 75 haha).

“No one should be using that word.. Any word that insults or offends someone shouldn’t be used..”

“Say nigga and its all good !! The other one is offensive because of what it means …. Nigga is like saying what’s up homie or what’s up brah , I still don’t use it but see a lot of my friends say it Haha … And a lot of my friends are black so I feel weird using that word ”

“Its a very touchy subject becuz how the word started. Today its rarel used in the same term as it was in the old days, but to some it still holds the same weight. Me i lived in prejudice and ive dealt witb prejudice but it doesnt control my life. People give this word too much power.”

“Who said they can use the word freely? Who ever thinks they can use the word freely. Go to the south side find some thugged out ass nigga and say that word “freely” and see wtf happens lmao.”

“i agree. i say nigga all the time. if its such a horrible word than maybe it shoukdnt be in every fuxking rap song every 5 words”

^(This is what my mom was trying to get at. That since its being used without questioning morals/values/racism, that why should a teacher get suspended for saying it on his Facebook).  I can understand this point BUT he used it in a derogatory manner. In a way that was meant to hurt, or “bash” whitney. He didn’t just MISTAKENLY said it, like it just slipped. It was intentional and SHOULD be recognized. ESPECIALLY because he is suppose to be someone people look up to, who listen to, and grow from. It’s a bad example and he needs to know the severity of ignorance and what it will cost you.

The N-Word is no different. And because this word is only a word, black people have to stop getting offended at its use by white people. I personally am more offended when a white person tries to use it the way we do or in the spirit of camaraderie. And my uneasiness has more to do with the fact that it comes out so unnaturally and phony. That word has become a part of who we are and so it rolls off of our tongue naturally. White people will never be able to say the word in a way that doesn’t make every listener cringe. After all, there are millions of words, whether you want to insult or edify someone, at your disposal. It won’t hurt white people if they can’t use this one — will it?
(this is actually from rolling out.com but when I found the picture I read the article and I COULD N O T HAVE SAID IT BETTER MYSELF!)

You don’t see me walking down the street saying what up cunt? Words (good or bad) should not be ignorantly used, (this could even stem as far as last weeks psych class and how this girl called W. Houston a “piece of shit” LIKE WHAT THE FUCK?! Did you personally know her? WHy would ANYONE ever judge someone on their way of life. You do NOT know peoples struggles and judging someone before you actually know someone is ruthless and so sad), because words HURT. Words do not just disappear from ones mind/thoughts.

words =powerful. VERY POWERFUL. Use them wisely. 

Sorry, I’ve been ranting a lot and I wish everything that comes out of my mouth is recorded because remembering all my KEY points is hard, especially when I have PB&J blondies cooking in the oven.

This turned out okay. Had I made them correctly they would definitely curb a sweet craving. I added PB2 instead of actual PB. And I didn’t use all the B. Sugar they wanted.

So it was sweet, not TOO sweet, but def not enough PB taste 😦
But no big deal, they are half gone. Awesome.

So real quick :

9am green smoothie (spinach banana mango flax fiber ice orange juice and L-Carnitine).
&& I ate some PB&J squares.

1pm “meatloaf” and some leftover cauliflower “potatoes” (only ate 1/2).

2pm Leg Work Out:

Deadlift:

2 sets of 10reps x 65lbs

1 set of 8 reps x 75lbs

1 set of 6 reps x 85lbs

Back Ext:

3 sets of 8 reps x 45lbs

Lunges:

2 sets of 25 reps x 40lbs

2 sets of 25 reps x BW

Leg Ext:

1 set of 12 reps x 65 lbs

1 set of 10 reps x 80 lbs

2 set of 9 reps x 95lbs

1 set of 8 reps x 110lbs

1 set of 6 reps x 125lbs

1 set of 4 reps x 140lbs

3pm Myofusion and Banana Protein Shake.

330pm Took Marley to Mike’s house , so she could meet Deuce. I have some really cool pictures of the two together. Deuce was like in LOVE with Marley and wouldn’t leave her alone. They played for a hour straight (played in the water with the ducks too lol) and now she is PASSED the fuck out on the couch.

6pm Ate the rest of the meat loaf and cauliflower.

So……. I’m debating whether to go out or not tonight. I would drive…. be the big DD, but I KNOW I will drink 😦 I succumb to peer pressure thats why I don’t ever go out. Granted it wouldn’t be that bad (but if I have to drive they can suck it), but I don’t want those extra calories. Since I more a shot girl then mixed drink or beer, so lets google how many calories are in a shot of vodka.

The last one has less calories right? 😉

70 Proof Vodka

On average, 70 proof vodka (35% alcohol) has 85 calories per shot (1.5 ounces).
This is approximately 55 calories per ounce.

80 Proof Vodka

On average, 80 proof vodka (40% alcohol) has 100 calories per shot (1.5 ounces).
This is approximately 65 calories per ounce.

 90 Proof Vodka

On average, 90 proof vodka (45% alcohol) has 115 calories per shot (1.5 ounces).
This is approximately 75 calories per ounce.

100 Proof Vodka

On average, 100 proof vodka (50% alcohol) has 130 calories per shot (1.5 ounces).
This is approximately 85 calories per ounce.

Yeah.. no thank you.

  1. If I was able to, I’d rather have a cupcake.
  2. You can’t go to Chicago counting calories. AND RIGHT NOW I HAVE TO!

HMMMMM I don’t know. It’s about 7pm, I probably have another hour or so to decide. Mike kind  of wants to go, maybe just needs a DD lol so maybe Ill do it for him. jk. thats stupid.

Got to stay focussed.

Bikini comp details/ LIFESTYLE CHANGE!

So far, I haven’t craved anything really. The baking curbs any need for “sweets”.

What are my have snacks or desserts?

  • Lara Bars
  • Green Smoothies.
  • Sugar cookies (made with chickpeas)
  • Justin’s Almond Butter Packets
SO this is what I turn too when I am craving something sweet.  I do want to get raw cacao now, because all my recipes call for it.. and I’ll finally be able to have some chocolate!  As you know, I have my little guilty pleasure of diet sodas and SF Red Bull. Usually getting a drink helps me not want to snack which is good. Baking also helps when your hungry, because it takes time, but when the product comes out, thats the hardest lol.
Lately I’ve been having GREAT will power, and haven’t thought about bingeing (Greg did leave a twix on my desk and I was so fucking pissed). :/

However, I am tired lately, but it’s probably a combination of lack of carbs and working out regularly now. I did look in the mirror at a bad angle and it kind of warmed my blood a little bit. Ugh I am so fucking impatient. I think that bingeing for 4 weeks straight is going to just DISAPPEAR in 20 days.. LOL .. of course I don’t (irrational-this is not biggest loser) and I tell my clients this all the time. It is fun to watch your body transform though. Speaking of which, I have to start taking progress pics tomorrow. NOT happy. And I won’t show any of you readers then till probably the end of the contest prep. I will however post a before and afters blog tomorrow 🙂 It’s just a little motivation for myself. ❤

I am going to go make another protein shake and then I am going to head to bed. I think I need to start organizing this blog a little more. I feel myself getting overwhelmed. umph.

Goodnight ❤


Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , ,