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Stellas gettin’ her groove back!

It’s only 11am on sunday and I have managed to open my lap top and blog. Imagine that.

After a few rough days, I have officially completed 1 week of the girls and I, 30 day clean eating challenge. Go me! I had many chances to fuck this up.. and even thought about saying fuck it atLEAST once.. but I held my own. I put the cravings and self-doubt aside, and stayed positive. A week is easy. I’ve done it before. I’ll do it again, and will continue to eat a well-balanced “diet” for the rest of my life.. Though, I seem to struggle the most when I get close to the end of something. Its like I purposely fuck up just so I can keep say that I am doing it.. or I don’t know.. all I know is I have yet to fully succeed in something I put my mind to. This goes, not only for my road to ripped idea, but outside of that.. I feel like I have nothing. I am living each day overwhelmed which ideas and goals and come to find out I have been sitting at a dead-end. Its like.. you know you should turn around, maybe ask for help… but my stubborn ass thinks there’s some magic get way to wherever the fuck I’m going.

I want to start proving MYSELF wrong. I want to silence the voice in my head, that doesn’t talk but fills my mind with doubt. That steals the confidence, I try to build each and every day. I want to free myself from the negativity I choose to believe. I want to become something.

I just have to figure out what that something is…

confidence

Well, lets dabble a little into my fitness life.. you know.. the reason I started this blog in the first place?

I got a promotion at my club, yay! (not), and now I want to take my training to the next level. Hold people more accountable, adjusting my clients to a healthy lifestyle in a more fun and enticing way.. I want to be more of a trainer than I am. So I want to start putting together a book.. Like a get fit 101 book… or the guide to being ripped! lol.. kidding.. girls would read that and be like.. omg, no. so.. fine.. But I want to help people learn the basics before jumping into anything because in a few months they’ll be jumping back to their old ways.

I just want people to understand that getting fit and healthy is TRULY not a punishment. This life is actually very enjoyable. I do however think I would enjoy it a TAD bit more have I not spend 80% of my week in the gym, but hey! Least, I have no excuses. I mean, I have them, but.. you’re at the gym, get shit done. Plain and simple. lol.

Eating a chipotle salad. Chipotle is one of my favorite places to eat when I looking for a healthy alternative.

Eating a Chipotle salad. Chipotle is one of my favorite places to eat when I looking for a healthy alternative.

Loving isopure right now. Quick and easy way to get your protein in. Also trying a brown rice protein. Ingriedient list was 5 or less which is fantastic for a p. powder.

Loving isopure right now. Quick and easy way to get your protein in. Also trying a brown rice protein. ingredient list was 5 or less which is fantastic for a p. powder.

Locked and loaded for the day. I have some of my food (chicken breast greek yogurt and nuts) a banana, my BCAA's a huge water bottle, and a quest bar (obviously).

Locked and loaded for the day. I have some of my food (chicken breast greek yogurt and nuts) a banana, my BCAA’s* a huge water bottle, and a quest bar (obviously).

Friday Mornings Breakfast @ Pancake house. This was a tough one for me but I made it work. They had a different variety of pancake batters, wheat germ, buck wheat and a gluten free one.. After googling (yes, at the table) the differenes and what would be better, I decided to go with the wheatgerm pancakes. They were small and I finished one of them. They werent bad.. I would of ate the but I did feel a tad bit guilty. They tasted almost like the after taste of a raisin... lol

Friday Mornings Breakfast @ Pancake house w the Boo. This was a tough one for me ( I FUCKING LOVE ANYTHING THAT NEEDS HAS OR IS INVOLVED IN BATTER BEING USED!!!!!) but I made it work. They had a different variety of pancake batters, wheat germ, buck wheat and a gluten free one.. After googling (yes, at the table) the differences and what would be better, I decided to go with the wheat germ pancakes. They were small and I finished one of them. They weren’t bad.. I would have ate the but I did feel a tad bit guilty. They tasted almost like the after taste of a raisin… lol

* Branched Chain Amino Acids (BCAA’S):

  • The BCAAs include leucine, isoleucine, and valine, and they support everything from anabolic muscle building to high-intensity endurance training to improving mental function and mood.
  • How and When to Take BCAAs
    The critical nature of an organized nutrition protocol is indicated with research evidence that protein synthesis is enhanced by BCAA supplementation for up to 24 hours after weight lifting to the point of muscle failure. Training to failure with both 30 percent and 90 percent of the 1RM load will sensitize the muscle to protein feeding for 24 hours after the workout. The key is maximal fiber recruitment versus submaximal-achieving failure primes the body for protein feeding, which should be consumed with BCAAs throughout the day.

The first thing you’ll experience if you choose to supplement your diet with branched chain amino acids (BCAAs) is immune system support. Every time you go into the gym and lift weights, you are placing an enormous amount of stress on the body. If the body is not able to fully tolerate this stress level, that’s when you’re going to see problems develop regarding muscle recovery and, possibly, an increased likelihood of illness.

Because the essential amino acids cannot be produced by the body and must be consumed directly, if you fail to get these in your body, it will not have everything it needs to maintain a normal, healthy immune system. Further, one study performed by the Laboratory of Human Nutrition for Athletes suggested that taking branched chain amino acids around exercise also decreased the immune system response that is demonstrated.

  1. Support Muscle Protein Synthesis
  2. BCAA Levels Correlate with an Optimal Body Composition
  3. Evidence of Strength Gains from Taking Leucine with Training
  4. Can Decrease Muscle Soreness, Particularly DOMS
  5. Improve Mood and Decrease Depression with BCAAs

The next couple of weeks are going to be a little stressful. Not like they always aren’t but this is where I want to start opening doors, seeing whats inside, going places. I don’t want to be stuck anymore…

So with that being said, I am going to copy and paste a recipe from Paleomg.com that I stumbled upon and so excited that I did! I have been wanting to use pumpkin for a while now (no, not band wagon jumping, but there are some really good recipes for clean eating that involve pumpkin that I have yet to make)! Like this pumpkin chocolate chip muffin recipe..

Pumpkin Chocolate Chip Muffins

 

Prep time:  10 mins
Cook time:  40 mins
Total time:  50 mins
Serves: 5
Ingredients
  • ⅓ cup pumpkin puree
  • ⅓ cup maple syrup
  • ¼ cup coconut oil, melted
  • 3 eggs, whisked
  • 1 teaspoon vanilla extract
  • ¼ cup coconut flour
  • ½ teaspoon cinnamon
  • ¼ teaspoon nutmeg
  • ⅛ teaspoon ground cloves
  • ⅛ teaspoon powdered ginger
  • ½ teaspoon baking soda
  • ½ teaspoon baking powder
  • pinch of salt
  • ½ cup Enjoy Life Mini Chocolate Chips
Instructions
  1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees.
  2. Mix together wet ingredients in a bowl: pumpkin puree, maple syrup, coconut oil, eggs, and vanilla extract.
  3. In another bowl, whisk together coconut flour, cinnamon, nutmeg, ground cloves, powdered ginger, baking soda, baking powder, and salt.
  4. Pour dry ingredients into wet ingredients and mix well.
  5. Fold in chocolate chips.
  6. Line a muffin tin with paper liners. Use an ice cream scoop to one scoop of batter per muffin. Makes 5 full muffins.
  7. Bake for 35-40 minutes

Mmmmmm..

I want to gather recipes that are simple and easy and wont make you feel like you’re missing out on having high cholesterol. You think as long as I gave credit to people’s recipes I can give them out? … Like hey.. instead of a bunch of lard on your plate, that unless you are active enough and burn it off will result in cellulite build up on your thighs, try this! I don’t know how that works with recipes and stealing and I clearly can NOT take any credit for jack shit because I am NOT creative in the kitchen. Could I be? possible. But I’m not (sure as hell no Vivian! lol Love you girl. @fitaliciousme). So no point in lying or taking credit for someone elses ideas.

We shall see.. I mean, I can barely focus enough to make this blog anything special.. So who knows what I come up with in the weeks to come. Le boyfriend IS leaving me for a week-long fishing trip…. Hmmm…

P.SI want to apologize to ruining.. wasting? I dnt know the right word I am looking for, but your time at your buddies birthday last night. It was bad timing and my stubborn ass is mixed with emotion and constant ups and downs that I hope you know where I am coming from when I tell you the things I do, and feel and why I do and feel them. I may sound crazy at the time but I hope you can look back on it and know that it comes from a good place even though I am THEE worst person to try to express it. You are a good person with a great heart and I hope one day we start turning the pages together.

I love you.

 

 

 

www.paleomg.com

http://www.poliquingroup.com

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Healthy Recipes..

.. that I am determined to make this weekend.

Single-Lady Peanut Butter Cookie

(Makes 1 or 2 cookies)

  • 2 T flour (I used ww pastry)
  • 1.5 tbsp peanut butter
  • 1/16 tsp baking soda
  • very scant 1/16 tsp salt
  • 1/4 tsp pure vanilla extract
  • 1.5 tbsp agave or maple syrup (Or use 3/4 tbsp each sugar and brown sugar, or 1.5 tbsp xylitol)
  • 1 tsp applesauce (or more, if using dry sweetener)
  • optional: add some chocolate chips if you wish!

Mix dry ingredients. Add pb and wet ingredients. Mix well and form into one or two cookies. Flatten into cookie shapes and bake in a preheated oven at 350F for 8-10 minutes. (I used my toaster oven. If you try this in a microwave, let me know how it works!) Note: if you use liquid sweetener, it’ll be more cake-y. If you use the sugar, it’ll be more chewy.

Blueberry Muffin for One

Makes one cupcake, Single-Lady style!

  • 3 tbsp spelt flour (30g) (or ww pastry, white, or Bob’s gluten-free)
  • 1/4 tsp baking powder
  • heaping 1/16 tsp salt
  • 1-2 tbsp blueberries (fresh or frozen)
  • 1/2 tsp vanilla extract
  • 1 tbsp unrefined coconut oil (You can sub a different oil; however the coconut oil gives it a rich flavor and fun texture. You can use applesauce for a fat-free version.)
  • 1 tbsp plus 1 tsp milk of choice (Use less if using liquid sweetener.)
  • 1 tbsp sugar (or 1 packet stevia) I omitted, but most people will want some sweetener

Preheat your oven to 330 degrees. (Or see microwave note, below.) Mix dry ingredients, then add wet. Mix until just combined (don’t overmix), and bake for 17 minutes or so. (Baking time will vary, depending on the flour and oil/applesauce you use.)

Zucchini Apple Spice Muffins
Prep time: 10 mins
Cook time: 20 mins
Total time: 30 mins
Serves: 9
Ingredients
  • 1 medium zucchini, shredded (about 1 cup worth)
  • 1 apple (I used gala), shredded (less than 1/2 cup worth)
  • 1 cup almond butter
  • 1/4 cup raw honey
  • 2 eggs, whisked
  • 2 teaspoons ground cinnamon
  • 1 teaspoon vanilla extract
  • 1/2 teaspoon ground nutmeg
  • 1/2 teaspoon ground allspice
  • 1/4 teaspoon ground ginger
  • 1/8 teaspoon ground cloves
  • 1/2 teaspoon baking powder
  • pinch of salt
Instructions
  1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees.
  2. So you first need to shred your zucchini. Use the shredding attachment on your food processor or take the long and boring route using a cheese grater. Whichever works.
  3. Once your zucchini is shredded, you need to remove the excess liquid. What I did was place a couple paper towels down on the counter, throw the zucchini on top, then place another paper towel on top of the zucchini then squeezed. The more you squeeze, the more liquid will come out. Genius.
  4. Use more paper towels as needed, but be sure to squeeze until the zucchini feels water-less.
  5. Place zucchini in a bowl.
  6. Now shred your apple. I left the skin on the apple and zucchini, but you don’t have to if you’re not a fan.
  7. Toss together your zucchini and apple in your bowl then add the rest of your ingredients and mix well.
  8. Place muffin mix in a greased muffin tin or with muffin liners or silicone muffin liners like I used!
  9. Bake for 15-20 minutes of until your toothpick comes out clean after you poke them!
  10. Top with a bit of coconut butter and you got heaven on your hands.
  11. Makes 9 muffins

Coffee Fudge Frosting
(I am nixing the coffee part lol).

  • 1 cup cashew or macadamia nuts (110g)
  • 1/4 cup plus 3 tbsp espresso or strong coffee (105g)
  • very scant 1/4 tsp salt
  • 1/2 tsp pure vanilla extract
  • 2 tsp pure maple syrup (10g)
  • 2 1/2 nunaturals stevia packets or 4 tbsp powdered sugar (or simply increase the maple syrup to 4 tbsp, and decrease coffee to 1/4 cup)

Place the nuts in a cereal-sized bowl and cover with water. Let sit at least 6 hours, or overnight. Drain the liquid, then combine all ingredients in a small food processor or blender until super-smooth. (I actually used my Magic Bullet for this. If your food processor is too big, you might need to double the recipe for smoother blending.)

Chocolatecoveredkatie is where I got everything but the zucchini muffin thing recipe**. I was going to delete that recipe but figured my mom being home all day and all she could enjoy a recipe too.

**Ohh, the recipe is from paleomg.com 🙂

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It’s about that time..

So I haven’t been to the gym in 3 days. Besides all the excuses, I think mentally its okay.

Okay.. not “okay”, but something I can get passed. The extra weight I am carrying, does put a burden on my every day life.. mood.. attitude.. just about everything that consumes me on a daily basis.. however I am taking this and using it for the better. I am slowly piecing my life together, one day at a time.

I am dedicating the next 6 weeks to see how hard I can push myself. No cheats for 2 weeks. Just a ball to the wall type attitude. I know I can do this, so I will patiently wait to say I did it 🙂

This past weekend was fun though. Spent time with the boy, went to dinner and got cupcakes (something we had planned to do for awhile now).. I took the dogs to the park and they had a great time. Marley on our second trip around just decided to lay down randomly because she was tired (or hot, it was beautiful out though), but she kept truckin like a good girl! I managed to knock out 200 lunges.. randomly.. just lunging away while I walked my doggies haha.. Ohhhh a sight to see.

Here are some pictures from this weekend:

As you can see, its pretty much all the food I ate. LMAO. Ugh.. def feeling it now. Actually feeling it so much that it doesn’t even appeal to me anymore (I mean it would if the situation arise, but so far I NEED to stick with this). I know my boyfriend is 100% supportive, as my mother and what not but I still find excuses to sleep rather go to the gym first. I am though, finding different ways to boost my energy that I seem to be lacking each and every day, but I am working on it. For this week, I want to focus on my eating and getting a work out in each day. After this week, I will be doing 2 a days just to knock them out. I am hoping that waking up early and getting a kick start to my day will benefit me (okay i know it will benefit me, but really? How awesome is sleeping in a bed?.. okay not as awesome as looking in the mirror and cheesing but a close second).
So.. with all this being said, my excuses have taken a toll and I am ready to give it 100% again.

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Some sort of growth, right?

“When I see these pictures I often find myself thinking, what else have they had to give up in order to attain that physique? What relationships have suffered? What other areas of their life have they not had the opportunity to cultivate? What would that person ever do if circumstances (such as age, illness, some personal tragedy) turned the tide and they couldn’t maintain that image anymore? Would their identity be lost? Would others no longer be impressed by them?”

I recently saw this on someones blog, and holy cow.
I haven’t thought about my life without fitness or a healthy lifestyle till I came across that paragraph and wow was I lost for words.
My life has consisted of years of self abuse. Eating disorder after eating disorder. Diet pill after diet pill. Work out after work out.
This is all I know. I know weight loss. I know self hate. I know unhealthy. I know healthy.
Now.. I don’t know a life without constantly thinking about working out, hating myself, and food as much as I’ve lived this one. lol. Whatever I am doing.. surfing the net, posting fitness tips, pinching extra fat on my things, looking in the mirror, smelling a bomb ass slice of pizza, salivating over pinterest.. literally.. not a day.. not an hour.. not even a min goes by without me thinking about “fitness”.. So what would happen? What would change if I no longer could do the things I do on a day-to-day basis? What if I couldn’t work out?
The only thing I can pinpoint that I know 100% to be true.. is as long as I didn’t put on weight (or get what I feel s my uncomfortable zone) then I would try to make the best out of the situation.. but if the weight starting creeping and I wasn’t able to be active I think would ruin me. The idea of me being fat… FEELING fat hurts my heart. No joke.
Actually writing this out makes me sound selfish. Fuck. Seriously.. lets move on..
SO reading this on Friday guess what I did?
I had one of the best weekends of my life.
It didn’t start off so well but it definitely made me realize that I wouldn’t be lost without my fitness lifestyle.. that’s not something I focus on. It is literally my outward appearance. I NEED to look good (or at least THINK I look good lol). I like seeing collar bones and broad shoulders. I love having an ass but a flat stomach. I want my legs more defined… bigger even. Before I wouldn’t IMAGINE being “thicker” (I fucking hate that word). But in reality this is comfort. Healthy IS happy.
So, since I really don’t want to make this super long I won’t go much into detail (I ramble anyways so feel free to speed read).. I got home friday night knowing I wasn’t going to work out. I wanted to rest so that’s exactly what I planned on doing. I had saved these pre made smores the entire week and really wanted it right then and there. So what did I do? I had it.. Do you see a pattern in my decision-making? lol. So I was talking to my mom and she interrupted and said, should you be eating that? 
Fuck. I literally snapped. This is probably the 3rd or 4th time she’s made a comment like this, however it’s usually when I really shouldn’t be eating it (during contest prep). So I suppose I could understand.. but what the f u c k ? It kind of hurt. I ended up trying to explain how I felt and she got weird and didn’t understand so I walked out and called her a fucking asshole. 
 
1. Yes I was wrong for calling my mother an asshole.
2. This exact question, from her and an ex boyfriend, has started binges. Consider it a “trigger”.
 
We pretty much didn’t talk all night. I think she texted me something but my phone ended up dying. I passed out trying to charge my computer so it could charge my phone.

Saturday Morning..

.. I woke up feeling pretty good. I made breakfast, and cleaned up a bit. I had plans to go to Ribfest with a few friends but it was still pretty early (damn you internal clock). So I ended up putting a blanket outside and trying to tan. About 15 minutes in he calls me and I plan to leave within the hour. Everything pretty much goes as planned. I get to his house and we take the convertible down towards the city. tragic wasn’t that bad but I was stoked to be in the sun tanning with the top down lol, so I could care less. We see a carnival on the side of the highway and I made a comment about exes saying they’d win me a bear but I end up winning it myself. So what did he do? Took a detour parked the car and we didn’t leave the carnival till he won me a bear. Oh and eat a funnel cake too. So we hoped back in the car, got to the fest and pretty much gained weight. We ate fried oreos, ribs, more ribs and more bbq lol. After we walked around a bit, he got a few calls to go to the race track in Joliet. We dipped and ended up staying at the track for at least 5 hours. We drank margaritas and I ate someones french fries.. and popcorn. lol. Blahblahblah we end up driving home but ended up stopping at a friend’s house to drink. And drink I did. 
 
Woke up in a bed on..

Sunday AM..

.. Up early as hell no hangover. Success. 11am his friend calls him to go with him and his gf to breakfast. We drive about 20 minutes to a breakfast place named Ellies (no pictures because phone was dead). I think it would have been a lot better had I known what the ingredients were like. They were fresh but wasn’t expecting it. Like for example I ordered a skillet with green pepper… however they were the huge peppers and not cut down (they were literally the size of a mini twix lol)… but then I took no joke less than 10 bites and I was full. I was just dehydrated like a mother fucker. So I just chugged diet coke and water (bad idea btw). We leave and get dropped off not knowing what are plans were next. I sit in the backyard and put suntan lotion on. He gets a call and we roll over to his friend’s house. Sun tanning and drinking for hours. It was so chill. Literally stopped everything to go to Trader Joes for Mochi balls.. lol…. I think in total we had like 8 boxes.. They were defiantly weird lol. After we bail we go back to his house and sit and chill till I realize that I wanted Cold Stone. So what did we do? We got Cold stone lol. Fuck yeah.
So. that was pretty much straight my weekend. Now.. this wasn’t anything special.. No, I didn’t win the lottery or get a new car. I didn’t work out once and I ate like shit the entire weekend (no I do not recommend this. One or two cheat meals a week. NOT cheat DAYS!) Yes, I wasn’t AS comfortable and no I didn’t really want to walk around in a bikini, but for once I wasn’t constantly thinking about fitness, the gym, working out or fucking protein powder. I was LIVING. As simple as my weekend was, it was unbelievably relaxing. I felt like I took a mini vacation from myself.

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