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We get it.. Take away food, you’ll lose weight.

Why low carb diets “work”- yes.. using the word (work) extremely loosely..

Weight loss or gain is primarily related to total caloric intake, not the macronutrient profile of the diet. The weight lost on a low carbohydrate diet can be attributed to two factors: low caloric intake and loss of fat-free mass. If an individual begins dropping carbohydrate rich foods from his or her diet, it is inevitable that caloric intake will drop as a result. Added to the caloric reduction, are dwindling glycogen stores. For every gram of glucose taken out of glycogen, it brings with it 2.7g of water. This loss of muscle glycogen (including water) can be quite significant in the first week of a low carb diet, and adds to the pounds lost on the scale. This is how low carbohydrate fad diets can promise dramatic weight loss in such a short period. Long term success in weight loss is associated with realistic eating style, not one that severely limits or omits one of the macronutrients.

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If all you get out of this post was that I deadlifted 230lbs, that’s fine.

Have been having some really bad days lately. Mostly because of my attitude towards it all, but it is really hard to stay positive when you are going broke doing what you love to do. I just feel that I am stuck. Even more overwhelmed that I feel stuck in the first place. It’s almost like binging.. One horrible, vicious cycle in which I am doing to myself.

No one is making me stay at this company. No one has a gun to my head telling me I can’t leave.. Yet I feel like trying to find a new job would not entirely help the situation. I would have to find all new clients, go practically paycheckless for 2ish months, literally start from the bottom all over again and I don’t think that makes a lot of sense right now. Hopefully my boss puts in a good word to snag a promotion sooner than later, because I feel like I will have no choice but to leave. I really don’t want to, at least not now. I have a LIST of horrible things this company does, and that I am against but I LOVE personal training, I LOVE my clients. I don’t know.. I really have no idea what to do and I cry myself to sleep every night praying to God to help me through all this.
It has gotten to a point where I have been asking my boyfriend for money to pay my bills.. something I am super ashamed about but something that I appreciate dearly. Hopefully I will get my head out of my ass and will start stepping in the right direction instead of huge piles of shit all the damn time. I just hate being taken advantage of.. I am BUSTING my ass and putting so much thought and effort into every one of my clients, all to get pennies off the dollar. It’s sad.. it really is that a company as big as this one validates paying there trainers a little as they do. It is MIND BLOWING. But I continue to work there.. don’t I? So who the fuck else do I have to blame except, yet again, myself?
The only good I see coming from this experience though, is the thought of starting my own business. I have so many ideas that that alone gets me overwhelmed as well.. but it’s a little piece of hope I continue to hold on too..
Maybe one day..
Now that thats off my chest.. I DEADLIFTED 230lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yup… a whopping 230 for 2 reps (lol).. After I dropped the weight, I had 3 people come up to me shaking my hand, telling me how impressive it was. I felt famous for like 2.5 seconds and I FREAKING LOVED IT! Granted, I had a spot and I used straps (I have never lifted with straps before but holyhell I can see why people use them. It helped SO much that I am thinking of purchasing a pair.. in pink of course!).. but I did it! I was so happy. So happy that it turned my horribly awful day into a freakin GREAT ONE! I was on cloud 9 for the remainder of the day lol.. till.. well I got home. I was INSTANTLY sore.. mostly because I lifted the second rep wrong and used my back instead of my legs (WHICH IS DANGEROUS! DO NOT DO!), and spent the rest of the night on a heating pad. The next day (today), was even worse.. Which I knew was going to happen because well.. I have been lifting for a while now and I know damn well the next few days afterwards are incredibly painful lol. I got foam rolled though which will help with the recovery process, but let me tell you.. THAT WAS UNBEARBALE! Now.. I have gotten tattooed on the ribs, and have had my tongue/nose pierced.. but o m g, that had me in tears. I almost had them stop it was that bad.. Shit.. I’m like cringing as I write this lol… So, I took a slight rest day today.. Did a slow pace walk for 40 minutes and continued to stretch through out the day. Over all.. WORTH IT! I really need to start training with a spotter though.. I have so much potential yet don’t lift as heavy as I can in fear I’ll either look like a dumbass or.. I’ll look like a dumbass when the weight comes crashing down on me lol.. Either way.. I know that with someone there that I could lift SOOOOO much heavier and I NEED that. I need to start progressing.. Yes, I am losing weight but it’s not all about that. I just want to get stronger.. Now if only it wasn’t just physically but mentally too..
Ohh.. one step at a time..
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“IT”

I want this new year to start off right. I want this new year to be MY year. The year I show not only to other people but more importantly to myself that I can do this and continue to do it.

It? What’s “it” exactly?

It would be my dedication, my motivation, my will to succeed. “It” would be my hard work, my happiness within myself.

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I have come along way, fallen off a few times, but I am currently in the right direction. The past 2 weeks I have really put myself first and have gotten in the gym every day, only to see more and more progress which leads me to wanting “this” so much more. It makes you realize that you CAN do this, that you can make a difference. Like I’ve said before the beginning is the hardest but once you get passed the few hurdles I promise things will look up.

What I plan on doing this new year is to really put forth the effort and compete again come March 30. I want this new year to really be my “road to ripped“.

I want to take you fellow readers into my life of competition, the good the bad and the ugly. I want people to experience something that they may be afraid to do. Not only that, I want to show everyone the transformation that could happen if they just put the effort in.

Yes the effort.. the effort, the time, the discipline, and let me tell you once again.. it is SO worth it.

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I don’t know what’s going on here.

I caught a glimpse of a bad angle of myself in the mirror. I stopped in place. Instant sadness took over. Usually that would cause a binge. It didn’t (thank God).. But it sure made me feel like shit. The only thing that kept me on track was repeating to myself that I need patience. This took a month to undo.. I’m not going to wake up one morning lean. Not going to happen. So I just have to understand (which I do) but I have to have faith that I can keep straight. Here I am trying to help others and I am having the hardest time trying to help myself. Even driving  home yesterday, I realized I literally make myself unhappy.. But for what? What am I getting out of feeling like this? No one knows the pain I feel inside but me.. So it’s not pity or sympathy… Do I just like to cry? Feel sorry for myself?

What. The. Fuck?

I’m unhappy. And I’m bringing people down with me and it disgusts me. This is not the Marissa show here and I’m living like it is.

With that being said, I don’t think I can have a relationship anymore. I thought I was ready.
Far from it.

I don’t want to push anyone out of my life but I need to focus on building a healthy relationship with myself and God first. The two things I should be focusing on, seem to be missing from the to do list entirely.

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Day 93- 3 days left..

Wednesday, May 9th…

Woke up fat. No joke.

NO idea where my abs went. Possibly the more carbs I had yesterday due to a leg workout? UGH.

so guess what I did, I googled that shit.

Found the same shit I already knew, drink more water, sweat ext ext.. Did see something about preparation- H.. so I got it. Lmao. I am so bad. Do not follow what I do just yet.. the point of the cream is to apply it prior or cardio so it secretes the fluid out of that area…… *CROSSES FINGERS* *PRAYS* *BLOWS OUT A CANDLE* pleassssssssseeeeeeeeeee work..

I’ve had enough. 3 days. I can do this.

All I want is to finish this contest prep.. EAT like crap for 24 hours, then get back to my normal lifestyle. I want to eat fruit without guilt. I want to EAT TO GROW AND I WANT IT NOW!!!!!! I know I’ll lose my abs for a few days but I don’t care. You should see me at the gym late at night.. I am practically SLEEPING!!! I am trying so hard, then I beat myself up over the fact that it was possibly a shitty fucking workout. I need balance in my life. Balance and forgiveness, especially for oneself.

Alright so yesterday after my never ending work day I headed over to Taylor’s Salon after I walked Marley and ate really quick.. (@La Flavia Salon in IL).. I waited around for a bit, for her to finish with her last client then I was next! She ended up cutting about 4 inches off.. dry cut and everything. It. Looks. Awesome. Anyways after we were chit chatting.. she thought she was going to dye it as well.. well obviously a miscommunication.. haha.. so I am going back tomorrow (Thursday) for her to dye it and style it (just so I know what it looks like and if I want it up or down).. so yes.. any who.. after the haircut we went back to her house and she got ready and we hit the gym.

It was leg day.. the last leg day of this contest prep.  yep. and let me tell you I, my “rest” breaks were me shutting my eyes and trying to sleep. It was awful. The only bright side of this story is I lifted my heaviest.. weird? haha.. no joke.

Blah blah blah got home at 1130pm and passed the fuck out.

I did book the hotel, so that’s another thing off my list of things to do. Now its just a waiting game really lol. Playing around with my poses and how my “abs” look in certain poses.. I am def ready to get all pampered though. Taylor is going to do an amazing job I already know.. now if my body was up to par…..

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Don’t worry.. I’ll be confident up there because you really don’t have any other choice lmfao.. but deep down I could of done better. I just have to remind myself that I didn’t do this with the intention of trying to out beat every girl.. this was a personal goal.  Really just a set date that I needed to lose that god awful weight in and I think I at least accomplished that. Again.. just WAIT for the before and after pics.. I at least lost 25 SOLID POUNDS OF FAT. Ugh I was disgusting.

Alright that was my little update for you and again I apologize for the lack material in my blogs.. I PROMISEEEEE as soon as I get SOME energy I will put A LOT of effort into making this blog something special. I LOVE receiving the comments/feed back from you guys. It ALWAYS puts me in a better mood/ a smile on my face. So I thank you.

now, to leave you with a photo that have made my jaw drop today..

..talk about  motivation.

Now go work out! 😉

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Day 25 Patience, or lack thereof.

I’m feeling a little down today. I’m not focusing. I’m lifting really heavy, but not doing cardio, Im trying to be patient. I cant rush, and do hours of cardio to lose body fat.

Did I tell you I have no patience?

Patience is the art of concealing your impatience.

Well guess I’m not concealing very well.. because this is my weakness part about me, is the fact that I’m impatient. I get impatient about everything (HENCE MY ROAD RAGE)! Here I am trying to practice happiness and stopping to enjoy life for once, and I’m rushing in EVERY aspect of my life.
It IS different when it involves losing weight though, because you want to just start feeling and looking good. But its never like that.

and texting my friend who has said for months that hes tired of feeling like shit, after ADMITTING he just didn’t care enough to make changes. Even when his own mother would ridicule him, he said he didn’t want it enough, has been working his butt off at the gym and finally eating healthy! But he mentioned how he wasn’t losing weight fast enough. DON’T GET CARRIED AWAY!


Losing weight, and KEEPING IT OFF takes time!It took longer then a few weeks to do the damage that has been done to our bodies, it’s going to take longer then a few weeks to repair it.

Unless youre on a TV show and all you do is workout and eat rabbit food, be prepared for this to be a LIFELONG CHALLENGE.

For me and dieting for a competition I’m on a time limit. I will NOT force myself, but I don’t think i’m paying attention. Monday will mark 10 more weeks.  Which is still more then 2 months away and is still A LOT of time. Most people start 9 weeks out, so I think I’m on the right track, that and I’M FUCKING PUMPED EVERY SINGLE FUCKING DAY to lift. UGh its SUCH a great feeling.

BUT I was feeling down. 😦 I looked in the mirror today and look no where near where I should be. But I have to realize that everything WILL be okay 🙂 I can’t expect miracles lol.

I guess what I’m saying is I haven’t started giving 100% yet… :/

But thinking back to my post that was suppose to be yesterday (which I was super excited about then it just decided to RANDOMLY delete.. nobigfuckingdeal right? lol yeah not anymore) was that I went to the gym after class because I missed Tuesday’s leg workout.

So 7am UP 8-4work 5-8class 9-10pm gym then I stayed up writing the mysteriously deleted blog, then I went to sleep haha.. so maybe I am focusing and just not giving myself the credit I deserve, because it was a BAD ASS leg workout. Didn’t max out but hit 320 on the Leg Press Machine 🙂 and did 100 lunges (w 60 lbs/bw)

Whatever it may be, I’m slowly learning and that’s good enough for me.

Learn what patience is and ways to recognize and overcome your impatience triggers. Steps you can follow to help identify what makes you lose your patience.

A tendency to be impatient is considered a major personality flaw. People who suffer from severe impatience are often considered to be arrogant, insensitive, and overbearing. Impatience can cause a person to cut others off mid-sentence and to make what appear to be uninformed, quick judgements.

  • Traffic
  • Ignorant People
  • Rude/mean People
  • Being late
  • Being lost
  • WEIGHT LOSS

These are legit my triggers. I just have to keep praying for the strength to overcome all this. Life is short and is sure as hell not promised or guaranteed. So why not make the best out of every day?

Not to forget in yesterdays post I made a comment about how I received alot of views which i was SUPPPPPPER excited about (someone linked my profile to pinterest). Put a smile on my face.

PINTEREST: shititsmar

800am Had my myofusion superblend protein shake

915am eating an orange.

1030am ate my justins almond butter. I’m not drinking enough water to stay full 😦

1111am ALWAYS SO FREAKING HUNGRY@!

1145am ate half my chicken breast.

Stuffed Green Peppers with Brown Rice, Italian Sausage, and Parmesan
(Makes 4 large stuffed green peppers, recipe created by Kalyn when her market had a great sale on peppers!)

1 C long-grain brown rice (I used Uncle Ben’s Brown Rice, but any long-grain rice will work.)
4 large green bell peppers, bottom trimmed, cap end cut off and diced, and seeds removed
1 large onion, diced
2 tsp. + 1 tsp. olive oil
2 links (about 8 ounces) turkey Sweet Italian Sausage (or other sausage of your choice. Use diced mushrooms instead of sausage for vegetarian version.)
1/2 tsp. ground fennel
1/2 tsp. dried Greek or Turkish oregano
1/2 cup grated Parmesan cheese
salt and fresh ground black pepper to taste
1/4 cup grated mozzarella cheese

Cook rice according to package directions, or using a rice cooker. (Rice can be cooked ahead and used in this recipe later.)

Preheat oven to 375F/190C. Trim bottom of bell peppers so they have a flat surface to stand on. Cut off a fairly generous amount of the stem end of peppers, then remove seeds. Place hollowed-out peppers in a baking dish that you’ve sprayed with non-stick spray or olive oil. (A dish that’s close in size to the peppers will work best.)

Remove stem part from the pepper caps and trim off any white membrane, then dice pepper caps and the onion into fairly small dice. Heat 2 tsp. olive oil in a large skillet, then saute diced pepper and onion for 3-4 minutes, until they are starting to soften but aren’t browned. Remove pepper-onion mixture to a bowl, add 1 tsp. more olive oil, then squeeze sausage out of the casing and cook until it’s lightly browned, breaking apart with the back of the turner.

Put the onion-pepper mixture back into the pan with the sausage, add the dried spices, and saute 2-3 minutes to blend the flavors. Then add cooked rice and Parmesan cheese, season the mixture with salt and fresh ground black pepper to taste, and cook just long enough to warm, about 1-2 minutes.

Stuff the filling mixture into the hollowed-out peppers, using a spoon to press the mixture down so it’s tightly packed into the pepper shell. (A few years ago I stopped pre-cooking the peppers before stuffing, and now I prefer peppers that are stuffed raw.) If you have any extra filling, you can put it in a small ramekin and bake along with the peppers. Bake peppers for 30 minutes, then remove from oven and put a generous pinch of grated mozzarella on top of each pepper. Put peppers back into the oven and bake about 10-15 minutes more, until cheese is melted and lightly browned. Serve hot.

Found this recipe for stuffed peppers. HOLY SHIT am I super excited.
http://www.kalynskitchen.com/2010/09/recipe-for-stuffed-green-peppers-with.html

12:43pm Going to finish my 1/2 of that chicken breast 🙂

Found out we MAY not do Big Buck this year or at least not in Minnesota. Wtf? whatever. no big deal.

358pm should of ate by now but super excited about these pictures hahah. but just got back from whole foods. spend 40 at whole foods and they are all my snacks which are PERFECT MUNCHIES!

500pm I ate what I got from whole foods, Ill just show you 😉

It was ground Turkey Pico de gallo and broccoli. FUCKING YUM! I was even thinking about going back for more Ground Turkey but I didn’t lol 😦

600pm I then went and did shoulders 🙂 Killed it, almost backed out a little bit because  my shoulder gave out> Got a little scared :/ But it was fine, did 6 sets of squat to shoulder press 40 lb x 10reps. 5 minutes of planks :):)

25min on the treadmill

800pm Chicken Brown Rice 2tbs light sour cream

Finishing up blogging and shit. probably going to grab a protein shake later if I stay up late enough but gotta get this shit done. So when  I got home…. :):):):)  I came upstairs and saw something on my desk AND OMG my mom got me sperry’s!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHH they’re not the right color but Mine I can’t get till june :(:(

LOOK AT MY LOVELY MAGAZINE ARTICLES!!!!!!!! I loved this months magazine ❤ Makes so much and I got super excited reading it. Just and enjoy

Happiness is an inside job. Nothing externally can make you happy. People, places, and things- they can’t make you happy. Only you can.”

How beautiful.

 

Goodnight ❤

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About my Road to Ripped.

Road To Ripped…again.

This is my journey to getting back on stage to compete in another NPC Bikini Competition. This is day to day what I go through, what I eat, how I feel, EVERYTHING. I get ALOT of questions on my facebook: Maristheshit@facebook.com <– (If you wish to follow there as well), regarding training and most importantly DIET! So I figured this would be a great way to track my progress and hopefully help others out without repeating myself 50 million times.

My Blog will cover:

  • Day to day “diet” and training schedule
  • Do’s and Dont’s
  • Progress Pictures
  • Motivation

I started in the health industry at a young age. I ended up getting a personal trainer at the gym I was working at and really started seeing a change. I got really into it and was pulled aside by the fitness manager and was asked if interested in PT.. well yeah, so I was thrown on the floor probably a week later after completing a mandatory 5 days of fitness ( I was certified probably 8 months later.. I failed the first test.. lol) but I had a full schedule within 2 weeks. My first client Brenda, she was a riot.. pretty serious training though. I trained a kid (well actually Idk if i can say his name I think he’s still underaged lol) but he was probably 6’5 and uncoordinated. I also trained a 87 yr old man that had to relearn sitting in a chair again.. I haven’t seen it all, but I’ve seen a lot and it’s all very interesting to say the least.

I am currently in school to finish a bachelors degree in clinical psychology and nutrition, yes I have dealt with, am still dealing with just not still struggling with eating disorders. Hopefully by the time I’ve finished my degree I can use it to understand the reasons behind it. So nutrition and looking good = feeling good, is something I will portray in this blog.

So, I have a couple more days till I am o f f i c i a l l y 12 weeks till I step back on stage. For everyone that doesn’t know, this is the second show I attempted but the first show I completed. I backed out 2 weeks prior to my first show because I lacked confidence. My philosophy was why walk on a stage lacking something that should be the real reason you’re on stage in the first place? I took a spill gained some weight, then lost it for my first show that was a year later. I got 6 out of 20 something girls (online it says I took 5th) but regardless I accomplished something. The whole experience was just that, an experience. I learned and met so many people that it would change my life. Going into something like this is NOT something most people expect. It’s more mentally challenging then one would imagine, and takes mental strength on top of physical strength to continue day to day. You try to stay SANE. I literally dreamt of food, had food porn saved on my phone. It got pretty bad when the restriction on food got worse. Maybe its because I have a background of eating disorders but I hear that MOST people go thru this. I don’t know how serious or severe the binges or the “depression” get, but everyone needs to understand that this isn’t a walk in the park. It takes a strong soul to dismiss cravings and curve temptation else where. Stay busy, stay active, write feelings and emotions down. It’s okay, it’s hard, but it’s okay. Not everyone can compete and walk on stage. I mean shit most people can’t put down a cheeseburger never mind actually GIVING up processed foods.  So follow me to get in shape and live a healthier lifestyle.

I found this on a blog earlier today:

“If you don’t drink alcohol, you won’t crave alcohol. If you don’t do drugs, you won’t crave drugs. If you don’t eat unhealthy food, you won’t crave unhealthy food”.

Philippians 4:13 (ESV): I can do all things through him who strengthens me.

Top Picture is NPC Competition. Bottom Left is the night before. Bottom Right is the day after.

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