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Late weekend post.

I could not of asked for a better weekend.

That’s all I should write. Words literally couldn’t describe the weekend I had. Or maybe I wouldn’t be able to describe it well enough lol. Regardless it was amazing.

The boyfriend picked me up around 8pm and we headed to Wisconsin. Trip wasn’t that bad and after a stop at Walmart we made it there around midnight or so. We unpacked the groceries and made a few cocktails. We ended up taking a few shots and spent the next few hours talking. Talking about life and choices to come. It was really nice.. too bad I had to end it with random tears down my face.

Typical.

Groceries for us 2

We went outside for a smoke and star watched for a little bit. It was so peaceful, looking up and it being clear as day. The stars were shining so bright. A burn mark and shooting star later we went inside so he made me a pb and j (mine with wheat bread. obviously. so obvious he got his own white loaf at the store lol).. and passed out around 6am.

We woke up around noon. I cooked him and I some breakfast while he stayed in bed for a little while longer. After breakfast we packed up and got the boat set. Around 2 pm we were out in the water. We spent 4 or so hours fishing, drinking cocktails, enjoying life. It was a little cold but we were super prepared, and so I sat my happy ass down with another sweater. We stayed till it got dark, and loaded back up.

baby with my fishyyyyy

I beat him 13-8 🙂

After we got home, his dad came back with us to switch cars (we took a Camry there.. thanks enterprise) and needed a tow hitch so we borrowed his car. He fixed our grill and we all date dinner together. It was nice.. minus the whole language barrier but I just like being in good company. We marinated chicken breasts and steaks and had onion stuffed potatoes wrapped in bacon (my babe is the greatest) and a few polish sausages. We ate, cleaned up a bit both house and ourselves and headed to the casino. Went straight for the bar, grabbed a vodka tonic and sat down at the computerized roulette table (my favorite). We both put down $20. A few turns or so 5 guys sat down and filled the table completely. Now I actually liked being the only two people there, and liked it so much more when I realized these tools were rude as fuck. Regardless, they all threw down $200.. I sat next to a guy and all he was betting was $5 or $10.. so when he hit he hit big. Fuck.. I am so competitive and then you throw money on the table and it escalates lol. Baby lost all his and I left when I hit $40.. now that I think about it I guess I made up for his loss. Until we sat down at the penny slots and I literally got pissed after I lost $3. Dumbest machine ever. So I asked if we could play again before we left. Lol.. he just wanted to leave, I wanted to win some money. He agreed (like the best bf he is) and we put down $25 more. By that time the guy to my right was up 1,200. Yeah. $1,200. I saw his winnings at the bottom of the screen and nearly shit myself. I ended up losing all $25 but baby got $50 back. So we were all straight. We left immediately after and went to stop by boner again. Probably the classiest strip club I have ever been too (probably because I have only been to one. lol). We had a vodka tonic and enjoyed each others companies. It was just one of those nights lol..

bf making dindin

We headed back home around 2 or so realized we ran out of alcohol. I forget what we started drinking but I do remember my pb&j tasted great.

but then I think I passed out.. Probably because I love sleeping.

We wake up this time around 11am. Babe is a complete bed hog and his dog didn’t make it any better. lol so I did what I could and woke up to his dad knocking on the door. We got up and I made breakfast again. Scrambled eggs with sausage and a left over bacon wrapped potato. It was awesome.

We grab our shit and head to the lake. It was pretty nice out so I dealt with my north face. We cast for a few hours, again so peaceful. I caught more fish again, but only 2 keepers. I was happy with my fish though. I even touched one.

HA!

my keeper!

my sexy boy

A few sober hours later we packed up so we could get a start to our drive home. We packed up, cleaned up, made brownies and headed home.

Everything was perfect.

Driving home I reflected on a lot. this weekend has made me really enjoy my life. Right now, it is everything I could ask for. I am still going through a lot but having the right people in my life has made it so much better. I spent all weekend with the love of my life, doing things we love doing, in a peaceful happy place. Spending all that time with him, I have realized how truly in love I am with him. He completes me, nothing else I can say.

Alright I am stopping now because I swear I could write a novel of my feelings for him. Just ask him how many times he catches me starring.. lol…..

creepy.

ha.. just a great weekend to remember while sitting here Wednesday morning 🙂

Already planned a back workout with Ashley tonight at 8. Going to do a few upper body exercises abs then finish with an hour of cardio. Cardio goes by so much easier/faster when you have someone with you. Going to focus today and tomorrow because this weekend will be a clusterfuck. The boyfriend and I are visiting my sister in MN at school. We have a football game and theme park already planned but I think the experience itself will be exciting. A mini road trip with the love of my life, and him meeting my sister for the first time 🙂 I have never done something like this before and couldn’t be happier that everything in my life at the moment is all falling into place.

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Day 21 If I have no love I am nothing

One of the most inspiring quotes/pictures I have ever came across ❤

 

I remember days where I thought life was too hard to handle. I pleaded with God to take my life. I have cried myself to sleep. I have been down dark dark roads. I have done things I shouldn’t have, and I have hurt people I shouldn’t of. But as I write this today, just know that I too thought I would NEVER see a brighter day. I sit here though, never BEEN HAPPIER. Yes my life is FAR from perfect, but when you are given the gift of life each day and you learn to love not only yourself and others but the big man upstairs, life changes. Not in a drastic way where people will stop and ask questions or envy you, but in your heart, in your mind and soul where it is needed most. You will wake up each day and say thank you Lord for another day to live through you. And I will live through him. He has shown me that I can get through anything. That I can be a strong individual with so much love and passion for people. I can finally say that I am truly happy 🙂
Have faith in God.
Know that he is with you and will help you get through life’s struggles. He does NOT give you anything you cannot handle.

Nor are you alone.
As lonely as the path your leading down may feel like, just breathe.
Know that you are here for a reason and you have a purpose.

Anything that you need help with, take a second and ask for HELP. It does not mean you are weak, it just means you need guidance, you need to feel like someone has your back. That if you fail, someone will be there for you.

When no one else is there, and you feel the weight of the world on your shoulders. When you beg God to take your life. When you go down the wrong path. When you are suffering.
HE IS THERE. He WANTS to help you. Just put your faith in God.

He is OUR support.

 

8-930am I woke up for church. Made my Myofusion Protein Shake. Waited for my mother to get ready. and we kind of got in a little huff. I was just hot and aggravated. I couldn’t find my garage door opener, and we were on the verge of being late (MY MOTHER DOES NOT UNDERSTAND THE CONCEPT OF TIME). And I HATE being late, for anything!

10am We got to church. I apologized for how I was acting. I hate acting like a spoiled bitch to my mom. I fucking love her more then anything and I do not understand how I have such a low tolerance when it comes to me getting angry. It’s honestly like if I’m too hot (temp wise) that for some reason I am SO annoyed with everything around me. It would almost be better if I just didn’t talk to anyone when I’m pissy. I def need to work on that.

 

So we get to church, this is my first time at this Harvest. I’ve been to Harvest before but this one is a lot smaller but it was cool. As we were singing of course I got all teary eyed. Then when the pastor was talking about a college boy who wrote in for a prayer I like lost it. I started crying and had to get up and get tissues. THEN we went into small groups for about 30 min at the end and the one lady was talking and she had tears in her eyes and as soon as I saw them I started crying again. I have no idea why. I honestly think its because I just want to com fort all these people.

Even here on wordpress I see people struggling and I just want to make everything better. I want to open my arms and my heart for them. It just makes me so sad. Idk. I also think its because I haven’t cried in a while (which I think is a good thing for me lol). I am a very emotional person. lol

 

I know God will not give me anything I can’t handle.  I just wish that He didn’t trust me so much.  ~Mother Teresa

 

Ok.. so that was my little moving experience today. Oh how I’ve learned to appreciate the days 🙂
It’s about quarter to 1. I am going to finish cleaning and my laundry and then I will head to the gym.

Bi’s and Tri’s today. Ugh and a shit ton of core work.

Justina is suppose to come over but she hasn’t texted me and its 1pm already. My weekends usually consist of working out cooking and cleaning and I RARELY find time to hang out with people. I don’t mind it actually. I am trying to FIND and CREATE myself and the world is a dark place with many temptations. Besides I like have 2 days where I have NO schedule and no alarm clock set 🙂

3pm Went and did my arms workout. It consisted of hammer curls, BB curls, skull crushers, bench dips and assisted dips, and sort of a triceps push down. I also did 5 minutes of planks =D

430pm Had a green smoothie and just relaxed a bit. I put greens, mango, banana, fiber and ice. This one tasted a little funky and I think its because I put in a green mixture… Ol well.

605pm Bored as fuck, and being lazy. Justina wanted to come over but she wouldn’t get here till 7, I’m a horrible entertainer, and right now I’M BROKE AS F U C K. no joke. I have $20 till Tuesday AM. NOT COOL. Blame it on online shopping and buying organic food. FML. lol and the fact that I owe 2 GRAND FOR MY MAC BOOK! hahaha but I love it so its allll good ❤

I am going to finish up my blog, eat another meal at 7pm. OH I made parmesan crusted chicken last night and it was dank as shit. My mom loved it. Too bad I’m cutting cheese out of my diet so probably won’t eat that again…. MAYBE.. That and PB (except PB2). Not excited but theres too much shit in it. I’m gonna take it easy tonight. Just like I do every weekend haha.

 

 

Goodnight ❤

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