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@ Home Work Out!

Today was boring. Shoot.. there goes my whole point of trying to make this blog more interesting…

The man came over last night and brought me beef jerky. Remember how I said I was way off my macros for the day? 😉 We ended up just chilling for a bit while I peeled his back. LOL. He got super burnt when we went to Wisco and ended up peeling pretty bad. The weirdo that I am had fun for a few minutes. Afterwards we watched t.v and not too long after the boy got hungry. I really don’t have food to feed him because all I eat is like.. cottage cheese and shit so… that was a no go. He kept taunting me with Taco bell ( I have a weird obsession) but when I feel like I am doing really good in the gym, I don’t like back tracking by eating shitty. Well.. that is till I start eating then its like cloud 9 type shit. But regardless, I kept saying no. More so because I am one lazy maddafaker and didn’t want to get out of bed. Sooner or later I ended up feeling bad. Who wants to feel hungry? So I told him I would go but I wasn’t getting anything. We ended up going to Wendys and I got a diet coke and a baked potato with cheese and bacon. Lmao. Well.. if I was short 100g of carbs, I wasn’t any more.. No big deal. I didn’t feel bad nor guilty so it is what it is. We went to bed shortly after.

Smiling because I am a weirdo taking a picture of his peeling skin..

Smiling because I am a weirdo taking a picture of his peeling skin..

You know it looks good :P

You know it looks good 😛

10:30am Woke up.
11:30am Got out of bed and ate a cup of grape nuts (again, weirdly addicted).
12:15pm Started getting ready for work. Took Marley for a walk and made a green smoothie.
This recipe (more so ingredients) is one of my favorites. All I put was a crap ton of spinach, water, 4 strawberries, a 1/2 of a lemon and blended. I think it’s because it has a sour kick to it that I just love.

1:15-2:15pm Got to work and trained a client. We did lower body and I had her do some jump squats as active rests (we only have a 30 min session), but she had to stop because she was getting dizzy. She had eaten before so that wasnt it. I didn’t think much of it (it’s a ballistic movement. anyone could get dizzy over those), but as we sat down to do some core she started talking about how she gets winded easily especially when her heart rate is elevated. I need to do some research and see what common factors could be the result of this.

2:30pm I had an hour before my next apt, which I thought was a lot longer. I planned to work out but for some reason I mistaken my schedule. No big deal. This week I am taking it easy. Adjusting to being overwhelmed and getting my head straight to really start giving it my all. I want to follow my macros that were given to me and see how it may change my body. I am just interested. Progress is always a fun thing to keep track of. All I know is that I have been 150lbs for a while now (I could care less really.. just wish I was a little leaner. 17% body fat is NOT for me), but I AM getting stronger* (I’ll explain this asterisk in another post).

So for my break I ended up walking to GNC. No, correction, I LUNGED to GNC. lmao. I am not kidding. No, not the entire way but I did over 100 lunges. In front of everyone, store fronts, traffic. I don’t care. I picked up some quest bars (GOOGLE THESE IF YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THEY ARE. SIMPLY PUT, THEY ARE AMAZING). I am super excited to try their raspberry white chocolate that just came out, but went with my go to’s, brownie apple pie and 1 PB&J.

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3:30pm I trained another client.
4-5:30pm I thought I had off so I went in my car to take a power nap. Little did I know that people get emails for their appointments so me not taking someone out of my schedule, they thought they had a session. I get a call from my boss and asked if I was in the gym. I came back in at 4:30 and trained her. She wasn’t mad or anything. She was confused though but so was I. We talked about skipping this weeks session. But no big deal. I trained her and sat back down to realize I had yet another cancellation at 5:30. So I just waited around.

6-7pm I had 2 more clients, followed by 2 more cancellations. Instead of working out (it’s a cluster fuck at this time), I just packed my stuff up and headed to the grocery store.

I picked up some fruit: bananas (post work out), strawberries and lemons (for green smoothie like mentioned above), and watermelon. I also picked up spinach, kale, greek yogurt, cottage cheese and some chicken. Just my basics I guess..

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Afterwards I came home around 8:30 while my mom was making a pizza. It was one of my new favorites (something weird with goat cheese and if you know anything about me you should know that’s weird as hell that I would be eating something that had some weird cheese on it. But, it was amazing). I had a slice (feel guilty? nah, I only had 50g of carbs today ;P), then went up to my room for a mini work out.
I am not really a fan of working out at home. Don’t ask me why because I wouldn’t be able to tell you. I just like the gym atmosphere. However, I really wanted to do upper body since I have been neglecting my shoulders lately.

Picture taken today.

Picture taken today.

So, I came up with this:

8 rounds-

8 push ups
8 (each arm) shoulder presses (25lb)
8 kettle bell swings (25lbs)
8 lateral raises (10lbs)
8 burpees
8 bw squats (squeezing ass at the top)

I don’t know why I did 8. I really had no idea what I was even going to do.. but this here took me 46 minutes. Can you believe that? I stopped a few times but no more than a minute tops.

Total calorie burn: 343

Going to grab something to eat before I head to bed. It’s already 11pm and I just want to crash.

ZZZZZZZZ

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My Burden is Easing.

She won’t make a sound
Alone in this fight with herself and the fears whispering if she stands she’ll fall down
She wants to be found
The only way out is through everything she’s running from wants to give up and lie down.
So stand in the rain
Stand your ground

This is my brand new day starting now
I let go the things that weigh me down
And rob me of the beauty that’s to be found
And life all around
And this is my prayer without ceasing, the negative releasing
And as I rise above, my burden is easing

I am almost ready to get back in the gym again. I am stocking up on all my lovely products (Quest Bar, Myofusion, and Dymatize Protein Powders..Still have to get Nuts n’ more and PB2). It is super nice not worrying about morning cardio or your meals every 2 or 3 hours on the hour.. (yes I will continue to eating hourly but these last few days Ive just focused on when I am hungry.. which hasn’t been often because I feel like I am permanently bloated from the last few days of cheats haha)..
  1. Progress Pictures WILL be up shortly.. I just wanted to find a cool way of doing it but that was a fail and now I am just using an excuse to validate my procrastination.
  2. Recipes/ Workouts/ Food Log will be posted like prior format Monday (21st).
  3. I want my pinterest account shown on my homepage.. possible?
How do I feel? I feel fat. I have eaten whatever I wanted for the last 3 and 1/2 days and I just feel it weighing me down. I have taken this week and actually have been really enjoying myself. I have 3 months till my birthday and I want to look PROUD. Yes, proud. It took 3 months for me to get where I am now and I just know that the next 3 months in the gym are going to be SICK.. haha.. I don’t think you understand how excited I am for life to be in the happy lane.. .lol. I am a dork (I actually hate this word.. and I seem to get called it a lot….. not to mention a dork is a whale’s penis but its like so.. innocent.. not innocent but geeky? lol).. whatever.. but in all honestly I am ready to live life happy is all I meant by that weird ass sentence..
But yes this week I have been super relaxed and completely stress free. Yes I still obsess about the fact that I now “jiggle” lmfao.. but I am embracing it. Everyone knows what I’ve been through and have been SUPER cool about everything and by everything I mean about me binging.. IN PUBLIC!! hahahahaha no joke. This is super unhealthy by the way, but I was literally forcing food in me. Not even just unhealthy but rather disgusting lol. But its been fun (and super uncomfortable). I have been to some really cool places and have had a smile on my face since this past weekend. It’s lovely 🙂
BUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT all this food and every last minute of the sugar high and prego bloat is NOT worth looking in the mirror and LOVING what you see when you stand there naked. No joke. It may or may not mean a lot to you guys, and that’s most likely because you have never actually been completely satisfied, but it changes things. (Not to forget that busting ass in the gym is rewarding yes, but most of the time it SUCKS and it’s PAINFUL and it takes what seems like a really fucking LONG TIME to show sings of progress!!!) The confidence and security you gain is magical. I have been fighting for YEARS, and I can’t say I won or found some cure but I found happiness. There are still so many aspects of my life I want to change but loving myself was first.
&& Thank you everyone for the sweet sweettttt comments.  I get super cheesy and emotional ALL the time, but I’ll say it again.. I appreciate everyone who takes their time to read what I blatantly don’t proofread or filter out and still find a positive message within.. and comment with a compliment. I smile so much when I see my email filled with people who found some sort of peace when reading my rants. I really do want to extend my hand and offer anyone help in anyway that I possibly can.. please feel free to email me at anytime:

eyesquat@gmail.com

We’ll all get there one day. Faith my friends.
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Day 75-77 Time is running out…

Friday

6am wake up
730am had to take bosses kids to school
9am work
6pm left work
7pm got home
8pm got to the gym
930pm left the gym
11pm passed the fuck out.

Friday was just whatever. Had kind of a crappy shoulder work out because I could barely keep my eyes open.. but….. I did finish 60 minutes on the stair master. The lady next to me had to look over a few times… I was like closing my eyes and trying to sleep while stepping lol. Anywho I got through it 🙂

The Food Log

Food consisted of 3 chicken breasts, 4 rice cakes, about 6oz of lean ground turkey and a shake. I love simple food. It does NOT take much to please me any more lol. I mean check these pictures out.. Rice cakes with Lean ground Turkey salted with Parmesan cheese. No joke. De fucking licious. I don’t know what got into to me.. THEN the Walden Farms No Calorie Caramel topping on top of a rice cake with cinnamon…. fucking amazing. Maybe its the new weed.. lmfao. Btw.. pot smoking is mind over matter. I posted a picture yesterday because of 420 (got taken down today and now I’m blocked on Facebook for a bit lol) had a lot of reactions. I had people text me and say don’t smoke and I obviously ask why.. and they say because its counter productive.. (again I ask how) and he’s like because you eat like shit, get cravings, blahblahblah FUCK THAT.. no you don’t.. I haven’t had a cheat in HOW long? Validate your shitting eating habits some other way (and yes I have used being high as a reason as to why Ive binged, and Ive been honest about that.. but all said and done its mind over matter) because it’s so overrated. Or maybe I can’t be part of the study, because I am hungry all the time lol… but seriously…. (on a lighter note 2 weeks outs, I have to quit.. so thats in a few days lol)..

The Workout

Shitty Back workout, but a solid 60 Minutes on the stair master.

Day 75 in Pictures..

  1. Hanging out with Tess and Cody 🙂
  2. Lunch.. oh how I am going to miss my condiments..
  3. My lovely mess.. I know its dark sorry… but I burnt 3 rice cakes..
  4. Stairmaster COMPLETE! 60 min BOO FUCK YEAH! ha
  5. Lean Ground Turkey YUMMMMM!

SATURDAY  (:

Woke up early as fuck, 7am. Thought I slept in lol but laid in bed till 745am, at the gym by 830am.

The Food Log

10am Protein Shake (Dymatize, 1 1/2 TBS PB2, Ice, Water) 2 Salt Free Rice Cake w/ Walden Farm’s No calorie topping.

1pm Rice Cakes w Lean Ground Turkey SO FUCKING GOOD (I put a DABBLE of light sour cream and parmesan) w/ a  SMALL piece of dark chocolate.

430pm Protein Pancake (Muscle Egg and PB2)
630pm 2 Rice Cakes withLean Ground Turkey.

from then till 855pm I’ve eaten 2 squares of dark chocolate and 10 regular white chocolate chips (IDK) and then my mother came into  my room with a shit ton of mail and two packages and my hers muscle and fitness magazine (yay).. The swim suit came in, as well as my quest bars. I’ve already eaten 1/2 of the chocolate brownie one (so about 100 calories, 2.5 carbs)..

No this isn’t bad.. I didn’t want to cheat at all.. but I was totally bored, and my period pains were horrendous.. so in total about an extra 500 calories today.. (leg day but still).. actually this could be a meal but my mother is at the store getting meat for burgers and steak… so.. i overloaded on my protein today.. whoops. any who.. thinking about doing an extra 15 min tomorrow morning and then 15 at night.. 🙂 no big deal

**Didn’t end up eating another meal, so that chocolate and that quest bar is now considered a meal and I would say I over ate by 200 calories. Will make up.

The Workout

830am 45 Min Cardio (Incline 10-16)
5pm Had to start with lunges because everything I wanted to do people were all cluster fucked by.. so

Lunges

60lbs (30 lb DB each) x 20 x 5
This time I timed it (I rounded up) but it took 9.50 seconds to complete 100 lunges. Mind you I had 5 (.15 sec) breaks and 5 (.30) breaks = to about 4.45 in breaks – 10.00 (rounded) = 5.15 to complete 100 (60lb) Lunges!!! :):):):)

I then needed a little break before I did any thing to plyo-y lol..

Ab/adduction

115lbs x 25 x 4

Plyo

20 Bench Jumps (NOT box jumps) w/

10 Jump Squats
x 4

Planks

One legged Lunge (other leg on elevated surface, core tight)

25lbs x 6 x 2 supersetted w/
12 Jump Lunges x 2

Leg Ext

95lbs-125lbs to failure.

No Cardio- legs are shot.

Day 76 in Pictures..

Today was whatever.. I didn’t do shit so I overate. Mostly because I was so tired, but it was all protein. that and fat (cashews and almonds I threw away lol). Just watch how much weight I lose when I take out my fat intake.. oh brother haha.. My suit came in like mentioned earlier.. I like it.. the bottom is too small to use as a regular suit but for competition its perfect.. I’ll show a picture soon 🙂

Not to fucking forget but MY QUEST BARS CAME IN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And to think the Larabar had my heart. They are good. Already ordering more and I advised to my mother that we should keep these bars in the house at all times….. These the Larabars and possibly the Pure Protein bars (they are also low in sugars ext, but not as natural as these two bars. These would be for everyone who wanted to snack in my household, because the food we have here now would make you sad).. But yes.. definitely going to rave about these bars.

Sunday (Funday)

Not really gonna be too much fun today lol. Woke up early as balls again. I think my internal clock is not set for 645am, where as before it was a solid 830am. Meh. Sure as fuck better not be a weekend thing. But I got up at got to the gym at 7:11am only to realize they aren’t open till 8am. Not a happy camper because I’m cold and Im not still in bed. Anywho went back and finished a little bit later. I have a 2 hour exam due today, and I need to finish grocery shopping and prepping for the week and read over Chapter 8 before bed. So nothing TOO exciting just a nice little sunday.

The Food Log

915am Protein Shake (Dymatize, Pb2) and 1 Salt Free Rice Cake
1pm Quest Bar (OMG LOVE)
4pm BBQ with the madre, pics are DELISH!
730pm 1 cup egg whites
10pm 6oz Filet Mignon lol

The Workout

815am 45 Minutes of Cardio

5pm Bi’s and Tri’s

BB Bicep Curl/ DB Bicep Curl 

supersetted with BW Bench Dips

Cable Bicep Curls with (higher/lower)

Tricep Pushdown 60-90lbs

35 Minutes of Cardio (Incline 12)

Day 77 in Pictures..

  1. New tanning lotion – tingle!!
  2. Asparagus on sale again.. don’t mind if I do
  3. Some of the food on the grill
  4. FOOOOODDDDD ❤
  5. Food all laid out.
  6. What I ate 🙂

 So today started with me in the parking lot of LA Fitness at 7:11am not realizing they don’t open till 8. Who the fuck opens a gym at 8 on the weekends.. lol.. Well whatever, just drove home blogged a bit then went back like a douche. Then on my way back the second time I think it was 5:15pm or something like that and I thought they closed at 6… lmfao.. but they didn’t, it was 8pm so that was good. I would of been even more pissed had that situation turned out not in my favor.. meh.. any who.. Had to take a 2 hour exam today too for Sports Nutrition class, but it ended up not working.. I had to go back and forth with my teacher and didn’t finish it till 4pm.. I originally wanted to take it at 10am…. so a little infuriating but no big deal 🙂 Ended up BBQ’ing with the madre. We have so much food you would think we were serving a 6 course meal for 4. But it was just my meal prep for the week, and so she doesn’t binge on a bag of nutrition less pretzels. Blahblahblah saw a movie, cabin in the woods.. Don’t even know what to say lmfao. Did NOT expect any of that shit. Got home at 930pm, in bed by 10 🙂 How’s that for ya? Excited eh.

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