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Well.. screw that thought. How about 30 days of clean eating?

Figured if I was watching Breaking Bad I could get this post started before I procrastinate it till tomorrow, than sleep in too late and wouldn’t get it done in the end. So.. in between air squats and BB, here’s today’s post.

This week was a fucking fail.

Okay, fine. Not a failure. Just another reason to try again, or do it differently. So, okay.

I got a few girls together to do 30 days all clean eating. It got brought up when we saw a picture of The Rock. Heres the picture actually. He did 150 days clean eating and had THEE most epic cheat meal (…if you could/would call it that).

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So, I figured not only would I be held accountable but a few other people attempting to achieve the same thing would give me a reason to challenge myself, as they would be. I think it would be a good start. Because, frankly I’m in a freakin rut. I could go on about shit but when it comes down to it, I’m not working hard enough and my body hurts. More importantly, my wrist. So its been a back and forth thing but being a personal trainer I need to be okay. Regardless of my training, its my job. So I think I am going to focus on my eating and cardio. Not just the treadmill, but stuff that will still challenge me. Plyometrics, with out the use of my wrist. I just need to start putting more effort into whatever it is that will make me feel complete? I dont know if that’s the word but I keep holding myself back from going forward. Though, I havent been complaining about it as much. Usually, I would bitch about something but feel like an idiot because it the end it was my fault that it was what it was. Now, I am trying to make the best out of the situation I am in. Still, emotionally eating and mostly likely by definition, depressed.

I am just stuck. In my own ass.

This road trip has been quite the experience. Taking the road to ripped detour.

Oh man.

This week I worked out probably like 3-4 times. Nothing crazy. I hurt my wrist, and my right shoulder-blade is achy. I ate like a motherf—— cow and I dont know how I feel about it. Some of it was because I like the instant gratification (because nothing else is going right). Other was enjoying the food I was eating. Some was because, why not? Starting on Monday. Validation, excuses, not giving a fuck, routine, I don’t know. All of the above?

And as I feel I look like shit. Definition (because of being a lesser body fat) is slowly going away and so has my excitement for working out. AHHHHHHHH. I sit here though.. and right before I started writing, I felt my body. For once. I don’t even like my boyfriend doing it (I MEAN COME ON! If you’re bloated…the first thing that should not be touched is the mid section! OKAYYYYY??!! So what if Im bloated all the time).

But I did it. And although I am probably at my highest weight (don’t care per say), if I had someone run their hand up and down my leg (…weird), they would think I am crazy. My stomach isnt even that bad and if I flexed, I still had the top two “abs”. I think I have THEE worst body dysmorphic disorder, ever. I mean I knew I was a little fucked up, but I think shits getting worse.

I am mentally breaking myself down.

Alright, brb- #goodbyebreakingbad

{ Haha.. I actually liked what they did. They had a marathon of every single breaking bad. Now.. a week ago you told me the finale of breaking bad was tonight I wouldn’t of even blinked an eye.. and now.. after watching at least 10 episodes (still missed a bunch), I am super excited for this. }

Back to something important… I realized that this week I need to focus on being consistent. Here I am, a personal trainer, telling/coaching people what they should be doing ext and I can’t even do the same? So, who am I? If I can’t find motivation to do it, why should they? It is tough and it is more mentally demanding then the actual working out part of it is. But through all these years of trial and error, I am still at loss in regards to me feeling balanced. So I sit here and write… these words and the answer feels so simple, in such plain sight that I overwhelm myself. But I am here to do it. Whether I feel pushed down, out of hope, run down, or at a risk for failure, no matter what, I have yet to give up.

So, this is it. If I cannot prove to myself that I can do it, at LEAST for 30 days.. I need to reevaluate what I am doing with my life (personal training). I need to get out of this fucking mess I put myself in. I need to focus. I need to focus on being consistent and not some lazy fucking person.

Yeah, that’s it.

Well, this is it. 30 days, no cheat meal.

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I want to feel like I can FUCKING DO IT! Like, REALLY do it… As I was creeping fitness pages online, I came up with this and needed to save it:
“Once upon a time I started working hard to get the results I wanted. But I still fuck it up lots”. – Hardcore J

That’s my life in a nutshell.


DAY 1/30 went a little like this..

3:25: 15 min cardio done. Got here 30 min early so why not. Checked my apts and working with 1 (30 min) break till 1030.

My arm is hurting more as the day goes by. Going to check with H to see if he knows anything off the top of his head. Otherwise I’m going to just ice it and lay off upper body for a bit. It’ll give me time to focus on my diet and doing cardio (about damn time eh)

5:30: have yet to have a break. Thought I would at 4:30 but no. Hungry as fuck.

Snuck in some chicken in between clients and even during :O how unprofessional.

10:15pm: finally home. Another chicken breast down. No other cardio done. Ate well under 1000 calories. Fail. Super fail.

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Day 7 R2R Recap

Lazy Day Sunday ❤

Ew I’m so weird today. I was up for quite a while last night randomly.. Everything is so thrown off.

12:41pm I started my morning with ANOTHER green smoothie. It was actually the same ingredients as yesterday. I switched my moms up though (LOL yes she actually asked me to make one for her, so I just made two). They are super good just since I don’t have my vitamix yet I have to make one at a time, slowly. I add a lot of spinach and kale so it clogs the blade lol.. oh jeez. Anyways I also had some kasha wheaties and I’ve been full ever since. I let myself have carbs this weekend too to kinda ease going into this week. I feel a little bloated but it is what it is.

I should be doing my homework but I feel like shit. I’m waiting to go to the grocery store. I want to make stuffed peppers, kale chips, and the blondies today. Possibly the turkey meatballs, that or Ill try a meat loaf. I will also kind of recap all the information we learned.

Haven’t worked out at all actually this weekend. I am actually in a funk. I don’t know but it will all be better tomorrow when I kill it at the gym. I honestly get such a rush lifting legs =D Other then that I’m taking Tuesday Off (from work). and I have class on Wednesday :/ So my only obstacles.

4:59pm Alright so.. I am finally finished with all the shopping that needed to be done. I went to Kohls to return an item (SAVE YOUR RECEIPTS! I lost money here and at the pet store for Marley, all because I didn’t have my receipt ) and I found the sexiest pair of nude heels. I have been looking for nude high heels forever.. and now that I realized spending $55 on a pair of heels I could of probably found a designed pair on sale for that price lol not buying them from Kohls.  However here is a pic of my favorite finds today:


Any who completely forgot my peppers to make stuffed peppers for dinner, so I’ll just make the meatloaf and kale chips. Spent quite a bit of $$ today 😦 lol ol well.. got marley a new toy and pit bull calendar. I also got stuff for my bathroom =D

So that was my day.. nothing to excited for fun filled. My eating has been kinda whatever because I feel bloated. I think Im going to try drinking some tea and take an antacid. Here is what we discussed throughout the week:

Road to Ripped Recap

  • We discussed that any kind of healthy weight loss takes time. But YOU can do this.
  • Eat every 2 1/2 to 3 hours.
  • Cut out ALL processed foods (take this day by day)
  • Always try to have a protein at every meal
  • Drink tons of water.
  • Journal your thoughts and feelings throughout this process.
  • “Picture” your progress (don’t always weigh yourself, the scale lies).
  • Try plyometrics or the stair master instead of running.
  • Make realistic goals
  • Have a workout or weight loss partner.
  • No sodas (diet ok)
  • Careful with your condiments (a little is ok. Portion control people!)

Grocery List.. LISTEN UP.


  • Boneless, Skinless Chicken Breast
  • Tuna (water packed), or White Meat Chicken (water packed)
  • Fish (tilapia, cod, halibut, and on occasion salmon and sea bass)
  • Shrimp
  • Extra Lean Ground Beef or Ground Round (92-96%)
  • Buffalo steak (lean)
  • Protein Powder (lactose free)
  • Egg Whites or Eggs
  • Rib eye Steaks or Roast
  • Top Round Steaks or Roast (aka Stew Meat, London Broil, Stir Fry)
  • Top Sirloin (aka Sirloin Top Butt)
  • Beef Tenderloin (aka Filet, Filet Mignon)
  • Top Loin (NY Strip Steak)
  • Flank Steak (Sir Fry, Fajita)
  • Eye of Round (Cube Meat, Stew Meat, Bottom Round , 96% Lean Ground Round)
  • Extra Lean Ground turkey, Turkey Breast Slices or cutlets (fresh meat, not deli cuts)

Complex Carbs

  • Oatmeal (Old Fashioned or Quick Oats)
  • Sweet Potatoes (Yams)
  • Beans (pinto, black, kidney)
  • Oat Bran Cereal (watch sugar, less than 6 grams)
  • Brown Rice
  • Ezekiel Bread (frozen healthy section of Kroger’s or Whole Foods)
  • Farina (Cream of Wheat from box)
  • Multigrain Hot Cereal
  • Pasta (Whole Wheat, Ezekiel brand – watch serving, very dense)
  • Rice (jasmine, basmati, Arborio, wild, brown)
  • Potatoes (red, baking, new)
  • Kashi Low Sugar Cereals (less than 6 grams of sugar)
  • Whole Wheat Pita (Low Carb Variety – Joseph’s Pita Bread, or Food for Life brand)
  • Carbdown Flatbread (Wal-Mart)
  • Corn Tortillas (Food for Life Brand is best, microwave to make crispy)
  • Whole Wheat Tortillas (Food for Life brand)
  • Rice Cakes (lightly salted only)

Fibrous Carbs & Vegetables (Fresh first, frozen second, canned last choice)

  • Green Leafy Lettuce (Green Leaf, Red, Leaf, Romaine)/Bagged Salad
  • Broccoli
  • Asparagus
  • String Beans
  • Black Beans
  • Spinach
  • Bell Peppers
  • Brussels Sprouts
  • Cauliflower
  • Celery
  • Mushrooms
  • Pickles
  • Cabbage
  • Sprouts
  • Cucumber
  • Green or Red Pepper
  • Onions
  • Garlic
  • Tomatoes
  • Zucchini
  • Squash
  • Spaghetti Squash (my fav)
  • Pumpkin


  • Berries (blueberries and raspberries)
  • Lemons or Limes
  • Melons (not watermelon)
  • Grapefruit
  • Apples
  • Dates
  • Grapes
  • Oranges
  • Eat bananas, strawberries, peaches or plums sparingly (lots of natural sugar)
  • No dried fruits, including raisins (loaded with sugar)

Healthy Fats

  • Natural Style or Organic Peanut Butter, even better, Peanut Wonder (Whole Foods Market)
  • Olive Oil or Safflower Oil
  • Nuts (peanuts, almonds)
  • Flaxseed Oil
  • Avocado

Dairy & Eggs

  • Low-fat or fat-free cottage cheese
  • Eggs
  • Low or Non-Fat Milk (eat dairy only occasionally)
  • Non-fat yogurt (look for low sugar only)
  • Fat-free String Cheese
  • Fat-free Cream Cheese


  • Bottled Water
  • Iced Tea (decaf)
  • Coffee (decaf)
  • Diet Soda
  • Crystal Light or Wal-Mart Brand Sugar-Free Drink Mixes

Condiments & Misc.

  • Fat-free Mayonnaise (on occasion)
  • Ketchup (Heinz One Carb brand only)
  • Reduced Sodium Soy Sauce
  • Reduced Sodium Teriyaki Sauce
  • Balsamic Vinegar
  • Balsamic or Raspberry Vinaigrette (Farm Grove)
  • Salsa or Fresh Pico De Gallo
  • Splenda
  • Steak Sauce
  • Sugar-free or low-carb Ketchup
  • Sugar Free Maple Syrup
  • Sugar Free Jelly (Polaner or Smuckers)
  • Chili Paste
  • Tomato Paste (low sugar)
  • Mustard (yellow or Dijon)
  • Extracts (vanilla, almond, etc)
  • Low Sodium fat-free beef or fat-free chicken broth
  • Plain or reduced sodium tomatoes sauce, puree, paste (look for low sugar)
  • Worcestershire Sauce
  • Fat-free cooking spray
  • Sugar-free applesauce for baking

Herbs & Spices

  • Chili powder
  • Mrs. Dash (all varieties)
  • McCormick’s (all varieties)
  • Butter Buds
  • Cinnamon
  • Allspice
  • Basil
  • Bay leaf
  • Onion Powder
  • Garlic Powder
  • Dill
  • Ginger
  • Sage
  • Rosemary
  • Paprika
  • Thyme
  • Oregano
  • Curry Powder
  • Red Pepper
  • Marjoram
  • Tarragon
  • Dry Mustard
  • Cumin
  • Saffron
  • Nutmeg
  • Pumpkin Pie Spice
  • Black Pepper

Other Items to Purchase

  • Fat-free Cool Whip
  • Tofutti fudge pops (my fav)
  • Sugar-free Jell-O
  • Sugar-free Popsicles (Philly Swirl are awesome)
  • DaVinci Gourmet Sugar-free Syrups (www.davincigourmet.com – my best kept secret!) Add to oatmeal for breakfast or to make a variety of different muffins, cookies or pancakes.
  • Tacori Sugar-free Syrups (World Market)


Mock food plan:

Follow the portion control at the bottom too. Just as a little reminder.




Just another thought! If you want head to GNC to purchase CAESIN to have at the end of the day instead of a whole meal. It will protect your muscles and you won’t feel so empty in the A.M (the painful emptiness  though ):

My Supplements:

Proteins (Any part of the day):

  • Myofusion (My #1)
  • Nectar
  • About Time

Pre workouts:

  • NINJA (My #1)
  • 1MR

Multi Vitamin (X Sport Brand)

Glutamine (: Aids in recover. X Sport Brand)


  • Flaxseed (Local grocery store)
  • Fiber (Local grocery story)


The recipes I posted were Jamie Eason’s Turkey Meatloaf, Chocolate Covered Katie’s chickpea Blondie’s and All Recipes kale chips. Which are posted down below for your convenience.

There she is..

Turkey Meatloaf Muffins
Calories: 80
Fats: 2 grams
Carbs: 4 grams
Protein: 11 grams

* 2 lbs ground turkey (or chicken)
* 3 egg whites
* 1 cup quick cooking oats
* 1/2 tsp ground cumin
* 1/2 tsp dried thyme
* 2 tsp dry yellow mustard
* 2 tsp black pepper
* 2 tsp chipotle pepper spice
* 1 tsp salt
* 2 tbsp garlic powder (2 cloves minced)
* 1 small onion (finely chopped)
* 2 celery stalks (finely chopped)

1. Preheat oven to 375 degrees.
2. Spray muffin pan with canola or olive oil.
3. Mix all your ingredients together in one large bowl.
4. Roll the mixture into balls and place in muffin pan. Muffins should be about the size of a racquetball.
5. Bake for 40 minutes.

Makes 12 muffins.

Serving Size:
Women: 2 muffins
Men: 4 muffins


Genius Blondies

(makes 15-20 squares)

  • 1 1/2 cups chickpeas (1 can, drained and rinsed) (250g)
  • 3/4 tsp baking powder
  • 1/8 tsp baking soda
  • heaping 1/8 tsp salt
  • 3/4 cup brown sugar*
  • 1-2 tsp vanilla extract
  • 1/4 cup ground flax (20g) (see nutrition-info link below, for substitution ideas)
  • 1/4 cup peanut butter (or other fat source) (see nutrition-info link below, for lower-cal options)
  • optional: 1/3 cup chocolate chips (Not “optional” if you’re CCK!)

Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Blend all ingredients (except chips) until very smooth. Mix in chips, and scoop into a greased (or tinfoil-lined) 8×8 pan. Bake for 38-40 minutes. You want the blondies to look a little undercooked when you take them out, because they’ll firm up as they cool, and you don’t want them to get hard. (Note: you can probably sub any white bean for the chickpeas).

They look fantastic. I will DEF do these in the next few days.. The kale chips you can find are everywhere. I think I want to add Parmesan the next batch (;

Kale Chips:


  • 1 bunch kale
  • 1 tablespoon olive oil
  • 1 teaspoon seasoned salt


  1. Preheat an oven to 350 degrees F (175 degrees C). Line a non insulated cookie sheet with parchment paper.
  2. With a knife or kitchen shears carefully remove the leaves from the thick stems and tear into bite size pieces. Wash and thoroughly dry kale with a salad spinner. Drizzle kale with olive oil and sprinkle with seasoning salt.
  3. Bake until the edges brown but are not burnt, 10 to 15 minutes.

9:39am. OMG.. sorry this wasn’t posted last night.. I FUCKED UP MY DIET. Will discuss next post. Enjoy this one.. Will add more so keep checking for updates. This was just a short recap.

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About my Road to Ripped.

Road To Ripped…again.

This is my journey to getting back on stage to compete in another NPC Bikini Competition. This is day to day what I go through, what I eat, how I feel, EVERYTHING. I get ALOT of questions on my facebook: Maristheshit@facebook.com <– (If you wish to follow there as well), regarding training and most importantly DIET! So I figured this would be a great way to track my progress and hopefully help others out without repeating myself 50 million times.

My Blog will cover:

  • Day to day “diet” and training schedule
  • Do’s and Dont’s
  • Progress Pictures
  • Motivation

I started in the health industry at a young age. I ended up getting a personal trainer at the gym I was working at and really started seeing a change. I got really into it and was pulled aside by the fitness manager and was asked if interested in PT.. well yeah, so I was thrown on the floor probably a week later after completing a mandatory 5 days of fitness ( I was certified probably 8 months later.. I failed the first test.. lol) but I had a full schedule within 2 weeks. My first client Brenda, she was a riot.. pretty serious training though. I trained a kid (well actually Idk if i can say his name I think he’s still underaged lol) but he was probably 6’5 and uncoordinated. I also trained a 87 yr old man that had to relearn sitting in a chair again.. I haven’t seen it all, but I’ve seen a lot and it’s all very interesting to say the least.

I am currently in school to finish a bachelors degree in clinical psychology and nutrition, yes I have dealt with, am still dealing with just not still struggling with eating disorders. Hopefully by the time I’ve finished my degree I can use it to understand the reasons behind it. So nutrition and looking good = feeling good, is something I will portray in this blog.

So, I have a couple more days till I am o f f i c i a l l y 12 weeks till I step back on stage. For everyone that doesn’t know, this is the second show I attempted but the first show I completed. I backed out 2 weeks prior to my first show because I lacked confidence. My philosophy was why walk on a stage lacking something that should be the real reason you’re on stage in the first place? I took a spill gained some weight, then lost it for my first show that was a year later. I got 6 out of 20 something girls (online it says I took 5th) but regardless I accomplished something. The whole experience was just that, an experience. I learned and met so many people that it would change my life. Going into something like this is NOT something most people expect. It’s more mentally challenging then one would imagine, and takes mental strength on top of physical strength to continue day to day. You try to stay SANE. I literally dreamt of food, had food porn saved on my phone. It got pretty bad when the restriction on food got worse. Maybe its because I have a background of eating disorders but I hear that MOST people go thru this. I don’t know how serious or severe the binges or the “depression” get, but everyone needs to understand that this isn’t a walk in the park. It takes a strong soul to dismiss cravings and curve temptation else where. Stay busy, stay active, write feelings and emotions down. It’s okay, it’s hard, but it’s okay. Not everyone can compete and walk on stage. I mean shit most people can’t put down a cheeseburger never mind actually GIVING up processed foods.  So follow me to get in shape and live a healthier lifestyle.

I found this on a blog earlier today:

“If you don’t drink alcohol, you won’t crave alcohol. If you don’t do drugs, you won’t crave drugs. If you don’t eat unhealthy food, you won’t crave unhealthy food”.

Philippians 4:13 (ESV): I can do all things through him who strengthens me.

Top Picture is NPC Competition. Bottom Left is the night before. Bottom Right is the day after.

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