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Day 28 Big girls don’t cry…anymore.

So the post is pending, I think I fucked something up. Whatever you do, don’t fool around with the publish button. This was before it decided to publish on its own, but then not publish when I want it too.. whatever.

It is 9:22am And I should be getting ready for church but guess were not going. I COULD go by myself.. and maybe I should have, but it was only my second time and I practically backed out of prayer group even with my mom sistting there. Idk . So here is my nasty breakfast (when I SHOULD of made real food, not a liquid one)….

Banana PB icecream on left (which is always good) and my nasty ass protein shake on the right.
It is whole foods brand, mixed with superblend and coconut milk and 4-5 ice cubes. and it literally tasted like ass.

I waited a little bit (more web surfing facefucking) probably smoked some more pot. finished my taxes though…
and then headed to the gym at around 130pm.. Did a little arm work out! <ENTER SARCASM HERE. AND EVERYWHERE ELSE FOR THAT MATTER> you know my FAVE!!

I needed a little matter before my mind 😉
DEF needed a “pre workout” or some sort to even want to think about doing arms..
It wasn’t so bad though. I have been feeling stronger and it makes the work out that much better.

Started with

Standing DB curls 25 lbs 12 reps super setted with standing BB 40lbs curls 10 reps 4 x thru.

Assisted dips 8 reps ss with BW dips 10 reps 3 x thru

Tricep Pushdown 12 reps ss w Cable curls 25,30,35 lbs x 6-8 reps 3 x thru

I was just about to rant about “common sense” gym “rules” lol.. when I realized no one has common sense to begin with, why would I ever think they would have manners in a gym setting? People are ignorant, yes I have been myself, but I don’t just go up to a machine and take it. I ask around if it looks like someone might be there and if no one speaks up then I proceed. But WHAT THE F U C K ? !  not only did these 2 individuals not care, they took part of my machine down so they could do pointless AB exercises, (sorry still a firm believer in abs are made in the kitchen). I was like whatever and just kept going with the cable curls.

I ended with 8 pathetic bosu ball push ups 2 sets of pathetic triceps pushback 15lbs for 8 reps

and just decided to do my planks. So 5 minutes of F/S/S still only doing 30 seconds each.

Was everyone aware of my little decision to do this entire contest prep with ONLY DOING PLANKS! GOT THAT FOLKS?!??!?! So all my progress pics, and my befores and afters will have been only with the help of planks. Well see how I turn out.

That and I only wanted to do the stair master for this contest prep as well bc I was gay last year and did the treadmill (and lost my precious ass), but like today, though Im not doing cardio on the weekends yet I wanted to do some for the hell of it. Stair master was taken by 3 people holding on, so I decided to do 20 minutes of treadmill on an 10 or higher level at about 2.8 mph. Wasn’t bad either, I could feel how sore my butt cheeks are from those lunges though yesterday. lol

3pm Chicken corn 1/4c brown rice and broccoli and I ate some lite sour cream for after my workout. Fucking bomb.

Seriously I am addicted to corn (only on the weekends do I have it), but what the fuck is going on?
what is up with these corn cravings lol

So I came upstairs and decided to chill for a little bit, update this lovely blog of mine before I do a clean sweep of my room. Going to see project x tonight at around 930, should be good. HEard it was lol. oh AND MY FUCKING TAXES ALREADY CAME BACK RETURNED! UGHHHHHHHHHH!

Whatever that and I think my license is going to be suspended. not even joking. well see. staying positive.

I think I mentioned last night but this is the 60 second chocolate cake I made last night. HOLY SHIT. I AM IN L O V E! Def a great weekend “cheat”

Screenshot from Chocolate covered katie )

Sorry my pictures actually look like shit.. And def doesn’t do it justice.. But can you see how moist it is? And so fucking chocolately (and to think I could of added some cocoa nibs or even cc’s!) But this was fantastic. I literally went back up to bed with a huge smile on my face. It was that good. And it had 3 TBS WW flour and 3 tsp cane sugar, those 2 were the only bad ingredients and it wasn’t even that much. Anywho, hope you all try it.. you will not be disappointed.

and as you know well you don’t but its 4:41 pm

and all I have done is surf the web. and smoke pot.. but thats just cuz.. I was gonna be laying here anyways lol.. but better for you because I have some cool pictures. and some super motivation. BUT here is first shit I am going to buy as soon as my dad sends my $$$ for school ( I already paid for it so relax kids). Id say my income taxes too but that has to go to my savings.. I just randomly went on spending sprees. (no thanks for j stano’s blog lol)

These are from liftbigeatbig.com ❤

So super excited. The middle one will be a sweatshirt, in that purple. The purple looks so dope. And I would do the I know squat in a sweatshirt too but I don’t think they have them yet. Gosh do I know how I randomly found this site. :):)

So I ate at 3ish, so eat again at 6ish… but will be at movies at 9.. hmmm… maybe a quick protein shake at 9 or something.. I am going to go make steak and sweet potato fries. A way to kind of end my weekend cheats 🙂 I love sweet potato fries now.. mmmmmm I gotta start eating them raw though.. well cross that bridge when we come to it.. should be cleaning up here soon and then Ill head out.

and heres some lovely motivation :

 Like look at how sexy these ladies are. Why would you NOT want to feel good and look good? Everyone wants to look good but no one wants to do the work ( i think I should of quoted someone there). Yes it does take TIME and PATIENCE, but when you get the ball rolling you get more into it. You get excited, and it doesn’t become like a chore any more. You relearn eating habits that become your lifestyle. You feel good in every aspect of your life. You finally feel like you can breathe.

Don’t you want that? Don’t you want to live HAPPIER and HEALTHIER?????

You guys have no idea what you are doing to your bodies by NOT doing something (EXERCISE/ EAT RIGHT!!)

I don’t want to sound like a hypocrite or a  health maniac but maybe it’ll take someone close to you endure something as scary as a stroke, or learn they have diabetes, to understand how dangerous all the stuff we are consuming on a daily basis actually is!

Open your eyes people, that and put down the fucking mcdonalds garbage (except the cinnamelts eat those as much as you want).. jk lol.

or don’t. and do what you wanna do, because thats what you’ve always done. but told look for sympathy, expect an I told you so.

You guys need to be aware. Forget vanity, looking good is just an added bonus. NOT THE OTHER WAY AROUND!

Actually fuck it. The more I think about it. Do what you want. I smoked for 2 years because I wanted too, that and I actually enjoyed smoking the cigeratte FUCK LUNG CANCER! I was anorexic for 2 years because I wanted to be skinny.FUCK OSTEOPOROSIS! I then puked for a few years FUCK AMENORRHEA! hurting myself even more. Then I moved onto binge eating and doing considerable damage to my body. Then I shaped up and stopped being fucking stupid.

But honestly, that was my route. Do as you please. Inject your steroids. Smoke crack. The older you get your looks fade, the older you get your health fades. In the end were all fucked. So keep blacking out on the weekends and doing stupid shit. To each their own.

Thank God you’re reading my blog. 😉

655pm I’m talking to a kid i don’t want to talk too and a guy that broke my heart (and was “the reason” I went on the worst binge of my life) texted me for the first time in months… awkward.. **** ACTUALLY*** THis is the reason my title is the way it is. FUCK THESE GUYS WHO THINK THEY CAN MANIPULATE YOU!!. Low self esteem can be easily taken advantage of. I will stand strong in my relationships with people, and more importantly the relationship I have with food. fuck that shit. seriously. and to all the dumbasses that are with significant others and are unhappy WTFFFFFFF?!?!?!?!??! Actually fuck that.. thats a whole nother blog. Def not now. My eyelids are closing and I have to go watch a movie in an hour.

Not worth mentioning in detail any person mentioned above. lol

Just ate my steak and sweet potatoes will be posting a pic obviously lol because it looked sooo good.. finishing up, actually Ill just post it before I go to the movies.

Project X and Im getting a huge ass diet coke. UHHHHHHHHH can’t fucking wait. Ill miss not getting popcorn though. I do remember hiding chicken and tuna in my bag when I was doing my show last year lol.. That was always awkward. Tuna really doesn’t smell sometimes.

Ok okokok. SO i didn’t cook any of my food, except more steak. so tomorrow Im going to have to bring broccoli or starve all day. I will make the meatballs tomorrow. MAYBEEEEE make the pizookie when I get home (probably NOT), that or make it before leg day not Tuesday. Anywho.. Enjoy the rest of your weekend. I was a lazy ass as usual. Seriously I’m going to church with or without her next week.

and because Im doing back tomorrow ..

Goodnight ❤

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Day 19 Obesity: The New Smoking!

I need to start writing down my thoughts more often because either A. I’m hilarious or B. I actually have a valid point..

Which moves me onto reading my sticky note on my iphone… should I write it verbatim? lol..  k.

Do it matters how someone does ubealthy foods heat diesel but want to cure cancer

lol.

And that explains a conversation I had with a co worker. I was driving him somewhere and a commerical came on about sugary drinks. When they all ordered sugar and the dude was like wtf yo and theyre like I’m not gonna eat the sugar, I’m going to drink it.. lol. I personally love it and actually makes SENSE PEOPLE AND DON’T.. how should I say it? SUGARCOAT IT??

haha.. anywho.. he was “pissed” because that money should be going towards curing cancer (which I actually believe it has been cured, and I actually think the government is no bueno lol), but it didn’t get me thinking till later that night.

I always get stopped on my way home on route 83 and there is a Culvers (FLAVOR OF THE DAY OMG!), Papa Johns (JUST SO HAPPENS TO BE MY FAVE) and a Mcdonalds all on the same intersection. So while I was sitting in the precense of all these fast food places I asked myself a qeustion (I actually talk to myself alot), and it was along the lines of:

  • Why does it matter what kind of illness or disease a person dies from?
  • Why does cancer make heart diease, stoke, or diabetes any different?
  • Is it because people who die from obesity, MAKE themselves sick?

Obesity: ‘Like the new smoking’

Two-thirds of Americans are overweight or obese and, according to a growing body of evidence, at greater risk of getting, and dying of, cancer. ‘Obesity is almost like the new smoking,’ says one expert.

The more I ask myself these questions, the more I think I’m asking myself how the world all began. It’s almost hopeless. The people who want change will seek it, the people who want free will and a stubborn attitude can eat their lives away.. literally.

Regardless, just because people are taxing sugary drinks doesn’t mean they are disappearing.. WHICH THEY SHOULD!!!!  we want to bitch about fat people yet provide the stuff that is causing the problem.  We are trying to save lives by curing cancer and healing the sick, when WHERE WE LIVE IS A REASON WHY SOME PEOPLE ARE SICK IN THE FIRST PLACE! We are providing the processed foods, the tobacco ext. We are KNOWINGLY ALLOWING people to get sick. There is PROOF these fast foods do damage, that these cigarettes take years off your life, but we ignore this why?  We live in a world where there is a Mcdonalds on every damn corner, where it’s faster to get a meal “made” then it is to go pee in the morning. I mean COME ON!

If you want to bitch about something make sure somewhere down the road you won’t walk into a huge contradiction.

:/ Honestly to each their own. From here on out, If you want to live unhealthy and ruin the only thing that is pure in this world go ahead. Be what you hate in this world. It’s the american thing to do.

** HOLY SHIT!**

It’s ( 1:09am), Still haven’t published this blog, but I’m glad I didn’t. I just posted a status about what I was talking about (obesity vs smoking) and it got so many people heated..People really got weird when I compared smoking to eating like shit.. The convo got to where they said how since smoking affects others around you that its worse then eating like shit.

I am going to paste some comments people posted:

LOL @ the people who look down on smokers, and eat like shit #doingthesameharmpeople!
and 73 comments later.. here are some certain clips..
“how is eating like shit killing, and or putting possible cancer in your lungs? Dieting or changing your eating habits can reverse eating like shit, once cancer shows up you’re kinda screwed.
I think the harm is on two different levels…..”
“didn’t read everything everyone else said.. but while I can see your logic behind this post.. food is a necessity to life. Smoking is not. While eating shit food isnt as good as eating “healthy” food.. it still can sustain life. Now i didnt do research on this.. but no food comes to mind that directly leads to cancer to the person consuming it.. nor the person sitting next to the person consuming it. so yeah.. this isnt comparing apples to apples here.

about an hour ago · Like · 
Like what the fuck.. I don’t understand how we got from comparing obesity and smoking, turned into smoking is so much worse because it effects more then just the user. IT DOESN’T MATTER! Just because it happens to kill others, doesn’t make it any less harmful to its user.

(1:42am) And now that I am STILL having a conversation regarding smoking and eating unhealthy, It is now a known fact that obesity will kill you faster then smoking will.. yeah. Unbelievable.

ARE WE GOING TO FINALLY UNDERSTAND NOW?

This isn’t a low carb diet, or a no food fad, this is a lifestyle that we selfishlessly LOST somewhere. We are addicted to the sugar, to the convienece, to a lazy lifestyle!

  • But just for the record, just like some smokers will always smoke, some people will just always eat unhealthy. 😦

Why do we think we can just sweep things under neath the rug and pretend they don’t exist?

Oh lifes questions, haha ❤

Back to FRIDAY- Today has been so busy I have been all over the place… I actually think I am going to finish this blog tomorrow, because I cannot keep my eyes open and today was actually a pretty good day..

Ate at 6pm LOL in my car. here.. look.

Sorry that it’s upside down.

Told you I was super busy.. I also ate a Lara bar, this one was cashew cookie. I thought this one was gonna be good because I love cashews but um…… it tasted like a hotdog……weird? tell me about it……..

Decided not to go to the gym today.. I didn’t wanna stress out and I got home at 8pm and Im coming up with excuses now. I am doing legs tomorrow which I am SUPER excited about, then arms on sunday. Both with 30-35 min cardio each day.

So at 8pm I ate some “meatloaf” and cauliflower mashed potatoes:

Then I STARTED BLOGGING and bitching at dumb ass people on my Facebook, I am still not in bed.. I guess I can start my Day 20 blog too haha..

Goodnight ❤

Tomorrow’s post will be better, its SATURDAY!

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