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Day 75-77 Time is running out…

Friday

6am wake up
730am had to take bosses kids to school
9am work
6pm left work
7pm got home
8pm got to the gym
930pm left the gym
11pm passed the fuck out.

Friday was just whatever. Had kind of a crappy shoulder work out because I could barely keep my eyes open.. but….. I did finish 60 minutes on the stair master. The lady next to me had to look over a few times… I was like closing my eyes and trying to sleep while stepping lol. Anywho I got through it 🙂

The Food Log

Food consisted of 3 chicken breasts, 4 rice cakes, about 6oz of lean ground turkey and a shake. I love simple food. It does NOT take much to please me any more lol. I mean check these pictures out.. Rice cakes with Lean ground Turkey salted with Parmesan cheese. No joke. De fucking licious. I don’t know what got into to me.. THEN the Walden Farms No Calorie Caramel topping on top of a rice cake with cinnamon…. fucking amazing. Maybe its the new weed.. lmfao. Btw.. pot smoking is mind over matter. I posted a picture yesterday because of 420 (got taken down today and now I’m blocked on Facebook for a bit lol) had a lot of reactions. I had people text me and say don’t smoke and I obviously ask why.. and they say because its counter productive.. (again I ask how) and he’s like because you eat like shit, get cravings, blahblahblah FUCK THAT.. no you don’t.. I haven’t had a cheat in HOW long? Validate your shitting eating habits some other way (and yes I have used being high as a reason as to why Ive binged, and Ive been honest about that.. but all said and done its mind over matter) because it’s so overrated. Or maybe I can’t be part of the study, because I am hungry all the time lol… but seriously…. (on a lighter note 2 weeks outs, I have to quit.. so thats in a few days lol)..

The Workout

Shitty Back workout, but a solid 60 Minutes on the stair master.

Day 75 in Pictures..

  1. Hanging out with Tess and Cody 🙂
  2. Lunch.. oh how I am going to miss my condiments..
  3. My lovely mess.. I know its dark sorry… but I burnt 3 rice cakes..
  4. Stairmaster COMPLETE! 60 min BOO FUCK YEAH! ha
  5. Lean Ground Turkey YUMMMMM!

SATURDAY  (:

Woke up early as fuck, 7am. Thought I slept in lol but laid in bed till 745am, at the gym by 830am.

The Food Log

10am Protein Shake (Dymatize, 1 1/2 TBS PB2, Ice, Water) 2 Salt Free Rice Cake w/ Walden Farm’s No calorie topping.

1pm Rice Cakes w Lean Ground Turkey SO FUCKING GOOD (I put a DABBLE of light sour cream and parmesan) w/ a  SMALL piece of dark chocolate.

430pm Protein Pancake (Muscle Egg and PB2)
630pm 2 Rice Cakes withLean Ground Turkey.

from then till 855pm I’ve eaten 2 squares of dark chocolate and 10 regular white chocolate chips (IDK) and then my mother came into  my room with a shit ton of mail and two packages and my hers muscle and fitness magazine (yay).. The swim suit came in, as well as my quest bars. I’ve already eaten 1/2 of the chocolate brownie one (so about 100 calories, 2.5 carbs)..

No this isn’t bad.. I didn’t want to cheat at all.. but I was totally bored, and my period pains were horrendous.. so in total about an extra 500 calories today.. (leg day but still).. actually this could be a meal but my mother is at the store getting meat for burgers and steak… so.. i overloaded on my protein today.. whoops. any who.. thinking about doing an extra 15 min tomorrow morning and then 15 at night.. 🙂 no big deal

**Didn’t end up eating another meal, so that chocolate and that quest bar is now considered a meal and I would say I over ate by 200 calories. Will make up.

The Workout

830am 45 Min Cardio (Incline 10-16)
5pm Had to start with lunges because everything I wanted to do people were all cluster fucked by.. so

Lunges

60lbs (30 lb DB each) x 20 x 5
This time I timed it (I rounded up) but it took 9.50 seconds to complete 100 lunges. Mind you I had 5 (.15 sec) breaks and 5 (.30) breaks = to about 4.45 in breaks – 10.00 (rounded) = 5.15 to complete 100 (60lb) Lunges!!! :):):):)

I then needed a little break before I did any thing to plyo-y lol..

Ab/adduction

115lbs x 25 x 4

Plyo

20 Bench Jumps (NOT box jumps) w/

10 Jump Squats
x 4

Planks

One legged Lunge (other leg on elevated surface, core tight)

25lbs x 6 x 2 supersetted w/
12 Jump Lunges x 2

Leg Ext

95lbs-125lbs to failure.

No Cardio- legs are shot.

Day 76 in Pictures..

Today was whatever.. I didn’t do shit so I overate. Mostly because I was so tired, but it was all protein. that and fat (cashews and almonds I threw away lol). Just watch how much weight I lose when I take out my fat intake.. oh brother haha.. My suit came in like mentioned earlier.. I like it.. the bottom is too small to use as a regular suit but for competition its perfect.. I’ll show a picture soon 🙂

Not to fucking forget but MY QUEST BARS CAME IN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And to think the Larabar had my heart. They are good. Already ordering more and I advised to my mother that we should keep these bars in the house at all times….. These the Larabars and possibly the Pure Protein bars (they are also low in sugars ext, but not as natural as these two bars. These would be for everyone who wanted to snack in my household, because the food we have here now would make you sad).. But yes.. definitely going to rave about these bars.

Sunday (Funday)

Not really gonna be too much fun today lol. Woke up early as balls again. I think my internal clock is not set for 645am, where as before it was a solid 830am. Meh. Sure as fuck better not be a weekend thing. But I got up at got to the gym at 7:11am only to realize they aren’t open till 8am. Not a happy camper because I’m cold and Im not still in bed. Anywho went back and finished a little bit later. I have a 2 hour exam due today, and I need to finish grocery shopping and prepping for the week and read over Chapter 8 before bed. So nothing TOO exciting just a nice little sunday.

The Food Log

915am Protein Shake (Dymatize, Pb2) and 1 Salt Free Rice Cake
1pm Quest Bar (OMG LOVE)
4pm BBQ with the madre, pics are DELISH!
730pm 1 cup egg whites
10pm 6oz Filet Mignon lol

The Workout

815am 45 Minutes of Cardio

5pm Bi’s and Tri’s

BB Bicep Curl/ DB Bicep Curl 

supersetted with BW Bench Dips

Cable Bicep Curls with (higher/lower)

Tricep Pushdown 60-90lbs

35 Minutes of Cardio (Incline 12)

Day 77 in Pictures..

  1. New tanning lotion – tingle!!
  2. Asparagus on sale again.. don’t mind if I do
  3. Some of the food on the grill
  4. FOOOOODDDDD ❤
  5. Food all laid out.
  6. What I ate 🙂

 So today started with me in the parking lot of LA Fitness at 7:11am not realizing they don’t open till 8. Who the fuck opens a gym at 8 on the weekends.. lol.. Well whatever, just drove home blogged a bit then went back like a douche. Then on my way back the second time I think it was 5:15pm or something like that and I thought they closed at 6… lmfao.. but they didn’t, it was 8pm so that was good. I would of been even more pissed had that situation turned out not in my favor.. meh.. any who.. Had to take a 2 hour exam today too for Sports Nutrition class, but it ended up not working.. I had to go back and forth with my teacher and didn’t finish it till 4pm.. I originally wanted to take it at 10am…. so a little infuriating but no big deal 🙂 Ended up BBQ’ing with the madre. We have so much food you would think we were serving a 6 course meal for 4. But it was just my meal prep for the week, and so she doesn’t binge on a bag of nutrition less pretzels. Blahblahblah saw a movie, cabin in the woods.. Don’t even know what to say lmfao. Did NOT expect any of that shit. Got home at 930pm, in bed by 10 🙂 How’s that for ya? Excited eh.

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Day 20 The N Word?

 Mark Twain wrote that
“the difference between the almost right word and the right word is really a large matter.”

So my hunger pains in the morning are So bad 😦 its almost like I can’t wake up fast enough to eat, they literally hurt so bad. So this morning when I go downstairs to make something my mom brings up this article she just read. In which a high school teacher (or a different level of education) called Whitney Houston a Nigger on his Facebook.  So while she is explaining on why she doesn’t think the punishment fit the crime (he was suspended), and that he shouldn’t of gotten reprimanded at all, I was biting my tongue.

I usually have the “i don’t give a fuck additude” practically all the time, but this time I was actually in favor of it. Why would a EDUCATION TEACHER use “nigger” to DESCRIBE Whitney Houston? Honestly?

You couldn’t of found a better word to use to describe someone? Unless you were trying to piss on her grave.

That is of course, he said “Whitney Houston was my nigga!” (which could be, I actually didn’t read it lol), then I could understand. But what kind of M O R O N uses a  RACIAL SLUR to describe someone who just died. Yeah.. I think this may just be a little case of racism. How else could you POSSIBLY justify that. Unless you are on drugs.

I wonder if he was on drugs and doesn’t remember logging onto Facebook and writing a status about Whitney…. hmmm..

ANYWHO

I obviously wrote my Facebook status about it (apparently I found a good reason to have 5000+ friends), and you got people saying its America and you can say what you want, then you get people trying to define it.

30 comments (the smoking and obesity one had over 75 haha).

“No one should be using that word.. Any word that insults or offends someone shouldn’t be used..”

“Say nigga and its all good !! The other one is offensive because of what it means …. Nigga is like saying what’s up homie or what’s up brah , I still don’t use it but see a lot of my friends say it Haha … And a lot of my friends are black so I feel weird using that word ”

“Its a very touchy subject becuz how the word started. Today its rarel used in the same term as it was in the old days, but to some it still holds the same weight. Me i lived in prejudice and ive dealt witb prejudice but it doesnt control my life. People give this word too much power.”

“Who said they can use the word freely? Who ever thinks they can use the word freely. Go to the south side find some thugged out ass nigga and say that word “freely” and see wtf happens lmao.”

“i agree. i say nigga all the time. if its such a horrible word than maybe it shoukdnt be in every fuxking rap song every 5 words”

^(This is what my mom was trying to get at. That since its being used without questioning morals/values/racism, that why should a teacher get suspended for saying it on his Facebook).  I can understand this point BUT he used it in a derogatory manner. In a way that was meant to hurt, or “bash” whitney. He didn’t just MISTAKENLY said it, like it just slipped. It was intentional and SHOULD be recognized. ESPECIALLY because he is suppose to be someone people look up to, who listen to, and grow from. It’s a bad example and he needs to know the severity of ignorance and what it will cost you.

The N-Word is no different. And because this word is only a word, black people have to stop getting offended at its use by white people. I personally am more offended when a white person tries to use it the way we do or in the spirit of camaraderie. And my uneasiness has more to do with the fact that it comes out so unnaturally and phony. That word has become a part of who we are and so it rolls off of our tongue naturally. White people will never be able to say the word in a way that doesn’t make every listener cringe. After all, there are millions of words, whether you want to insult or edify someone, at your disposal. It won’t hurt white people if they can’t use this one — will it?
(this is actually from rolling out.com but when I found the picture I read the article and I COULD N O T HAVE SAID IT BETTER MYSELF!)

You don’t see me walking down the street saying what up cunt? Words (good or bad) should not be ignorantly used, (this could even stem as far as last weeks psych class and how this girl called W. Houston a “piece of shit” LIKE WHAT THE FUCK?! Did you personally know her? WHy would ANYONE ever judge someone on their way of life. You do NOT know peoples struggles and judging someone before you actually know someone is ruthless and so sad), because words HURT. Words do not just disappear from ones mind/thoughts.

words =powerful. VERY POWERFUL. Use them wisely. 

Sorry, I’ve been ranting a lot and I wish everything that comes out of my mouth is recorded because remembering all my KEY points is hard, especially when I have PB&J blondies cooking in the oven.

This turned out okay. Had I made them correctly they would definitely curb a sweet craving. I added PB2 instead of actual PB. And I didn’t use all the B. Sugar they wanted.

So it was sweet, not TOO sweet, but def not enough PB taste 😦
But no big deal, they are half gone. Awesome.

So real quick :

9am green smoothie (spinach banana mango flax fiber ice orange juice and L-Carnitine).
&& I ate some PB&J squares.

1pm “meatloaf” and some leftover cauliflower “potatoes” (only ate 1/2).

2pm Leg Work Out:

Deadlift:

2 sets of 10reps x 65lbs

1 set of 8 reps x 75lbs

1 set of 6 reps x 85lbs

Back Ext:

3 sets of 8 reps x 45lbs

Lunges:

2 sets of 25 reps x 40lbs

2 sets of 25 reps x BW

Leg Ext:

1 set of 12 reps x 65 lbs

1 set of 10 reps x 80 lbs

2 set of 9 reps x 95lbs

1 set of 8 reps x 110lbs

1 set of 6 reps x 125lbs

1 set of 4 reps x 140lbs

3pm Myofusion and Banana Protein Shake.

330pm Took Marley to Mike’s house , so she could meet Deuce. I have some really cool pictures of the two together. Deuce was like in LOVE with Marley and wouldn’t leave her alone. They played for a hour straight (played in the water with the ducks too lol) and now she is PASSED the fuck out on the couch.

6pm Ate the rest of the meat loaf and cauliflower.

So……. I’m debating whether to go out or not tonight. I would drive…. be the big DD, but I KNOW I will drink 😦 I succumb to peer pressure thats why I don’t ever go out. Granted it wouldn’t be that bad (but if I have to drive they can suck it), but I don’t want those extra calories. Since I more a shot girl then mixed drink or beer, so lets google how many calories are in a shot of vodka.

The last one has less calories right? 😉

70 Proof Vodka

On average, 70 proof vodka (35% alcohol) has 85 calories per shot (1.5 ounces).
This is approximately 55 calories per ounce.

80 Proof Vodka

On average, 80 proof vodka (40% alcohol) has 100 calories per shot (1.5 ounces).
This is approximately 65 calories per ounce.

 90 Proof Vodka

On average, 90 proof vodka (45% alcohol) has 115 calories per shot (1.5 ounces).
This is approximately 75 calories per ounce.

100 Proof Vodka

On average, 100 proof vodka (50% alcohol) has 130 calories per shot (1.5 ounces).
This is approximately 85 calories per ounce.

Yeah.. no thank you.

  1. If I was able to, I’d rather have a cupcake.
  2. You can’t go to Chicago counting calories. AND RIGHT NOW I HAVE TO!

HMMMMM I don’t know. It’s about 7pm, I probably have another hour or so to decide. Mike kind  of wants to go, maybe just needs a DD lol so maybe Ill do it for him. jk. thats stupid.

Got to stay focussed.

Bikini comp details/ LIFESTYLE CHANGE!

So far, I haven’t craved anything really. The baking curbs any need for “sweets”.

What are my have snacks or desserts?

  • Lara Bars
  • Green Smoothies.
  • Sugar cookies (made with chickpeas)
  • Justin’s Almond Butter Packets
SO this is what I turn too when I am craving something sweet.  I do want to get raw cacao now, because all my recipes call for it.. and I’ll finally be able to have some chocolate!  As you know, I have my little guilty pleasure of diet sodas and SF Red Bull. Usually getting a drink helps me not want to snack which is good. Baking also helps when your hungry, because it takes time, but when the product comes out, thats the hardest lol.
Lately I’ve been having GREAT will power, and haven’t thought about bingeing (Greg did leave a twix on my desk and I was so fucking pissed). :/

However, I am tired lately, but it’s probably a combination of lack of carbs and working out regularly now. I did look in the mirror at a bad angle and it kind of warmed my blood a little bit. Ugh I am so fucking impatient. I think that bingeing for 4 weeks straight is going to just DISAPPEAR in 20 days.. LOL .. of course I don’t (irrational-this is not biggest loser) and I tell my clients this all the time. It is fun to watch your body transform though. Speaking of which, I have to start taking progress pics tomorrow. NOT happy. And I won’t show any of you readers then till probably the end of the contest prep. I will however post a before and afters blog tomorrow 🙂 It’s just a little motivation for myself. ❤

I am going to go make another protein shake and then I am going to head to bed. I think I need to start organizing this blog a little more. I feel myself getting overwhelmed. umph.

Goodnight ❤


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