Happy 4th of July!

It’s already 10 pm, so what I SHOULD be doing is passing out only to wake up in 6 hours. However, I decided I needed to get started on my weekend trip to wisco sooner rather than later. The boy and I left Wednesday night around 10pm and got to the house around 2am (I believe).. We did our usual stop at the gas station before heading onto the road in which I just started doing lunges from the car to the station (not one fuck was given). It was in my best interest to work out while I was up there… but that DID not happen. I randomly did squats and push ups (and 25 BW bench dips at 12:26pm in front of a crowd of people before I went in and bought a launch pass LOL) but nothing that prevented that 2lb weight gain at the end of the trip (yes.. I gained weight. oh no!)..

Anyways.. Our last stop before the house was Walmart, where we picked up a few things (rather healthy might I add considering the boy and I are legit fat kids) then headed to his house to get some sleep. The first day we woke up around 10:30/11 and was on the water around noon. The first day was a good one for me and I snagged quite a few different fish off different lures/flicker shads ext which is always a good time! We didn’t leave till around 10PM, yes 10 hours later.. But it was nice because it was the 4th of July and while we were driving the boat back we got to see fireworks from every angle. After that, I believe the boy blew up some shit then we headed to bed. The second day was nice too. I got to lay out for a few hours trying to salvage any color I could, while the boy was off doing his thing. Luckily I packed a few bags of fruit because we were not prepared. The sun just beat down on us and I felt dehydrated at times. I should have brought more food along but I guess I didn’t think I’d last 10 hours on the water.

Bags had watermelon, grapes, blueberries and strawberries!

The next day I believe we were out on the water around the same time but packed up around 6:30/7 to meet a couple of his friends that came down. They had a pretty rough weekend so they weren’t really feeling it. They ended up drinking (as did I but to be honest it was a complete bust. I don’t drink but after 6 shots I was still stone cold sober.. complete fail and waste of precious calories) and blowing off the rest of the fire works. We ended up all taking the ATV out and caused major trouble. In which, I lost a flip-flop, ran into a fence and had the weight of the ATV and Nizzle’s bodyweight come crashing on me.. Yeah.. things got pretty wild. Not smart. Not safe. Don’t try this at home.

Surprisingly, the next morning they went home. They didn’t even go out fishing! I didn’t mind. Just more QT with the boy. We ended up going out to eat where I had a massive burger. See..? LOL and this wasn’t even the picture of the first one. This picture is actually the SECOND time I ordered it.. Yep! We went out to eat at the same place the last day before we went home and I got it again. No shit I gained 2 lbs… I ate it in the form of burgers!! Haha..

LOL

That was basically our trip. It was nice to be out in the middle of the water and not have a care in the world. Except I did (besides being on my boy’s case about being on his phone all the damn time), the minute I stepped into my bikini I was bloated. I was bloated all weekend. Yes it makes sense (going from a clean diet, to well.. not so much), but it was so embarrassing. Take this picture for example..

Bad ass fish but COME ON! Where are my abs???????!

I go from having abs pre vacation to none prior. This is a progress shot I took before the vacation. And let me tell you, I looked NOTHING like this all weekend. It sucked. I worked so hard and I felt like a piece of shit. I don’t know.. But what I do know is how much I wanted to get back in the gym. I missed feeling good.

Progress Pre Vacation

Here is a picture I took while waiting for the boy to put the boat on the trailer. Probably the only thing I am proud of… considering my arms have always been a weak point of mine. Still didn’t take away from looking/feeling like shit. That was/is my only complaint. I just WISH I looked good. It is so vain of me but it is what it is. Again, I worked so hard and it looked like I didn’t work out a day in my life. Such a complete and utter fail.

Yeah buddy!

&& here are a few more pictures of the weekend and a few pictures of what I’ve been eating:

My little fishy 😀

😛

Shopping cart. Shit is on starting today 7/8/13!

 

Def not a 1/b burger.. but would def rather see my abs then enjoy something for 5.2 minutes..

I am not going to stress over the 2lb weight gain, or the picture that I look terrible in. No.. I am trying to become a better person physically and mentally. I am going to push forward from this day on. I am going to give it my all and strive to be the best person inside and out that I can. I can’t keep going down the same path expecting to find a secret path. I have to CREATE it. It is up to me and only me and I will keep on trucking along till I find my way. I do have a lot of great help and a good support team now (which is way different from the last show I prepped for). So a ton of progress pictures will be on their way! Still debating whether to go into detail about what I am doing diet wise only because it is designed for ME. Following what I do may or may not be a good thing. However, I do want to keep track of macros and the progress I make in the weight room. So, maybe I will post it (with a huge disclaimer)!

Heading to bed now (11:24pm fml). I am currently training quite a bit and quite early in the mornings now so I am trying to get as much sleep as possible (that’s when muscles grow right?!) even if it means sleeping in my car. Yes, sleeping in my car. Welcome to the life of a personal trainer.

Minnesota Trip!

Monday morning: love/hate relationship.

Okay, I can’t really say that I hate Mondays because I tend to binge less come the work week but other than that, Mondays can suck it. Especially because all I want to do is curl up back in my warm bed and pretend that I don’t have to be here till 5pm. Sit in traffic for a total of 90 minutes. Walk Marley till she calms downs all the while trying to stay awake (I am ALWAYS tired), till I get back in my car for an hr and 1/2 work out.

Yes, I know.. my bed shall wait.

Back to Monday, today, beginning of the work week and my 43298056 start to my operation getfit.

My motivation is here though, I feel it. Today I will be one step closer to inner happiness. This monday marks an end to an awesome weekend, but the start to something fabulous. The official start to me becoming happy and healthy 🙂

me @ work all gay like

Here are a few pictures of this weekend. The boyfriend and I took a road trip to MN to visit my sister at school. We left the house around 8pm, a straight shot up 94 which was nice. We hit a few construction zones and a detour but clocked in at the parking garage around 2:30am. As soon as we got into MN and called Hayley to say we were close we had a road block up an entire street. Over 30 squad cars lined the block. Come to find out that there was a bar shooting, good shit. My little sister lives in the ghetto. NBD.

The total trip

Leaving work

Gas Station Photo Op

Bar Shooting

We unpacked and got settled in and was welcomed by a drunk girl passed out on her couch. Oh college life haha. I immediately put my things down and headed to the bathroom. I pull my pants down about 1/2 way and hear a thump. That thump was my iphone falling into the toilet. Yeah, 3am tired as fuck and my iphone falls into the toilet the minute I get into her apartment. Unfuckingreal. I really had to go, so I called my sister into the bathroom asking if she had any rice. Luckily her roommates did so she threw my phone in the box. I pouted for a little while but was in bed no longer than an hour later.

We woke up around noon. My sister had already left so her roommate asked if we wanted her to show us where the shuttle was. We got ready and followed her to the shuttle which was extremely close. We put our things in our car and got the last 2 seats on the shuttle. About 5 minutes later we got dropped off by the stadium. Wasn’t expecting all the tailgaters and vendors out so it was exciting. We met up with my sister but went in by ourselves so we got food while we waited for her to be let in (student council thing).

🙂

Game was actually pretty damn good. I don’t know the final score because we left a little after the 4th quarter started, but MN scored at least 4 touch downs. It was cute seeing my sister all school spirited and shit 🙂 It was nice to see her in general really.

The 3 of us..

A screen shot of us

After the game we went to look for food. BBW had a 45 minute wait so we just walked to her apartment. It wasn’t that far but it was a little chilly outside. She showed us a little of her campus which was pretty nice. Though we did walk a few blocks only to see a shit ton of squad cars again, 2 of which had people in the back. lol.. again.. no big deal.

Got to her apartment, babe sipped on some homemade apple cider alcohol out of an empty salsa jar. Figured out a place to eat and was on our way. We decided to hit up Mall of America because babe has never been. We walked around, he won me a stuff animal I kicked his ass in Big Buck Hunter and then ate at Buffalo Wild Wings.

We dropped my sister off and drove 15 minutes to check into our hotel. We got there around 630pm and didn’t leave haha. My sister invited us to some costume party at the frat houses but I didn’t bring anything acceptable to wear and I obviously hate going out in public as it is. So, we ordered room service and passed out. We did however get up early enough to go to breakfast in the lobby, but then got lazy for a few more hours before checking out around 1230pm. We met back up with my sister, brought her lunch but only stayed for a hug and kiss goodbye.

Room Service at it’s finest 🙂

After what seemed like forever we found a Starbucks. He got his fix and we were on the way. I passed out because well that’s what I do best. We took a detour and stopped at his house in WI to pick up his dog Deuce. Went through the Wisconsin Dells which I enjoyed, passed out for a few more hours and got to his house around 9. I didn’t stay for long, transferred my belongings and was home around 10. Said hello to the madre, went upstairs with Marley and didn’t leave till I had to wake up around 7:45 this morning. 🙂

What another great weekend I had. I love spending time with good people and not worrying about my day to day struggles.

Monday Morning. An end and a beginning all in one.

Now it’s time to get started..

Late weekend post.

I could not of asked for a better weekend.

That’s all I should write. Words literally couldn’t describe the weekend I had. Or maybe I wouldn’t be able to describe it well enough lol. Regardless it was amazing.

The boyfriend picked me up around 8pm and we headed to Wisconsin. Trip wasn’t that bad and after a stop at Walmart we made it there around midnight or so. We unpacked the groceries and made a few cocktails. We ended up taking a few shots and spent the next few hours talking. Talking about life and choices to come. It was really nice.. too bad I had to end it with random tears down my face.

Typical.

Groceries for us 2

We went outside for a smoke and star watched for a little bit. It was so peaceful, looking up and it being clear as day. The stars were shining so bright. A burn mark and shooting star later we went inside so he made me a pb and j (mine with wheat bread. obviously. so obvious he got his own white loaf at the store lol).. and passed out around 6am.

We woke up around noon. I cooked him and I some breakfast while he stayed in bed for a little while longer. After breakfast we packed up and got the boat set. Around 2 pm we were out in the water. We spent 4 or so hours fishing, drinking cocktails, enjoying life. It was a little cold but we were super prepared, and so I sat my happy ass down with another sweater. We stayed till it got dark, and loaded back up.

baby with my fishyyyyy

I beat him 13-8 🙂

After we got home, his dad came back with us to switch cars (we took a Camry there.. thanks enterprise) and needed a tow hitch so we borrowed his car. He fixed our grill and we all date dinner together. It was nice.. minus the whole language barrier but I just like being in good company. We marinated chicken breasts and steaks and had onion stuffed potatoes wrapped in bacon (my babe is the greatest) and a few polish sausages. We ate, cleaned up a bit both house and ourselves and headed to the casino. Went straight for the bar, grabbed a vodka tonic and sat down at the computerized roulette table (my favorite). We both put down $20. A few turns or so 5 guys sat down and filled the table completely. Now I actually liked being the only two people there, and liked it so much more when I realized these tools were rude as fuck. Regardless, they all threw down $200.. I sat next to a guy and all he was betting was $5 or $10.. so when he hit he hit big. Fuck.. I am so competitive and then you throw money on the table and it escalates lol. Baby lost all his and I left when I hit $40.. now that I think about it I guess I made up for his loss. Until we sat down at the penny slots and I literally got pissed after I lost $3. Dumbest machine ever. So I asked if we could play again before we left. Lol.. he just wanted to leave, I wanted to win some money. He agreed (like the best bf he is) and we put down $25 more. By that time the guy to my right was up 1,200. Yeah. $1,200. I saw his winnings at the bottom of the screen and nearly shit myself. I ended up losing all $25 but baby got $50 back. So we were all straight. We left immediately after and went to stop by boner again. Probably the classiest strip club I have ever been too (probably because I have only been to one. lol). We had a vodka tonic and enjoyed each others companies. It was just one of those nights lol..

bf making dindin

We headed back home around 2 or so realized we ran out of alcohol. I forget what we started drinking but I do remember my pb&j tasted great.

but then I think I passed out.. Probably because I love sleeping.

We wake up this time around 11am. Babe is a complete bed hog and his dog didn’t make it any better. lol so I did what I could and woke up to his dad knocking on the door. We got up and I made breakfast again. Scrambled eggs with sausage and a left over bacon wrapped potato. It was awesome.

We grab our shit and head to the lake. It was pretty nice out so I dealt with my north face. We cast for a few hours, again so peaceful. I caught more fish again, but only 2 keepers. I was happy with my fish though. I even touched one.

HA!

my keeper!

my sexy boy

A few sober hours later we packed up so we could get a start to our drive home. We packed up, cleaned up, made brownies and headed home.

Everything was perfect.

Driving home I reflected on a lot. this weekend has made me really enjoy my life. Right now, it is everything I could ask for. I am still going through a lot but having the right people in my life has made it so much better. I spent all weekend with the love of my life, doing things we love doing, in a peaceful happy place. Spending all that time with him, I have realized how truly in love I am with him. He completes me, nothing else I can say.

Alright I am stopping now because I swear I could write a novel of my feelings for him. Just ask him how many times he catches me starring.. lol…..

creepy.

ha.. just a great weekend to remember while sitting here Wednesday morning 🙂

Already planned a back workout with Ashley tonight at 8. Going to do a few upper body exercises abs then finish with an hour of cardio. Cardio goes by so much easier/faster when you have someone with you. Going to focus today and tomorrow because this weekend will be a clusterfuck. The boyfriend and I are visiting my sister in MN at school. We have a football game and theme park already planned but I think the experience itself will be exciting. A mini road trip with the love of my life, and him meeting my sister for the first time 🙂 I have never done something like this before and couldn’t be happier that everything in my life at the moment is all falling into place.

Fishing is an off season bikini competitor’s hobby..

.. and why it’ll make me fat.

1. Only way I have patience is when drunk.

• Alcohol makes you fat.

2. When you go cat fishing you’re drunk late at night. Late night munchies in Wisconsin = bar food.

• Bar food tastes great when drunk.

3. I’m one lazy mother ——.

• Perfect.

 

Yep. I caught this.

but to hell if I’d touch it.