Marley and me.

I think Marley knew something was wrong last night. She likes sleeping with my mom and whenever I close the door she sits by it till she realizes it’s not going to open. Instead of doing that, she cuddled up and became the little spoon almost instantly. As her head rest on my arm, I started crying. She knew, looked up and licked the tears running down my face. She makes me at peace.

This morning.

Paleo Strawberry Shortcake

Paleo Strawberry Shortcakes

Strawberries (as many as you think you need)

Wash and slice strawberries. Take about one cup of berries and blend in a blender or food processor. You can add a drizzle of honey or maple syrup if you wish. Toss the sliced berries with the pureed berries. Cover and put in the fridge.

Almond flour shortcakes

2 1/2 cups almond flour
1/2 tsp sea salt
1/2 tsp baking powder
1/4 cup almond or melted coconut oil
1/4 cup maple syrup or honey
2 eggs
1 tsp lemon juice

Preheat oven to 350. In large bowl beat eggs. Add syrup, oil and juice. Then add almond flour, salt and baking soda. Mix until batter is stick and well combined. Drop 1/4 blobs onto parchment lined baking sheet. Space about 1-2 inches apart. Bake for 20-25 minutes or until golden brown. Serve nice and warm covered in fresh berries. To store, place in zip top bag. And for future enjoyment, reheat the shortcakes in the toaster oven.

 

So I made this.. or at least attempted too. L.M.F.A.O HOWEVERRRRR the original recipe I got the idea from no joke said 1 TABLESPOON salt. WTF? I listen and read well.. so I did just that and HOLY FUCK a big no no. I should of known better but come on! The consistency was awesome just you know… a little salty……… AND I FUCKING LOVE SALT! haha.. no bueno. But here is a different recipe and y’all should make it. This with my coconut whipped cream. Fuck yeah. Enjoy.

 

&&

 

I missed 3 work outs (days rather).. the heat is getting to me and I’ve been exhausted and moody. I swear everything has been getting to me. I told my boyfriend just the other night that I think I like being angry/ and or sad. No joke. It’s like the littlest things upset me. Not that I want to get into it or anything but he doesn’t deserve the shit I say.. like my “k” responses or even worse, “ok.” like what the fuck? Granted this is a new relationship and were both getting use to things, I am trying. Not that I am perfect by any means but I notice these things and he is the LAST person that deserves the brunt of my episodes. It hurts me knowing that I hurt him. I love him with all of my heart.

Weekend Recap

Where do I even begin?

Blueberry Pancakes w/ Walden Farms Pancake syrup

Friday Night- Driving to RSD

My boo and his boo 😉

Showing off my picture taking skills 😉

Saturday Morning- Pre Work Out

Boat Fail

Picture fucking perfect 🙂

Sunday Funday =D

 

Friday after work the boo and I went to RSD- dragstrip. Had a great time.. he raced his car with a new tranny and hit 13.0 (so proud of you boo).. He was super excited and it was ADORABLE.. I also ate a burger. It was great.

Saturday Morning rolled around and he left pretty early to do a job while I got my ass to the gym… we all know I am uncomfortable as fuck (or insecure I suppose) about being in a bikini in front of a shit ton of people.. Figured I would of been fine.. had a flat stomach when I woke up..abs were slightly visible.. blahblahblah got a leg workout in and drank my normal post workout protein shake but as the hours went by I got more and more uncomfortable. Go figure.

I told my boy the day before that if I don’t feel like going (aka I look like shit) that I still want him to go and enjoy himself. He knows how I am and how I get and I appreciate it to the fullest, but doesn’t mean that he needs to put his life on the back burner just because I don’t know how to just go with the flow… buttttt I ended up going and still had a great time. My boss came out with his boat and another co worker had a friend out there too. It was hot but not sunny music blaring and smiles all around. After 4ish hours went by I started getting a little too drunk for my liking.. I told my boy to go get his keys so I could get away from the music (head started to spin).. as I was walking up to the car he thought I was mad at him (miscommunication on my part) and we got into a littler argument about looking at girls? uhh.. I was silent during this whole thing so when he started throwing shit around I obviously got aggravated.. I don’t give a FUCK who he looks at.. as long as I am not cheated on for once in my life, I am all gravy.

So shit went south, I left to go back to the boat to get my shit, came back and waited a little bit (both a little tispy).. then headed to go get more burgers. lmao. I don’t know why but I have been craving burgers for the longest time. Ate outside and just talked.. pretty much about how in love we are with each other.. and its true. I can’t even say it enough..
ANYWAYYYYYYSSSSSSSS

We got home, he wanted to go out (sorry boo) but when I drink too much I cant be around people I told him to go (not like i wanted him too because I don’t want to be in a house that’s not mine alone but whatever.. hate ruining peoples plans) but he didn’t. We got home, I laid in bed and that was it. Passed the fuck out.

Woke up at 930am lounged around for a bit then headed to TGIF with the boo because apparently I eat what I want. Ive been super stoked to go there for some odd reason. Orders nachos (not that great) but had this cheese dip that was flame.. maxed the fuck out.. Ordered teryaki skewers with sweet potato fries.. ate my bf’s regular fries though and took most of my lunch home.. After we were in a food coma we napped.. for hours. Woke back up again and I left shortly after. Pretty much did the same thing and was lazy the rest of the weekend.. again.. go figure.

Monday morning (today), over slept.. kept hitting snooze but was ever so comfortable. Ill start my early morning cardio sessions tomorrow. No joke. I have less than 3 weeks till my birthday with a few pounds to play with (id prefer to lose my fat into muscle then just lose it altogether).. I can do this. No eating shitty, no alcohol drinking, just clean good fun 🙂 I have a super sexy dress I want to wear and Ill be damned if I don’t feel fabulous in it 😉

 

(Healthy) Apple Pie Pancakes!

Apple Pie Pancakes

(Can be gluten-free!)

Inspired by these guys.

• 1/3 cup flour (ww pastry, white, spelt, arrowhead mills’ gf mix, etc.)
• 2 T rolled oats
• 1/2 cup finely-chopped apple
• 1 tsp cinnamon
• 2/3 tsp baking powder
• 1/8 tsp salt
• 1 tsp pure vanilla extract
• 1 T sugar or 1 packet stevia (omit if you don’t want sweet pancakes)
• 1/3 cup nondairy milk (or more, for  thinner pancakes)
• If you don’t like the taste of fat-free pancakes, add 1 T oil or vegan butter, and reduce milk by that amount

Combine dry ingredients in a bowl, then add wet. Mix, but don’t over mix. Cook on an oiled (or sprayed) pan, on low-medium, flipping each pancake once.

 

I wonder if I could just put these in a muffin tin.. or a bundt cake tin..hmm.. guess and check eh? I steal all my recipes. I am not clever enough to come up with my own.. lmfao… this one is from chocolatecoveredkatie 🙂

 

Work outs and eating healthy/clean is still going strong. I have a boat party coming up in a few days downtown Chicago. A shit ton of people and me in a bikini. Awesome. Don’t know how I feel about it, but I sure as fuck will let you know when the day comes. My abs are coming back and I see definition in my legs (WHICH IM FUCKING STOKED ABOUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!), so my goal of being in tip top shape come my birthday looks like a good game plan (birthday is August 14th, a little less then a month). I am excited to see how I look. I haven’t done much cardio except last night I struggled with completing 45 minutes on the stair master.. but yep.. 45 minutesssss. Usually can finish 60 but I was DRENCHED. I was suppose to do yoga and cardio with a friend but shit got weird and then my phone died 😦 No bueno. Regardless, I had to do SOMETHING.. I wanted to kill Hams today and my upper body was sore as fuck for some reason but I know that if I don’t work do cardio in the early morning Friday that that will have to be a rest day because I am going to the race track 🙂

 

Here have been a couple meals & snacks I’ve had lately:

Apple Pie Quest Bar

I really haven’t portioned anything out or cut out fruit (because of the sugar).. I am learning to eat CLEAN (cept maybe that bratwurst lol).. I am not restricting myself anymore.. I don’t think I am doing a competition for awhile till I relearn how to eat. lol. But honestly a lot of my binges and my outbreaks have been because I chose to label food as good and bad. Now its healthy foods, whatever it is. Fruits galore (I love my fruit), almonds, Ezekiel bread whatever I want as long as its not processed or fast food. I don’t or haven’t thought about binging in forever.. I actually cant even remember the last time I did. I feel awesome. I feel proud 🙂

 

How I see the world..

A beautiful disaster.

A place where evolution cant be stopped, and we fear the unknown.
A place where bad triumphs good.
A place where evil lurks.
A place where human life means nothing and justice is rarely served.

I believe there are good people out there, or I at least try to believe.. but the things I've seen, and the things I've heard, breaks my heart.

Like this story below.

Couple Allegedly Rape 4-Year-Old & Leave Horrifying Evidence in Walmart.

Posted by Kiri Blakeley

on July 2, 2012 at 10:57 AM

Every once in awhile you read a story so horrific and sickening that you just want to vomit all over humanity. Or at least vomit all over the so-called humans allegedly involved in this incident. After a Walmart shopper found a cellphone left behind in a cart in Florida, the good Samaritan turned it in to police. And thank goodness the person didn’t just call the owners and return it to them, because police, recognizing the number as that of a registered sex offender, Alan Johnson, decided to take a look at what was stored in the cellphone’s pictures. What they found will give you nightmares.

There were pics of the phone’s owner and his girlfriend, Jennifer Sparks, allegedly raping and abusing a 4-year-old girl. Cops said the couple were abusing the girl “in every way imaginable” and that it was the “worst” case of abuse they’d ever seen. But what is even worse is that police are investigating whether the girl’s own mother handed her over to this pair of devils on purpose.

More from The Stir: Mom Kills Son for Potty Training Accident, Then Eats Pizza

I say if it is definitively proven that the mother handed over her daughter to be raped by this couple, and knew this is what would happen to her, she should be sterilized. Not just prison. Sterilized. She has forfeited her right to have children.

You can’t really get much more solid evidence than videotape of the couple committing these acts, so hopefully they will spend the rest of their lives in prison. At least this new trend of people wanting to videotape their own deviant behavior means a better chance of conviction.

The little girl has been found and turned over to child services. I only hope she can’t remember any of this when she gets older. And thank goodness these two were stupid enough to leave the phone in a shopping cart. Perhaps on some subconscious level, they wanted to get caught.

Said a cop about the couple: “Two animals are off the streets.” I think this is an insult to animals.

(Paleo) Spinach & Artichoke Recipe

So today is Monday. The day EVERYONE and their mothers promise their going to start the “healthy lifestyle”.. now I am in no way saying this is wrong.. (because I have a thing with starting on the beginning of the week too..).. just pointing out that it’s SUPER common.. Probably why everyone hates Mondays lol. But I love them. Monday marks a whole new week to be productive (my weekends consist of cooking and sleeping), and usually is my Leg Day =D

 

I see so many people giving up, rather giving IN to processed and sugar induced comas because of one excuse after the next.. but healthy doesn’t have to suck (and if it does that’s your own fault).. what I am saying is this lifestyle isn’t hard, but it’s sure as fuck not for everyone (some people don’t care, some people say fuck it after not seeing results after years worth of damage ect)… So do what you can, the littlest things DO and WILL matter.. Choose wheat over white, make your own burger at home, drink diet over regular.. something.. ANYTHING!! It will ALL make a difference, I promise you.

 

Now with that being said.. lets do this guys! Here is a great paleo recipe for the ever so loved Spinach and Artichoke Dip.. Instead of that bullshit you get when you eat out, enjoy it but without the guilt!

 

Paleomg.com

 

(HEALTHY!!) Spinach & Artichoke Dip

Prep time: 10 mins

Total time: 10 mins

Serves: 2-4

Ingredients

• Version 1 (no cheese)
• 2 (14oz) cans artichoke hearts (mine were in brine), chopped
• 16oz frozen spinach
• 1 cup cashews, roasted and unsalted
• 2 tablespoons olive oil
• 1 tablespoon garlic powder
• 1 teaspoon onion powder
• 1 teaspoon dried basil
• 1 teaspoon sea salt
• 1/2 teaspoon black pepper
• 1/4 teaspoon cayenne pepper
• Version 2 (with cheese)
• all of the ingredients above
• 2 ounces goat cheese at room temperature

Instructions

1. Add frozen spinach and artichokes to large saucepan over medium heat and sprinkle with just a bit of salt.
2. While your spinach thaws and artichokes warm up, pull out your handy dandy food processor.
3. Place cashews in food processor and turn on. Grind until your cashews become a flour then begin to pour in your olive oil until you get a creamy consistency. Kind of like a super creamy cashew butter.
4. Once your spinach is completely thawed and it’s all good and warm, drain the excess water from your saucepan and add spinach and artichoke to a large bowl.
5. Add your creamy cashews and seasons to the bowl and mix thoroughly.
6. Serve with sweet potato chips or veggies!

Stolen from Paleomg.com….. again… FUCKING love this girl! Super stoked to make this. Seems so easy and I am in love with this dip.

The Food Log

830am Protein Shake (Dymatize Protein, Whole Milk, Strawberries, Hemp/Chia and Flax Seeds).
11am Ezekiel Bread (1 Slice) w/ 1TBS Peanut Butter.
1pm My homemade spaghetti and meat sauce (ground turkey).
330pm Chicken/Beef Kabobs w/ corn and broccoli.
630pm Pre Work Out- 1/2c Oatmeal w/ 1/2 scoop protein powder.
930pm Post Work Out- Protein Shake w/ Oatmeal and 1/2 banana.
11pm POSSIBLY a casein shake =D

The Work Out

LEG DAY– I just decided!

 

The only thing I am sure of is my 100 weighted lunges. I do 5 sets of 20 lunges (weighing from 40lbs to 80lbs).
But I will for sure be squatting, dead lifting and using the Leg Ext (<– fave exercise) fersure.

 

Enjoy guys!

 

Helpful Article & A Healthy Mac N Cheese Recipe!

So after my bad experience with baking with honey, I found this article pretty helpful. It explains where the “natural” sweeteners come from and the process they go through till they reach the consumer. This article also is a little cheat sheet for when you are baking (adding liquid sugar vs granular WILL change the recipe.. you have to lessen another liquid to equal it out).. So enjoy this article and below it I will write out the recipes of which I made today ( I was on a baking/cooking SPREEEEEEE).. hahaha..

 

Sugarcane Sweeteners

Sugarcane is a tropical grass that has been cultivated by humans for thousands of years. Making what we know as table sugar from sugarcane can range from a relatively simple to a multistep process, and the final result varies depending on the specific steps in the process. Light and dark brown, powdered, and granulated white sugars are all highly refined, while others, like those listed below, are made with fewer steps on the processing chain. Fewer steps benefit the environment, because less processing means less environmental impact. It also means that more of the vitamins and minerals that naturally occur in sugarcane remain in the end product. All of these sugarcane sweeteners can be found in the baking aisle and/or bulk bins of natural foods stores.

• Blackstrap molasses, unlike other sugarcane sweeteners, contains significant amounts of vitamins and minerals. “First” molasses is left over when sugarcane juice is boiled, cooled, and removed of its crystals. If this product is boiled again, the result is called second molasses. Blackstrap molasses is made from the third boiling of the sugar syrup and is the most nutritious molasses, containing substantial amounts of calcium, magnesium, potassium, and iron. When buying, consider choosing organic blackstrap molasses, as pesticides are more likely to be concentrated due to the production of molasses. Cooking notes: Blackstrap molasses has a very strong flavor, so it is best to just replace a small portion of sugar with molasses.
• Rapadura is the Portuguese name for unrefined dried sugarcane juice. Probably the least refined of all sugarcane products, rapadura is made simply by cooking juice that has been pressed from sugarcane until it is very concentrated, and then drying and granulating it or, traditionally, pouring it into a mold to dry in brick form, which is then shaved. Because the only thing that has been removed from the original sugarcane juice is the water, rapadura contains all of the vitamins and minerals that are normally found in sugarcane juice, namely iron. A German company called Rapunzel is the main company that markets pure, organic rapadura in the U.S. Cooking notes: Rapadura replaces sugar 1:1 and adds a molasses flavor and dark color, so its great in baked goods like brownies, coffee and black tea, but it may not be desirable in something like lemonade.
• Sucanat stands for sugar-cane-natural, and is very similar to rapadura. It is made by mechanically extracting sugarcane juice, which is then heated and cooled until tiny brown (thanks to the molasses content) crystals form. It contains less sucrose than table sugar (88 percent and 99 percent, respectively). Cooking notes: Sucanat replaces sugar 1:1 and is also an accepted substitute for traditional brown sugar. Use it as you would rapadura (see above).
• Turbinado sugar is often confused with sucanat, but the two are different. After the sugarcane is pressed to extract the juice, the juice is then boiled, cooled, and allowed to crystallize into granules (like sucanat, above). Next, these granules are refined to a light tan color by washing them in a centrifuge to remove impurities and surface molasses. Turbinado is lighter in color and contains less molasses than both rapadura and sucanat. A popular brand-name of turbinado sugar is Sugar in the Raw, which can be found in most natural food stores, and even in single-serve packets at coffee shops. Cooking notes: Replaces sugar 1:1. Turbinado is a great substitute for brown sugar, too.
• Evaporated cane juice is essentially a finer, lighter-colored version of turbinado sugar. Still less refined than table sugar, it also contains some trace nutrients (that regular sugar does not), including vitamin B2. In Europe, it’s known as “unrefined sugar.” Cooking notes: Replaces sugar 1:1. Can be used in a wide variety of foods and recipes without adversely affecting color or flavor.

Non-Sugarcane Sweeteners
Natural sweeteners are flooding the market these days. Here’s a rundown of some of the most common ones that are not made from sugarcane.

• Agave nectar is produced from the juice of the core of the agave, a succulent plant native to Mexico. Far from a whole food, agave juice is extracted, filtered, heated and hydrolyzed into agave syrup. Vegans often use agave as a honey substitute, although its even sweeter and a little thinner than honey. It contains trace amounts of iron, calcium, potassium and magnesium. Agave nectar syrup is available in the baking aisle at most natural foods stores. The fructose content of agave syrup is much higher than that of high fructose corn syrup, which is of concern since some research has linked high fructose intake to weight gain (especially around the abdominal area), high triglycerides, heart disease and insulin resistance. High fructose corn syrup contains 55% fructose while agave nectar syrup contains 90%. Despite this, it has a low glycemic index because of its low glucose content. Cooking notes: To replace 1 cup of sugar, use 2/3 cup of agave nectar, reduce the quantity of liquids slightly, and reduce the oven temperature by 25 degrees Fahrenheit. It also makes a good sweetener in cold liquids, such as iced tea.
• Brown rice syrup is made when cooked rice is cultured with enzymes, which break down the starch in the rice. The resulting liquid is cooked down to a thick syrup, which is about half as sweet as white sugar and has a mild butterscotch flavor. It is composed of about 50% complex carbohydrates, which break down more slowly in the bloodstream than simple carbohydrates, resulting in a less dramatic spike in blood glucose levels. It’s worth noting that the name “brown rice syrup” describes the color of the syrup, not the rice it’s made from, which is white. Cooking notes: To replace one cup of sugar, use 1-1/3 cups brown rice syrup, and for each cup of rice syrup added, reduce liquid by 1/4 cup and add 1/4 teaspoon baking soda. Brown rice syrup has the tendency to make food harder and crispier, so its great in crisps, granolas, and cookies. You may want to combine it with another sweetener for cakes and sweet breads.
• Honey, made by bees from the nectar of flowers, is a ready-made sweetener that contains traces of nutrients. Cooking notes: To replace 1 cup sugar in baked goods, use about 3/4 cup of honey and lower the oven temperature 25 degrees Fahrenheit and reduce liquids by about 2 Tablespoons for each cup of honey.
• Maple syrup comes from the sap of maple trees, which is collected, filtered, and boiled down to an extremely sweet syrup with a distinctive flavor. It contains fewer calories and a higher concentration of minerals (like manganese and zinc) than honey. You can find it in bulk in some natural foods stores, but don’t be fooled by fake maple syrups, which are cheaper and more readily available at the grocery store. “Maple-flavored syrups” are imitations of real maple syrup. To easily tell the difference, read the ingredients list on the nutrition label. True maple syrup contains nothing but “maple syrup.” Imitation syrups are primarily made of high fructose corn syrup, sugar, and/or artificial sweeteners, and contain 3 percent maple syrup (or less). Cooking notes: To replace 1 cup sugar in baking, use about 3/4 cup of maple syrup and lower the oven temperature 25 degrees Fahrenheit. For each cup of maple syrup, reduce liquids by about 2 tablespoons.

Mac and Cheese Lite

Makes: 4 servings

Ingredients
Nonstick cooking spray
Salt
4 ounces whole wheat macaroni
1/2 cup onion-garlic puree (see “Rocco’s Secret Weapon,” below)
1/2 teaspoon dry mustard
Pinch cayenne pepper
1 cup shredded 50 percent reduced-fat cheddar
1/3 cup nonfat Greek yogurt
1/4 cup whole wheat panko bread crumbs
1/4 cup grated Parmesan

Directions

1. Preheat the oven to 425 degrees. Mist an 8-by-8-inch baking dish with cooking spray; set it aside.
2. Bring a large pot of salted water to a boil. Add macaroni and cook according to package directions, drain.
3. Meanwhile, bring onion-garlic puree, mustard, and cayenne to a simmer in a small saucepan over medium heat, stirring often. Whisk in cheddar until melted. Remove from heat and whisk in yogurt.
4. In a medium bowl, toss the macaroni with the cheese sauce. Season with salt to taste. Pour the mixture into the prepared baking dish and sprinkle panko over the top. Top with Parmesan.
5. Bake until Parmesan is melted and macaroni is hot throughout, about 10 minutes.

Nutrition facts per serving (about 2/3 cup): 237 calories, 17g protein, 31g carbohydrate, 7g fat (4g saturated), 3g fiber

Adapted from http://www.fitnessmagazine.com.. However… I didn’t add their garlic/onion mix, bread crumbs or parmesan. I also didn’t bake it.. I cooked the noodles, drained them, mixed cheese spices and yogurt, added noodles and served. Tasted A M A Z I N G…

.. I also cooked brown rice fettuccine noodles with ground turkey and a tomato sauce (that I swear cost like like $6.50.. lol.. the less ingredients the more expensive? Makes sense).

AAAANNNNDDDDDDDDDD I made coconut whipped cream. Fuck that nasty shit that has God only knows what ingredients in that store bought shit.. This tastes great.. fucking more than great., fucking fantastic and SUPER FUCKING SIMPLE!!!

 

Legit all you need is a can of full fat coconut milk (I also added a sweetener and a few dropped of vanilla). Alright so take the top off the FF c milk and leave (topless) in the fridge for 24 hours. Their should be a film on top that you just scoop off. Whisk with vanilla and sweetener (if you’d like) and ENJOY!!!! I recently got my order for my quest bars and I added a scoop on top of the strawberry cheesecake bar and I fell in love! Shit tasted like a strawberry shortcake. Fuck yes.

SO that is what I have been doing.. cooking/baking/sleeping and working out.. I had a kick ass arm workout tonight.. didn’t do much cardio but did a lot of active rests and plyo work to make up for it. I was sweating like a mad man.. and sort of uncomfortable hence why I didn’t do much cardio. I get like that sometimes, but at least I killed my arms 🙂

Post Work Out 1/2 Meal

&& My Protein Brownie Bars!

This has been my weekend haha.. I am going to finish up emails and PROOFREADING (yes.. you read that right) this entry and put a movie in and hopefully get to bed early so I can get a morning cardio sesh in… less than 4 weeks till my BIRFFFDAY!!!! Super excited.

 

Hope y’all enjoy everything!

 

Sweet Potato Brownies!

Prep time: 35 mins

Cook time: 30 mins

Total time: 1 hour 5 mins

Serves: 5-8

Ingredients

• 1 sweet potato
• 3 eggs, whisked
• 1/4 cup Gold Label Virgin Coconut Oil, melted
• 1/3 cup raw honey
• 1/2 cup Enjoy Life Chocolate Chips
• 3 tablespoons Coconut Flour
• 2 tablespoons unsweetened cocoa powder
• 1/4 teaspoon baking powder
• 1/4 teaspoon vanilla extract
• 1/4 teaspoon cinnamon
• pinch of salt

Instructions

1. Time to bake that sweet potato. Preheat your oven to 425 degrees, use a fork to puncture holes all around it, then throw in the oven for 25-30 minutes. (I’m sure you could microwave it, but I like the ole fashioned way. I’m just so ole fashioned)
2. Once your sweet potato is soft and cooked through, peel off the skin and mash it up in a bowl. And turn your oven down to 350 degrees.
3. Now add your wet ingredients: coconut oil, honey, vanilla, and whisked eggs to the bowl and mix together.
4. Then add your dry ingredients: coconut flour, cocoa powder, baking powder, cinnamon, salt and chocolate chips.
5. Mix well to incorporate all that goodness.
6. Pour into an 8×8 glass baking dish
7. Bake for 30-35 minutes.
8. Let rest to cool a bit.
9. Eat those b*tches. Try not to eat them all in one sitting. Like what may have happened in my kitchen….oops

SO I am just leaving you with a recipe for the weekend. I’ve posted this before (I believe I did..) but really think this could turn out great, however I hate working with honey. So I might switch it out before I “taste test” it.. But I hope y’all enjoy it. Stolen from Paleomg.com.

I am having ups and downs lately and feel like given the opportunity to write or rant in my case will be the death of me lol. All I want is to be negative and feel sorry for myself or cause some other pointless drama. I need to grab life by its horns and control this shit. Fuck feeling inferior.

I am the sole reason for my happiness right?
..but wtf do I do when I KNOW that what I am about to do won’t make me happy?

Who the FUCK does something knowing it will upset them…..??????????????

this girl. 

Think, exist.

I also remember the moment my life changed, the moment I finally said, “I’ve had it! I know I’m much more than I’m demonstrating mentally, emotionally, and physically in my life”. I made a decision in that moment which was to alter my life forever. I decided to change virtually every aspect of my life. I decided I would never again settle for less than I can be.

Paleomg Blueberry Muffins!

Holy crap. I skipped a workout (now have to try to get a workout in the rest of the week.. I do do stupid shit though.. squats in the bathroom, lunges in the middle of the road while the boo and I waited for the cops to leave a house so we could get our car on 4th of July..true story.. but what I am saying is this shit adds up.. you don’t think so but it does*).. and decided that I though I didn’t want to be working out I wanted to do something that still makes me enjoy life just a little bit more. I have been putting all fave recipes in a book, printing out recipes but not making them. So that’s what I was gonna do, bake.

Paleomg.com thank you.

I made your blueberry muffins and I loved them. Although I don’t eat paleo* the ingredients are so simple that I don’t discriminate 😉 and you’ll be thankful I don’t. This are magical. Obviously they have flour and sugar (honey, which is something I wanted to tweak), but these compared to a store bought one its almost dumb to waste all those stairmaster minutes on shit you didn’t need but wanted. hmmph.

Simple Blueberry Muffins

Prep time: 5 mins

Cook time: 20 mins

Total time: 25 mins

Serves: 8-10

Ingredients

• 1 cup almond butter
• 1 cup almond meal/almond flour
• 3 eggs, whisked
• 1/2 cup Raw Honey
• 1/3 cup Unsweetended Shredded Coconut
• 1/3 cup Gold Label Virgin Coconut Oil, melted
• 1/2 teaspoon baking soda
• 1/2 teaspoon baking powder
• 1/4 teaspoon sea salt
• pinch of cinnamon
• 1/2 cup fresh blueberries

Instructions

1. Preheat your oven to 350 degrees.
2. Mix all ingredients together in a bowl. If you’re good at baking, you’ll know to mix the dry then the wet ingredients then mix together, but I do all the ingredients together and it works out just fine.
3. Place ingredients into 8-10 silicone muffin cups in a muffin tin. Or you can use muffin tin paper liners.
4. Bake for 15-20 minutes. Just keep an eye on it, they will puff up and look adorable.
5. Eat them and be happy. And merry.

Oh.. btw.. I have never cooked with honey and I wanted to mention something and then remembered something else about the honey.. it made the batter veryyyyyyyy sticky! Not joke that or I fucked up but they still tasted wonderful. I had to hand mix in the blueberries and was still having trouble.  so I made 6 kinda on the bigger side muffins because I only have a 12×12 pan or 6 muffin tin and this batter was ickkystickyy. I also want to try to sweeten it with a different kind of sugar.. organic cane.. blue agave syrup… trial and error 🙂

and I am a dumbass.

I was looking at the directions and read 8-10 .. literally were making these in a timely manner not reading further.. 15-20.. thank goodness I know to stick a fork inside to see how clean it comes out. These didnt after 8 min.. nor 10.. lol haha

But overall fucking great.. here is her pictures of the muffins and heres mine linking back to my instagram account..

Paleomg.com

They were wonderful (:

..and after I go to get the link for the pictures I see a carrot cake muffin.. hmm.. and instead of the cream she uses (or maybe I will).. these are the ingredients for the carrot cake muffins..

• For the frosting
• 1.5 cups raw cashews (unsalted)
• 5 tablespoons Coconut Cream Concentrate
• 1/3 cup canned coconut milk
• 1 tablespoon Raw Honey
• 2 teaspoons vanilla
• 1/2 teaspoon cinnamon

Yum.

&& as it relate to my fitness life.. I am hanging in there… Not eating as much as I’d like and haven’t been doing enough cardio (on top of weight training) enough to feel “complete” lol. I am still a little soft in areas and have no doubt that will change with a little more plyometric based exercises and/or a little more time on my stairmastermister haaaa!
fuck.

Gotta love the ass that the stairmaster gives me!

..and a shit ton of squats and lunges.